Hi, first time posting... I need to talk through my first experience with consensual non-consent with anyone willing, because I feel confused. I think that is allowed by the rules, mostly I need advice on how to figure out how I feel about what I just experienced. I [25F] and my fwb [33M] have long been discussing BDSM practices, and we've enjoyed all of them so far. Last night, I brought up CNC and told him I wanted him to overtake me and to struggle under his weight, and he told me to pick a safeword. I went with "enough" and stressed that I didn't want him to stop if I said, well, "stop", "no" or "let go". However, he told me to pick a non-sexual word for it, so we went with "red". After that, he completely overpowered me and I could not break loose from his grasp. I struggled, squirmed, said "no", "stop", "let go", "enough" (this having been ruled out as a safeword). He told me to s...