Can men give me some insight!

Within a span of 2 weeks, yes two weeks, I managed to fuck up my prospects with a guy I was "dating". The Yale educated Mexican man of my dreams! I had been sending him mixed messages, doing the whole push and pull narrative. Not communicating with him effectively and essentially expecting him to be able to read the underlying messages to my texts messages (I know). I am aware of my faults and have taken a concerted effort to address my communication and attachment issues and was working on said issues before he stepped into the picture. Thing is, he caught me during a very stressful period in my life and my stress and baggage was manifesting itself through my exchanges with him. It culminated in us having an argument about our next "date". I had previously told him I had wanted to be friends but walked back on my decision as I had realized I had made this choice under the stress of exams, college graduation. He was steadfast in his reluctance to not do this. I obliged him. And on that note he made me aware of my own shortcomings but stressed that he would have LOVED to have seen where this would have gone as I am an an amazing, beautiful, brilliant young woman (his words) but told me that I was back and forth, too indecisive. He said this didn't matter because I had sent him a text the night prior saying "this did not matter". He was right, but again, I sent that text out of anger and not being able to see him within days of him leaving the country.

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He became extremely agitated and hung up on me. I texted him and explained to him how I felt and gave him further reasoning for my actions, behavior. (toxic ex, abandonment issues, anxiety etc) He is currently out of the country and has been out of the country, backpacking for the last two weeks and it has been two weeks and I haven't heard from him....but here is the kicker and where I need help on.....

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He is VERY active on instagram, liking other people's posts and posting photos of his adventures...so why in the world does he still follow me on Instagram and why does he actively choose to NOT view my stories or like my posts? If he was done...wouldn't he have just simply unfollowed? I am confused and need some insight.



Submitted May 30, 2019 at 03:24AM

Within a span of 2 weeks, yes two weeks, I managed to fuck up my prospects with a guy I was "dating". The Yale educated Mexican man of my dreams! I had been sending him mixed messages, doing the whole push and pull narrative. Not communicating with him effectively and essentially expecting him to be able to read the underlying messages to my texts messages (I know). I am aware of my faults and have taken a concerted effort to address my communication and attachment issues and was working on said issues before he stepped into the picture. Thing is, he caught me during a very stressful period in my life and my stress and baggage was manifesting itself through my exchanges with him. It culminated in us having an argument about our next "date". I had previously told him I had wanted to be friends but walked back on my decision as I had realized I had made this choice under the stress of exams, college graduation. He was steadfast in his reluctance to not do this. I obliged him. And on that note he made me aware of my own shortcomings but stressed that he would have LOVED to have seen where this would have gone as I am an an amazing, beautiful, brilliant young woman (his words) but told me that I was back and forth, too indecisive. He said this didn't matter because I had sent him a text the night prior saying "this did not matter". He was right, but again, I sent that text out of anger and not being able to see him within days of him leaving the country.​He became extremely agitated and hung up on me. I texted him and explained to him how I felt and gave him further reasoning for my actions, behavior. (toxic ex, abandonment issues, anxiety etc) He is currently out of the country and has been out of the country, backpacking for the last two weeks and it has been two weeks and I haven't heard from him....but here is the kicker and where I need help on.....​He is VERY active on instagram, liking other people's posts and posting photos of his adventures...so why in the world does he still follow me on Instagram and why does he actively choose to NOT view my stories or like my posts? If he was done...wouldn't he have just simply unfollowed? I am confused and need some insight.
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