I’m in a bit of a predicament and don’t know what to do. I would love feedback and advice. Thanks. ☺️

My girlfriend [F23] and me [M25] are going thru a bit of a rough patch. It started with my depression and drinking while doing drugs to forget those depressed feelings. And the outcome of that was not pretty. I said terrible things to the one I loved and I hate myself for it. I also did terrible things. I cheated on her by talking to other girls and getting their naked pictures and hiding them from her. Then she found out, she forgave me because she loved me. I changed by not taking to any other girls in that way again. But I did continue to say terrible things that eventually ended up scaring her and hurting her emotionally. And now she is cheating on me. She found someone she likes, but she still loves me and cares about me. She said that the person she likes gave her comfort and they did things that she wished we did. She saw a bit of who I was in the beginning. And that hurts a lot. But I realized that I wasn’t being myself and I wasn’t being who she feel in love with. So I change myself for the better no more drugs or alcohol. I did all the things I wanted to do with her and the things she wanted to do as well. It was going great for a while. Then I found that she was still talking to this guy in a flirting way and it hurt cause she went on dates with this guy behind my back and I know i did worse with my way of cheating. But it still hit pretty deep. Right now we are trying to fix this but she says she want to move on and be alone for now. She doesn’t want to be with either of us because it wouldn’t be fair for either of us. But she also wants to think about herself and what to do. I don’t want to break up with her. She is my everything I want to be with her for a long time. And she does too.

What should I do? What can I do? I need some other point of views on this. And ask any questions if it doesn’t like there is enough information.

Submitted May 24, 2019 at 06:25AM

My girlfriend [F23] and me [M25] are going thru a bit of a rough patch. It started with my depression and drinking while doing drugs to forget those depressed feelings. And the outcome of that was not pretty. I said terrible things to the one I loved and I hate myself for it. I also did terrible things. I cheated on her by talking to other girls and getting their naked pictures and hiding them from her. Then she found out, she forgave me because she loved me. I changed by not taking to any other girls in that way again. But I did continue to say terrible things that eventually ended up scaring her and hurting her emotionally. And now she is cheating on me. She found someone she likes, but she still loves me and cares about me. She said that the person she likes gave her comfort and they did things that she wished we did. She saw a bit of who I was in the beginning. And that hurts a lot. But I realized that I wasn’t being myself and I wasn’t being who she feel in love with. So I change myself for the better no more drugs or alcohol. I did all the things I wanted to do with her and the things she wanted to do as well. It was going great for a while. Then I found that she was still talking to this guy in a flirting way and it hurt cause she went on dates with this guy behind my back and I know i did worse with my way of cheating. But it still hit pretty deep. Right now we are trying to fix this but she says she want to move on and be alone for now. She doesn’t want to be with either of us because it wouldn’t be fair for either of us. But she also wants to think about herself and what to do. I don’t want to break up with her. She is my everything I want to be with her for a long time. And she does too.What should I do? What can I do? I need some other point of views on this. And ask any questions if it doesn’t like there is enough information.