One Day at a Time.

I was once a crybaby. In my family, I’m known as the “adult”, the one child of three who is going to do great things, following in dad’s footsteps, who’s tough and who’s the outgoing one of the bunch. I’ve had girlfriends. I was the one helping support my mother through her divorce and the only child wishing to hear both sides to that story. I’m expected as the one who holds it together in a way.

In my past, I was a crybaby. I don’t find myself crying anymore. Not often, anyways, do I cry. Not anymore. I tend to hold it in, now. It’s not healthy. So, when it spills out, it tends to pour. I’ve been to therapy, talked to counselors, been to church, done the journals, and it’s helped. It all helped. I don’t cry the way I used to. It’s different, which isn’t necessarily wrong or bad, per say. Just different.

When I met you, I admittedly wasn’t myself. I was me, of course, but only through effort. Inside, truly, I was a wreck at the time.

You can’t control when you fall in love. Around you, though, I feel more complete. Whenever I am with you, I never want to be apart, and whenever we are apart, I want to be with you. It was a blessing that I met you, and it’s a godsend that you’re still in my life today. I love you. I didn’t expect to fall in love during such a difficult time, almost a year ago, but here we are.

You have helped me more than you could ever know. You taught me how to love again, how to be loved. I never knew how to be loved, properly. Not without a catch, anyways. No, now I do know. I know how to hold you at night and feel peaceful. I know how to be vulnerable and how to quietly sob in your arms when I need to let it all out. I know how to wake up next to someone that I love knowing that when you wake up you’re going to look me with those beautiful eyes of yours and smile just because I’m there with you. I know what it feels like to be loved, now.

Marriage could be in our future. It probably is, but maybe it’s not. You know I don’t believe in destiny. However, I know that our time together is not over, not for a long while. At the beginning, I told myself “one day at a time.” Just one day at a time. That’s how I was able to get through it all. That’s how I’m here with you, and it’s how I was able to find you. It’s how I’m going to be with you. Life can be difficult. Emotions can be difficult. But each day is a new day. Everything will be okay, my angel. One day at a time.

Submitted April 07, 2019 at 10:06PM

I was once a crybaby. In my family, I’m known as the “adult”, the one child of three who is going to do great things, following in dad’s footsteps, who’s tough and who’s the outgoing one of the bunch. I’ve had girlfriends. I was the one helping support my mother through her divorce and the only child wishing to hear both sides to that story. I’m expected as the one who holds it together in a way.In my past, I was a crybaby. I don’t find myself crying anymore. Not often, anyways, do I cry. Not anymore. I tend to hold it in, now. It’s not healthy. So, when it spills out, it tends to pour. I’ve been to therapy, talked to counselors, been to church, done the journals, and it’s helped. It all helped. I don’t cry the way I used to. It’s different, which isn’t necessarily wrong or bad, per say. Just different.When I met you, I admittedly wasn’t myself. I was me, of course, but only through effort. Inside, truly, I was a wreck at the time.You can’t control when you fall in love. Around you, though, I feel more complete. Whenever I am with you, I never want to be apart, and whenever we are apart, I want to be with you. It was a blessing that I met you, and it’s a godsend that you’re still in my life today. I love you. I didn’t expect to fall in love during such a difficult time, almost a year ago, but here we are.You have helped me more than you could ever know. You taught me how to love again, how to be loved. I never knew how to be loved, properly. Not without a catch, anyways. No, now I do know. I know how to hold you at night and feel peaceful. I know how to be vulnerable and how to quietly sob in your arms when I need to let it all out. I know how to wake up next to someone that I love knowing that when you wake up you’re going to look me with those beautiful eyes of yours and smile just because I’m there with you. I know what it feels like to be loved, now.Marriage could be in our future. It probably is, but maybe it’s not. You know I don’t believe in destiny. However, I know that our time together is not over, not for a long while. At the beginning, I told myself “one day at a time.” Just one day at a time. That’s how I was able to get through it all. That’s how I’m here with you, and it’s how I was able to find you. It’s how I’m going to be with you. Life can be difficult. Emotions can be difficult. But each day is a new day. Everything will be okay, my angel. One day at a time.