how do relationships work?

Hey so this might sound childish right now, and i don't know if this is the right subreddit, but for a few years now I'm constantly wondering what it would be like being in a relationship with someone. I'm M18 and I've been in love quite a few times, but it never led to anything. It either ended up with me being in love with someone who didn't even know me, (tbh i didn't even know them either) or just never taking actions until we both lost intetest. And that's the problem. I just don't know how that stuff works. Nobody ever taught me. I've always been an introverted guy, and I've more or less succeeded to open up a bit in the past few years.. but I still have a hard time talking to (especially) girls. See, it's not like I don't know at all how to treat them. I know that you should hold the door for them, be nice but not too close, softly touch her to make first contact, all that stuff you always hear. blah blah. I can be quite charming if i have to, actually. But that just always ends with the conversation being over before something happens that would build my experience with the other gender. Like it's just small talk. I don't get joy out of that. I feel nothing, actually. Since I go to the gym and get more mature in general, I actually notice that some women look at me like they find me attractive, but that's it. I just smile back, continue doing whatever i just did, thinking ''what do I have to do now'' So this desire to be loved has grown so strong recently that i start to act weird whenever I happen to fall in love with somebody. I'm always checking my phone, posting something just so she sees it, then I get frustrated because she doesn't react to it. Simply because I don't know how to express myself otherwise. And in the end that good feeling always turns to hate, frustration, even obsession... Do you understand how I'm feeling? I know that there's a lot of potential inside of me but I don't know how to reach it. Can any of you maybe help me? thanks

If there are any mistakes in this text, sorry. English is not my first language.



Submitted May 23, 2019 at 08:51PM

Hey so this might sound childish right now, and i don't know if this is the right subreddit, but for a few years now I'm constantly wondering what it would be like being in a relationship with someone. I'm M18 and I've been in love quite a few times, but it never led to anything. It either ended up with me being in love with someone who didn't even know me, (tbh i didn't even know them either) or just never taking actions until we both lost intetest. And that's the problem. I just don't know how that stuff works. Nobody ever taught me. I've always been an introverted guy, and I've more or less succeeded to open up a bit in the past few years.. but I still have a hard time talking to (especially) girls. See, it's not like I don't know at all how to treat them. I know that you should hold the door for them, be nice but not too close, softly touch her to make first contact, all that stuff you always hear. blah blah. I can be quite charming if i have to, actually. But that just always ends with the conversation being over before something happens that would build my experience with the other gender. Like it's just small talk. I don't get joy out of that. I feel nothing, actually. Since I go to the gym and get more mature in general, I actually notice that some women look at me like they find me attractive, but that's it. I just smile back, continue doing whatever i just did, thinking ''what do I have to do now'' So this desire to be loved has grown so strong recently that i start to act weird whenever I happen to fall in love with somebody. I'm always checking my phone, posting something just so she sees it, then I get frustrated because she doesn't react to it. Simply because I don't know how to express myself otherwise. And in the end that good feeling always turns to hate, frustration, even obsession... Do you understand how I'm feeling? I know that there's a lot of potential inside of me but I don't know how to reach it. Can any of you maybe help me? thanksIf there are any mistakes in this text, sorry. English is not my first language.
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