I (15ftm) have bad dysphoria and my boyfriend (16M) says it affects him?

TL;DR ; my dysphoria is really bad, it makes me not want to give/get affection from my boyfriend. A hug is okay, but cuddles and kisses and making out makes me panic and really upset and dysphoric when I'm having a day like this. I didn't tell him I was having bad dysphoria for about a week or two, and when I told him he was upset. He then threatened to break up with me if I didn't "change" (meaning talk to him about how I'm feeling more often). How can I fix myself or change myself so that I'm okay with giving/getting affection during these?

My dysphoria has been really bad for a year, and my boyfriend and I have been dating for 5 months. He says it affects him because I don't like touching (cuddling, kissing, making out) when I'm having bad dysphoria that day. He told me he was upset because he tells me everything but I don't tell him everything. I originally waited a week or two before telling him my dysphoria was bad. He acts like he deserves kisses and cuddles, and it is so rude to me. I don't know if I'm being the asshole here or if it's him? I told him I do this because some things can stay private, and I'm not an open person. He then said "if you don't change I'm going to break up with you." He has changed for me, he got help for his depression which made me a lot happier. His depression and negative attitude was making me Moody and negative as well. He has changed after multiple conversations with him about it, I feel like it's unfair for me to be complaining about changing though. I never threatened to break up with him when he was depressed, but now since my dysphoria is acting up and I don't want to give/get kisses and cuddles, he threatens to break up with me. How can I make myself change and want to be held/kissed?



Submitted April 05, 2019 at 06:38PM

TL;DR ; my dysphoria is really bad, it makes me not want to give/get affection from my boyfriend. A hug is okay, but cuddles and kisses and making out makes me panic and really upset and dysphoric when I'm having a day like this. I didn't tell him I was having bad dysphoria for about a week or two, and when I told him he was upset. He then threatened to break up with me if I didn't "change" (meaning talk to him about how I'm feeling more often). How can I fix myself or change myself so that I'm okay with giving/getting affection during these?My dysphoria has been really bad for a year, and my boyfriend and I have been dating for 5 months. He says it affects him because I don't like touching (cuddling, kissing, making out) when I'm having bad dysphoria that day. He told me he was upset because he tells me everything but I don't tell him everything. I originally waited a week or two before telling him my dysphoria was bad. He acts like he deserves kisses and cuddles, and it is so rude to me. I don't know if I'm being the asshole here or if it's him? I told him I do this because some things can stay private, and I'm not an open person. He then said "if you don't change I'm going to break up with you." He has changed for me, he got help for his depression which made me a lot happier. His depression and negative attitude was making me Moody and negative as well. He has changed after multiple conversations with him about it, I feel like it's unfair for me to be complaining about changing though. I never threatened to break up with him when he was depressed, but now since my dysphoria is acting up and I don't want to give/get kisses and cuddles, he threatens to break up with me. How can I make myself change and want to be held/kissed?
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