My Young Love

I have loved you since I set eyes on you, but I have only understood this now. I have never been good with my own emotions so I left you in the dark so often during those amazing 4 years I spent with you, you put up with all my nonesense and I truly though that I would be ok if you left me, " its just a girl how bad could it hurt". But the day you broke up with me I truly realized how much you meant to me, it was like a dam bursting, all of these emotions I didnt understand, I could never understand why I was feeling so down but now I see its cause deep down i yearned for your attention and you love but I isolated myself and hurt me and you, I know now that you are my happiness my Strength and everything to me in this world. I write this to help cope, I write this so that maybe somehow someway my emotions can get through to you even though you are now with someone else, someone who frankly does not love you, you say my change in hear confuses you, my change in heart enrages you in that I never showed these emotions throughout our relationship, but I tell you this now, if you ever in a million years give me another chance I will make you feel like the most important girl in the world, I yearn for your touch, your embrace your love... I hurt you and now you hurt me.. I just pray and pray and pray that there is some way in this world that I can get you back, I dont deserve you... but just like you said I am selfish... you are the woman I wanted to travel the world with. All those plans we made the hopes and dreams for after we finished university, do they mean nothing now, the laughs we shared, the nights we spent in each others arms, nothing? the way you used to tell me that I was the only one in the world for you... I thought so too, I was just so afraid of my emotions. So I tell you this, there is only so much praying can do, there is only so much hoping can do, so I will wait, I will try my utmost to stay in your life as much as seeing you with someone else pains me, I will be there to help and support you.. I will be here for you... and wait.. and wait. Until one day hopefully sooner than later you will give me another chance. I have never used this word lightly, the only people I say this to are my family, nobody else under any circumstances... but I love you, for me that is not a empty word and you know that. It means everything to me and I want to give my whole self to you and receive all you have to offer, your pain, you happiness you suffering everything. I. Love. You. and I want to give you this whole world

Submitted May 10, 2019 at 04:26AM

I have loved you since I set eyes on you, but I have only understood this now. I have never been good with my own emotions so I left you in the dark so often during those amazing 4 years I spent with you, you put up with all my nonesense and I truly though that I would be ok if you left me, " its just a girl how bad could it hurt". But the day you broke up with me I truly realized how much you meant to me, it was like a dam bursting, all of these emotions I didnt understand, I could never understand why I was feeling so down but now I see its cause deep down i yearned for your attention and you love but I isolated myself and hurt me and you, I know now that you are my happiness my Strength and everything to me in this world. I write this to help cope, I write this so that maybe somehow someway my emotions can get through to you even though you are now with someone else, someone who frankly does not love you, you say my change in hear confuses you, my change in heart enrages you in that I never showed these emotions throughout our relationship, but I tell you this now, if you ever in a million years give me another chance I will make you feel like the most important girl in the world, I yearn for your touch, your embrace your love... I hurt you and now you hurt me.. I just pray and pray and pray that there is some way in this world that I can get you back, I dont deserve you... but just like you said I am selfish... you are the woman I wanted to travel the world with. All those plans we made the hopes and dreams for after we finished university, do they mean nothing now, the laughs we shared, the nights we spent in each others arms, nothing? the way you used to tell me that I was the only one in the world for you... I thought so too, I was just so afraid of my emotions. So I tell you this, there is only so much praying can do, there is only so much hoping can do, so I will wait, I will try my utmost to stay in your life as much as seeing you with someone else pains me, I will be there to help and support you.. I will be here for you... and wait.. and wait. Until one day hopefully sooner than later you will give me another chance. I have never used this word lightly, the only people I say this to are my family, nobody else under any circumstances... but I love you, for me that is not a empty word and you know that. It means everything to me and I want to give my whole self to you and receive all you have to offer, your pain, you happiness you suffering everything. I. Love. You. and I want to give you this whole world