What should I do with my "friend" whom I love but I don't know if she even cares about me anymore?

So, me (M20) met this amazing girl (19) on Reddit around 8 months ago. We hit it off from the start and one thing led to the other and we became very, very close. She is genuinely one of the smartest, funniest and strongest girls I have ever met and I appreciate her so much. She's gone through so much and stands tall. I developed feelings for her and so did she. We talked daily for a long time, hung out on call, played games, talked dirty on the phone, watched movies, video called, I even came to befriend her little 4 year old sister. But something happened, and I don't know what. At around Christmas, she started drifting apart a little bit and we didn't talk as much. I still was always there for her and will always be. I recorded silly songs for her and reminded her that I would be here whenever, but she never replied and if she did, it took her days. I recently made her an edited funny video about all I think about her still, after months of not talking. She replied and told me stuff like "you are so sweet", "You love me, don't even lie", "I wanna hang out", I've missed you". We talked for like 2 days, I even asked her if she would like me to visit her since I'll be in a state close to her and we both established in the past we want to meet but then she went back to this whole weird thing of ignoring me. I started assuming she doesn't want me in her life. But then I saw the video (I uploaded it unlisted to YouTube) has 15 views, and only she has the link. I don't know what to think anymore. I feel like she appreciates it and maybe me too but then I asked if she wants to catch up on call and no reply, and she's online almost all day.

Here's the thing. Should I just cut her off or tell her how I feel like she is playing with me sometimes or something? Maybe cutting her off is too dramatic but she's done this ignoring thing a bunch, she only replies when I come back with a gesture like the video or a song. I have a deep love for her, I don't care if it's not romantic anymore. I just feel like I've met an amazing girl and I want to see her grow and thrive. But I feel like she might not care about me at all. I also feel like if I ask her this, she might just avoid replying to me.

TL;DR: My online friend started ignoring me and I feel she doesn't care about me anymore even though there are signs she still wants me in her life, what should I do?

Submitted April 27, 2019 at 05:58AM

So, me (M20) met this amazing girl (19) on Reddit around 8 months ago. We hit it off from the start and one thing led to the other and we became very, very close. She is genuinely one of the smartest, funniest and strongest girls I have ever met and I appreciate her so much. She's gone through so much and stands tall. I developed feelings for her and so did she. We talked daily for a long time, hung out on call, played games, talked dirty on the phone, watched movies, video called, I even came to befriend her little 4 year old sister. But something happened, and I don't know what. At around Christmas, she started drifting apart a little bit and we didn't talk as much. I still was always there for her and will always be. I recorded silly songs for her and reminded her that I would be here whenever, but she never replied and if she did, it took her days. I recently made her an edited funny video about all I think about her still, after months of not talking. She replied and told me stuff like "you are so sweet", "You love me, don't even lie", "I wanna hang out", I've missed you". We talked for like 2 days, I even asked her if she would like me to visit her since I'll be in a state close to her and we both established in the past we want to meet but then she went back to this whole weird thing of ignoring me. I started assuming she doesn't want me in her life. But then I saw the video (I uploaded it unlisted to YouTube) has 15 views, and only she has the link. I don't know what to think anymore. I feel like she appreciates it and maybe me too but then I asked if she wants to catch up on call and no reply, and she's online almost all day.Here's the thing. Should I just cut her off or tell her how I feel like she is playing with me sometimes or something? Maybe cutting her off is too dramatic but she's done this ignoring thing a bunch, she only replies when I come back with a gesture like the video or a song. I have a deep love for her, I don't care if it's not romantic anymore. I just feel like I've met an amazing girl and I want to see her grow and thrive. But I feel like she might not care about me at all. I also feel like if I ask her this, she might just avoid replying to me.TL;DR: My online friend started ignoring me and I feel she doesn't care about me anymore even though there are signs she still wants me in her life, what should I do?