I (23F) don’t even know what I want anymore. This is probably gonna be long, so tl;dr at the bottom. I started dating my husband (23M) when I was 19, and we got engaged after two months (very stupid in hindsight). We got married on our three year anniversary. We’ve now been together almost five years and married almost two. No children. When we first got together, he wanted to have sex ALL THE TIME and would get angry when I said I wasn’t in the mood. His “body count” was higher than mine, and his ex-girlfriend was really gorgeous (he had showed me her instagram). She had supposedly slept with him whenever he wanted and it was never an issue for them, so I felt very insecure and like I was the problem. I told him it wasn’t okay for him to bully me into sleeping with him, and he has gotten a lot better about it, but our sex life has never been completely comfortable or consistent as a result. Our bedroom verges on dead but has always sputtered along. Fast forward to a few months ago...