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How to deal with lukewarm interest?

A little before New Year's of this year, I got out of a relationship where the guy came on really strong, said I love you after two dates, was nagging me to pick out a ring ASAP, wanted us to have kids right away, FaceTime videochatted with me on the phone every single night since we met--you get the idea. I ended up not wanting to marry him once I actually got to know him (for reasons other than him being really into me). ​ Since then, I have dated a few guys... but I'm now facing the opposite problem: I feel like they want to go on dates with me, but they're not THAT into me. And I'm afraid to get invested in them and then get hurt. ​ Note: It's not an age thing, since the guy who was dying to get married was 31 and the other guys are 35-37. I'm early 30s as well. None of us has any kids. I met the marriage-eager guy in real life and met the guys below via OLD. ​ Guy 1, The Player: Handsome and charming, but we had zero in common. I felt like his charm...

Please help! I’m not sure what I should do in this situation! Kinda lost atm

So to give a quick overview, a friend had recommended me download OKC to try it out. So I did, a couple days in, a beautiful woman messaged me. This was at the end of March beginning of April. I’m 31m she is 26f Kinda blew my mind, so we kept chatting, she gave me her number. I found out she lives out of state but is moving to my city mid July! I was thrilled. So we keep chatting and I let her know, I’m on my friend’s flight benefits so I can actually come see her for free. She was super happy. She had told me though, she still lives with her ex and another roommate. They broke up because of differences in ambition and views on kids. She would assure me though that nothing is going on between them and that it’s done. So we made plans I’d come down mid May and just stay for the weekend. Leading up to the trip, we would chat a lot every day and since we were really busy we would send quick video messages talking about our day or pictures, nothing risqué just cute ones and what not. ...

Dating life goes from 0 to 200.. [37M] [30F] [25F] ...am I being gross?

I'm [37M] just starting to get back into the dating game after finally feeling recovered enough from a bad heartbreak - took me almost 8 months to start feeling emotionally available enough to attempt any form of meaningful romance but actually starting to feel good again on a daily basis, so back to it! So -- I'm back on the apps and had a good first date with an intelligent attractive woman [30F] and planned a second, but in the interim another woman [25F] appeared spontaneously via instagram -- her and I met at art events previously, didn't know her too well but we began chatting one night when she responded to one of my IG stories. She was being fairly forward in our correspondence and ended up coming by after work one night where we hooked up. She seems like a bit of a party girl -- fun person, some overlapping tastes -- seems down to just hook up and kind of wish it had happened sooner since she's been in the wings for a bit. Then, date 2 with [30F] happened an...

Gentle reminder to OLD users out there to review your match's profile

I just met up with a woman from Hinge for coffee this morning. Things went well enough. In the course of our conversation, family plans were brought up. I state on my profiles, where applicable (Bumble and Hinge have these filters), that I'm childfree. I don't want kids. She states that she would like kids one day. She doesn't have that info filled out either way on her profile. I am a little bit disappointed by this. We matched earlier this week and we both had plenty of time to look over one another's profiles. Am I being unreasonable for expecting a match to at least look my profile over once before actually meeting? I did at least discover a new breakfast joint, so the morning wasn't a total waste. Submitted May 23, 2019 at 07:44PM I just met up with a woman from Hinge for coffee this morning. Things went well enough. In the course of our conversation, family plans were brought up. I state on my profiles, where applicable (Bumble and Hinge have these filt...

I am in an on and off 11 years worth of relationship with my (adopted) older brother. Time to shit or get off the pot for both of us.

(long) Before anyone starts to bleat out 'sweet home Alabama', there are three things: Just as the title said, he is my adopted older brother. I was adopted into the family. No blood relation what-so-ever. We are even of two different races. I was adopted into the family when I already turned 17. He already left our parents' house a few years before that to live in neighboring country. So we did not grew up together. We are not from Alabama, we are not even from the US. Bonus point: I actually unironically like some songs from Lynyrd Skynyrd. So suck it lol. When I was 15, I won an International Student Homestay Programs in Germany and my homestay parents were my now adoptive parents. They were middle aged couples who have two adults sons (20 years old and 30 years old). Both sons were already living in neighboring country by then and starting their own business. I bonded very well with my homestay parents cause they wanted to have a daughter and I wanted ...

When the "L-Word" isn't reciprocated

I'm looking for a little advice from someone who has been on either side of this situation... What you did or what you wish the other person had done.  The TL;DR version is that I told my boyfriend I loved him. He has not said it back. I thought that I would be ok with him not saying it back but I'm finding it hard to determine where to go from here. Do I continue to say it when I feel it? I don't like the idea of almost shoving in his face, and also I don't like the awkwardness that seems to ensue after I say it and he doesn't have a good response. Then again it sucks feeling like I'm holding it in. Am I wasting my time with someone who isn't emotionally available? Are there any conversations we should specifically be having regarding this?  The long version of the story is that we've been dating for 8 months. I started thinking about the L-word in February (so approx 5 months into the relationship) and found myself actively wanting to say it about a...

Finally Ready to Jump Back In

I was on OLD for a few months last year, met some great guys, some not so great ones. BUT I think I made too many mistakes -- getting attached too soon, not valuing myself enough to wait on sex, and using the number of messages I got as validation. I told myself I'd take 2019 to work on me - mentally, physically, socially. Started opening up more to people, lost 30lbs (and counting!), and made some awesome new girl friends. ​ But I miss that feeling of being excited over someone new and special. Someone to hang out on the couch with and yell at the TV while watching sports. Someone to cuddle with in bed. So after finding this sub and PORING over the posts almost obsessively every day, I think I'm ready. ​ Thank you all for your posts and advice - good and bad. The discussions, the things that made me go "Hmm. That's an interesting point." Wish me luck! Submitted May 23, 2019 at 09:59PM I was on OLD for a few months last year, met some great guys, some n...

Is not going to College a "reasonable" deal breaker?

The last woman I dated told me my red flag was I didn't go to college and It's really been bothering me, especially since her parents paid for her to go to college. I mean I'm an intelligent guy and I worked 2 jobs w/health insurance (50-60 hours a week), live with roommates and 100% support myself. What makes it even worse is she apologized. Like crying and asking for forgiveness. She said I was the best man she ever dated. She said that I was the only man she dated who ever did things for her and wanted nothing in return and she had been previously engaged TWICE. She said I was the only man she enjoyed having sex with. She described sex with other men as just laying back and waiting for it to be over. But I STILL wasn't good enough. Seriously am I going to be alone because I didn't go to college? Is that REALLY a deal breaker? Also i find it funny how our generation accepts living at home with your parents because of the economy but me not going to college fo...

Can we talk about the unsolicited dick-pic?

Just got into a conversation on another thread about this and thought I'd open it up to conversation here. I don't know any women that enjoy getting a dick-pick from a guy on OLD, particularly before they have met, yet the practice is very common. What do you think about it all? Submitted May 23, 2019 at 10:55PM Just got into a conversation on another thread about this and thought I'd open it up to conversation here.I don't know any women that enjoy getting a dick-pick from a guy on OLD, particularly before they have met, yet the practice is very common.What do you think about it all?

If everyone else is playing the game I guess I should too

My post isn't groundbreaking or unique but just wanted to vent. I [35F] finally thought I found someone on OLD that I connected well with during the first date, which was a few days ago. Right after the date he told me that he had a good time and enjoyed talking with me, I also told him I had a good time and would like to go out again with him, and he agreed. ​ That was a few days ago and we've been texting intermittently since but no mention of a 2nd date yet from him. I also haven't mentioned anything about a 2nd date so I'm just as guilty. I don't want to be perceived as clingy as I have already hinted a couple of times at a date but no luck. ​ I was going to give it a couple more days and then if he doesn't ask then I'll just assume he wasn't interested. I guess at that point I could just directly ask him? I wish I could just directly ask him but if everyone else is playing the game I don't want to be perceived as clingy or dependent by aski...

How to uninvite my (38F) BF (40M) of 5 months to a party?

We’ve been dating nearly 5 months. To start with we both said we didn’t want a relationship (we meet organically through our work) but we just connected so well that we after hanging out for a few months we realised we were falling in love. We’ve both been married before and don’t want to head down that same path so despite admitting our love for each other we have no intention of merging our lives together any time soon (if ever!) We’ve decided not to meet each other’s parents because his mum thinks he’s moving on too soon after his marriage ended and my parents are super conservative and would disapprove of me dating until I’m officially divorced (have been separated 18 months) Anyway, I invited BF to my brothers birthday party this weekend because I see my siblings as my friends and I thought it would be nice to have a date for the party. It would be the first time he meets my siblings (except for a brief introduction to my brother when we ran into him one day on the street) I’m no...

She just wants something casual

I’ve [M/32] been dating a woman [F/30] since late February this year. We went on dates roughly once a week for the first month and after the third date we were sleeping together. Then suddenly from mid-April to mid-May (3 and a half weeks) I didn’t see her because she kept having excuses of being busy and unavailable. This really threw me as until then I thought things were heading somewhere. She worked a few jobs so had valid reasons but I knew if she really was interested she would have made the effort regardless. I backed off and gave her some space, we ended up meeting again for a date and slept together two weeks ago. This was confusing because I half expected to be told she wasn’t interested anymore. Another week past and we caught up again recently. I decided I wanted to get some clarity. I asked her what she was looking for and she told me she wasn’t looking for a relationship, she wanted something casual because she didn’t want to feel “an obligation to anyone right now”. I...

How do I stop overthinking this?

Hey all, I’ve really enjoyed reading this subreddit over the last few months. First time posting. I’m mainly making this post as I need a place to put my thoughts to paper. I feel like I’m definitely overthinking this situation and could use an outside perspective. I’m a 29M and have gotten back into dating at the start of this year. Probably to no one’s surprise here, it hasn’t gone that well lol. However, I recently met a woman that I’ve fallen pretty hard for and probably way too fast. We had a solid first date with good conversation and chemistry so I asked her out again. The second date was a few days later. It went extremely well and lasted around 6 hours. We ended up at her place after she suggested heading back to her place rather than doing what I had planned for the second part of the date. We shared a lot of very personal experiences and made out. I realized that I liked her way too much after this date and was falling hard. Third date happened roughly a week later. I ha...

"Not right now..."

Have you ever had a crush you confessed to or an ex that broke up with you say 'not right now... let's be friends.' Did you two ever come back together later on? backstory... my ex that broke up with me left me hanging by saying we shouldn't be together 'right now' as well as a past crush i confessed to saying that 'i'm not interested right now'. I know this is a strategy to leave me hanging but has anyone had the experience of rekindling interest later down the line? Submitted May 24, 2019 at 04:19AM Have you ever had a crush you confessed to or an ex that broke up with you say 'not right now... let's be friends.'Did you two ever come back together later on?backstory...my ex that broke up with me left me hanging by saying we shouldn't be together 'right now' as well as a past crush i confessed to saying that 'i'm not interested right now'. I know this is a strategy to leave me hanging but has anyone had ...

Another one bites the dust

A friend got into a long term relationship recently. Another friend got engaged recently. Yet another friend is about to propose and just bought a ring. And I’m sitting. Home. Alone. Drinking an entire bottle of wine to myself. Swiping on bumble, getting basically what could be screenshot directly to r/trashy . I have tried putting myself out there multiple times. I’ve accepted dates from guys at the gym, friends of friends, bumble, work. I keep getting manipulated, lied to, treated like dirt, treated like a slut/whore/what have you. I. Am. So. Sick. Of. This. Four people at work are getting married this year. I’m surrounded by marriage talk. “You’ll find someone.” ... “don’t worry your time will come.” ....say the people who are in relationships. Who are moving in with spouses. One SO bought her a new car. Another guy is working 60 hours a week to pay for the wedding so “she doesn’t have to.” What am I doing wrong? Do I settle? Do I deal with manipulation and gaslighting, bei...

Far away cutie

I matched with the cutest, nicest guy on Tinder but then I realized I must’ve matched with him while I was visiting my aunt! He lives about 150 miles (2 hours 45 minutes) away. I do visit the area he’s from pretty often, but even from my aunt’s house he’s about 20 minutes, and it’s not like I’m there every weekend or anything. But I do have somewhere to stay if I want to go up and don’t want to go there and back in one day, for example. Also, I would probably like to eventually move to that area, but I’m not prepared to for at least a year or two. Anyway, my question is, is it worth even continuing talking to him, given how far away he is, or is it too crazy? Submitted May 24, 2019 at 05:18AM I matched with the cutest, nicest guy on Tinder but then I realized I must’ve matched with him while I was visiting my aunt! He lives about 150 miles (2 hours 45 minutes) away. I do visit the area he’s from pretty often, but even from my aunt’s house he’s about 20 minutes, and it’s not like...

Trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong. Ladies especially, what exactly are you looking for in a partner?

As stated in the title, I'm just trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong, or what's wrong with me, or something to that effect. Basically, I'm nearly 31 years old, but I have less relationship experience than the vast majority of teenagers. My usual pattern is to really go all in on OLD for a few months with thousands of swipes and/or hundreds of messages, then I get discouraged by the lack of any results to speak of (I basically never match or get to have an actual two way conversation with anyone) and quit for a while only to begin the sisyphean process over again after I have some time to forget how dehumanizing it was. I average well under 1 date per year and I've never actually achieved "in a relationship" status. The last time I tried OLD was about a year ago and I had my profile critiqued and edited multiple times at that point, so I don't think that's my problem. I have a robust social circle, a career (archaeologist), plenty of hobbie...

Love bonds

Itni Pyaari lagti Ho Jese Chand Jami pe utar aaya hai Diwani hun unki rooh ka kch iss tarah unka pyaar chaya hai Jeta hun Jin k liye unhii per Marne ka ilzaam aaya hai "I can't live without you Jaan ho meri" kch iss tarah keh k jo unhone hume Bulaya hai.... Abhi💕 Submitted May 23, 2019 at 01:47PM Itni Pyaari lagti Ho Jese Chand Jami pe utar aaya hai Diwani hun unki rooh ka kch iss tarah unka pyaar chaya hai Jeta hun Jin k liye unhii per Marne ka ilzaam aaya hai "I can't live without you Jaan ho meri" kch iss tarah keh k jo unhone hume Bulaya hai....Abhi💕

Distance...

I still think that two people, no matter how many difficulties they have in front of them, will find the way, the way to cope, to fight and to show that the feelings are stronger and real. She once asked me, "Do you know how much I was suffering when you were 2,000 miles away from me?" and at that moment I was silent with the real answer, because I knew that if I answered, there would be fairy tales that would not bring something good, so I replied - "I can guess." Well My dear, I know and what you experienced bad emotions while I was gone and I was feeling it, I just did not show it, I kept it in myself. Do you think I did not miss you, I did not falling asleep with the thought about you, and I did not wake up with the thought of you, and I was waiting to hear your voice (as it is to this day) ?!?? Now, I want to ask her this question: "And dear M., do you know about that feeling, the feeling of being at a distance of 10min, 2000 steps, a kilometer from the p...

Love is letting go ...

I have been in this intense relationship for last 3 years and we have broken up 4 times in these 3years only to be back each time much stronger than before. It’s been difficult to come at terms with her absence each time. What I have learnt is I still love her and probably will love her till my last breath. She messaged me that she is happy with her new life and all I said is am happy for her . Guess it’s letting the bird fly free if she doesn’t come back maybe she was never mine ... Submitted May 23, 2019 at 02:11PM I have been in this intense relationship for last 3 years and we have broken up 4 times in these 3years only to be back each time much stronger than before. It’s been difficult to come at terms with her absence each time. What I have learnt is I still love her and probably will love her till my last breath. She messaged me that she is happy with her new life and all I said is am happy for her . Guess it’s letting the bird fly free if she doesn’t come back maybe she ...

In love with someone who by all accounts, may never love me back.

I am a grade A idiot for letting such a thing happen to me again. After having a bad experience with a gold digger did i solemnly swear that i wouldn't foist myself recklessly into an emotional state for someone again. And yet, here we are. She is my best friend- if not a bit shy, we play games together, talk about stuff, and pretty much message each other every day. It's beautiful, and so is she. But the thing is, as much as i resisted, as much as i knew that she was still getting over a bad relationship, i started having feelings for her, and now they're stronger than a titanium re-enforced structural beam. The reason why this all pains me so is that for every night i dream about her and every day i think about her, is that when it comes to emotions, and emotionally heavy conversation, she kind of shuts down in response. And secondly, i wouldn't want to ruin such a great friendship over the sake of my feelings. So, i feel- unless she of her own accord feels for ...

Falling in love again

Once bitten twice shy. I'm so afraid to make the same mistakes again. Im so afraid of free falling cos I did that once and clearly it wasnt reciprocated. What if I do it again and fail? I think it'll be rock bottom from there on &I'll never try again. But what if I dont give this someone new a chance, will I never know what it could be? Not everyone's the same, I may be naive and new to this scene but he already feels different from my first. Submitted May 23, 2019 at 04:55PM Once bitten twice shy. I'm so afraid to make the same mistakes again. Im so afraid of free falling cos I did that once and clearly it wasnt reciprocated. What if I do it again and fail? I think it'll be rock bottom from there on &I'll never try again. But what if I dont give this someone new a chance, will I never know what it could be? Not everyone's the same, I may be naive and new to this scene but he already feels different from my first.

Any of you guys got like schoolgirl type crushes on your girls?

Sounds so cheesy but I'm head over heels in love with my gf. We're both very much the cute romantic types but sometimes i feel like a schoolgirl. She recorded herself singing for me and i lay there by myself pretending shes there. We fall asleep on the phone together even though i work third shift, she calls around 1 and i stay on the line till i get home. I asked her if she accidentally hangs up do i call her back or let her sleep and she was all you better call back lol. I've been told in demeaning ways that we're cheesy and that we're adults but we act like we're in school. I don't care though..i ain't ashamed. Submitted May 23, 2019 at 05:50PM Sounds so cheesy but I'm head over heels in love with my gf. We're both very much the cute romantic types but sometimes i feel like a schoolgirl. She recorded herself singing for me and i lay there by myself pretending shes there. We fall asleep on the phone together even though i work third shi...

Your opinion?

What are your opinions on being in a relationship with your best friend ? I'm engaged to my best friend and I love him more than anything in the world, and him being my best friend, makes things more open, I can tell him anything without any hesitation, and it's amazing. What's your opinion on this ? Submitted May 23, 2019 at 07:08PM What are your opinions on being in a relationship with your best friend ? I'm engaged to my best friend and I love him more than anything in the world, and him being my best friend, makes things more open, I can tell him anything without any hesitation, and it's amazing. What's your opinion on this ?

My heart is broken

You are back in my life. I dropped everything to be with you and I’d do it a thousand times over. I want nothing more in the world than to be your partner. Your romantic, intimate partner. We fit so perfectly. But you, despite loving me and thinking I’m amazing, are not in love with me anymore. I want to die and I hope the feeling goes away. Or even better, I hope you fall in love with me again. Please God or Jesus or anything out there, give me strength. My only priority is you, and without you, I have no purpose, and my achievements and successes mean nothing to me if I can’t share them with you. The one memory that rests in my head and heart is you sleeping, and the warm feeling of laying next to you. Your warm lips against mine. Submitted May 23, 2019 at 07:23PM You are back in my life. I dropped everything to be with you and I’d do it a thousand times over. I want nothing more in the world than to be your partner. Your romantic, intimate partner. We fit so perfectly. But yo...

how do relationships work?

Hey so this might sound childish right now, and i don't know if this is the right subreddit, but for a few years now I'm constantly wondering what it would be like being in a relationship with someone. I'm M18 and I've been in love quite a few times, but it never led to anything. It either ended up with me being in love with someone who didn't even know me, (tbh i didn't even know them either) or just never taking actions until we both lost intetest. And that's the problem. I just don't know how that stuff works. Nobody ever taught me. I've always been an introverted guy, and I've more or less succeeded to open up a bit in the past few years.. but I still have a hard time talking to (especially) girls. See, it's not like I don't know at all how to treat them. I know that you should hold the door for them, be nice but not too close, softly touch her to make first contact, all that stuff you always hear. blah blah. I can be quite charming ...

difficulties. need a talk

anyone up for a talk? really having difficult times with the wife and don't know what to do Submitted May 23, 2019 at 09:19PM anyone up for a talk? really having difficult times with the wife and don't know what to do

When do you say I love you? Also how do you make it sound less forced?

I’m not forcing myself to say it, I genuinely want to let him know. It just sounds wrong when I say it. Submitted May 23, 2019 at 11:32PM I’m not forcing myself to say it, I genuinely want to let him know. It just sounds wrong when I say it.

I love this boy so much.

Took exams. Drove home. Cuddled. Watched Hairspray. Played Fortnite. Made out. Ate fried chicken. Made out some more. Sister walked in on me straddling him. Oops. Went to the store both in pj pants to get milk and butter. Made blueberry muffins. My family left. Threw me on the couch. Most pleasure a boy has ever given me BY FAR. Many “i love you”s. Went to get ice cream with his family. Sang to the radio on the way there. Had an amazing time. I fucking love this boy. Submitted May 24, 2019 at 01:30AM Took exams. Drove home. Cuddled. Watched Hairspray. Played Fortnite. Made out. Ate fried chicken. Made out some more. Sister walked in on me straddling him. Oops. Went to the store both in pj pants to get milk and butter. Made blueberry muffins. My family left. Threw me on the couch. Most pleasure a boy has ever given me BY FAR. Many “i love you”s. Went to get ice cream with his family. Sang to the radio on the way there. Had an amazing time.I fucking love this boy.

When is usually the first time either person says, “I love you” in a relationship? Any stories?

No text found Submitted May 24, 2019 at 02:28AM No text found

Feels like you’ve swallowed a whole black cloud ...

It’s been almost 3 weeks and the feeling of emptiness is killing. There is a gap so wide left open impossible to know how to fill it or shut it. Every moment every minute I think of her hoping that she is thinking of me too, hoping that she will pickup the phone to call me or message me to reconnect and make our world the way we wanted. Till such time this happens the feeling of being empty will stay. I wait for her ... Submitted May 24, 2019 at 02:41AM It’s been almost 3 weeks and the feeling of emptiness is killing. There is a gap so wide left open impossible to know how to fill it or shut it. Every moment every minute I think of her hoping that she is thinking of me too, hoping that she will pickup the phone to call me or message me to reconnect and make our world the way we wanted. Till such time this happens the feeling of being empty will stay. I wait for her ...

Falling Hard

Falling hard for someone can be damn exhausting. Every moment I'm around this girl I feel so fucking giddy, in a good way. Maybe its not so healthy but to me everything about her is so alluring. Every little mannerism, everything she says, everything she wears. I think maybe the reason that being around her is so tiring is that I'm not sure she'd be interested. I'm happy to be around her but at the same time I'm worried it wouldn't work out. ​ I think it's pretty interesting how falling for someone makes you see them in a completely different light. Things that may have never caught your interest before are suddenly insanely attractive. You notice things about people that you never payed attention to before. ​ I want nothing more than to be with this girl. I've had crushes come and go with ease, but the more time I spend around this girl the more I feel like I'm missing out on something. As if everyday I don't tell her about the way I feel i...

Read my face

"You all time remains busy in books give me some time.. read my face and pay attention on my looks" "why you so looks always in confusion..tell me your problem I'm gonna love you with my deep heart.. and that will be the conclusion" ABHI💕 Submitted May 24, 2019 at 04:01AM "You all time remains busy in books give me some time.. read my face and pay attention on my looks" "why you so looks always in confusion..tell me your problem I'm gonna love you with my deep heart.. and that will be the conclusion"ABHI💕

What Do You Do When The One You Love Marries Another?

I REALLY NEED TO KNOW IF ANYONE HAS EXPERIENCED A LOSS LIKE THIS AND HOW DO YOU CONTINUE TO MOVE ON WITHOUT BEING MISERABLE INSIDE! Long story made short, I don't believe in love at first site or the idea that you have one soul mate. At least, I thought I didn't. Until I met this one guy. He through me off completely. The first time we every talked we ended up chatting for 6 hours and it felt like seconds had gone by. The first time we met it was like a scene from a movie in the way he looked at me and the way I felt. I honestly didnt believe I could ever feel the way he made me feel. We both became obsessed with each other and couldn't spend enough time together. There was this insane chemistry we had on every level. I couldn't believe I met someone like this. For the first time ever, I felt 100% confident that I was dating the man I could die happy with. On our second date I asked him about his past, he mentioned he had been engaged when he was younger, but she ch...

Love

You've got to find people who love like you do.I just keep falling in love and they all leave me. Submitted May 24, 2019 at 06:00AM You've got to find people who love like you do.I just keep falling in love and they all leave me.

My heart hurts so bad

Please just love me the way that I love you. My heart is aching and my head is pounding. You are my everything, and no matter how much you hurt me I just can’t be mad at you. Submitted May 24, 2019 at 06:09AM Please just love me the way that I love you. My heart is aching and my head is pounding. You are my everything, and no matter how much you hurt me I just can’t be mad at you.

I’m in a bit of a predicament and don’t know what to do. I would love feedback and advice. Thanks. ☺️

My girlfriend [F23] and me [M25] are going thru a bit of a rough patch. It started with my depression and drinking while doing drugs to forget those depressed feelings. And the outcome of that was not pretty. I said terrible things to the one I loved and I hate myself for it. I also did terrible things. I cheated on her by talking to other girls and getting their naked pictures and hiding them from her. Then she found out, she forgave me because she loved me. I changed by not taking to any other girls in that way again. But I did continue to say terrible things that eventually ended up scaring her and hurting her emotionally. And now she is cheating on me. She found someone she likes, but she still loves me and cares about me. She said that the person she likes gave her comfort and they did things that she wished we did. She saw a bit of who I was in the beginning. And that hurts a lot. But I realized that I wasn’t being myself and I wasn’t being who she feel in love with. So I change...

Stay and be unhappy, or leave and be unhappy?

Throwaway account for obvious reasons. I apologize in advance if this gets lengthy. My wife and I would be having our 4 year anniversary coming up later this year, but I'm heavily considering divorce. Currently, I work over 40 hours a week while my wife stays home to manage our kids. Over the past several years in our current residency, my time has been consisted of coming home from work to a messy house. Given my wife "works" from home (she sells products), she sometimes has a lot of time on her hands. Sometimes I would walk in the house and she would be just sitting on the couch, while there's dishes to be washed, clothes to be put in the dryer/folded, food in the floor from the kids, etc. Not to mention sometimes, she would also be expecting me to cook dinner for that night. It gets a little worse though. Sometimes we can go an entire week without speaking to each other, essentially her giving me the cold shoulder because something doesn't go her way. One t...