Post-breakup love letters my ex will never read

Letters I wrote in my notes a week after my 4 year relationship ended...

19/5 Hi X I’m sick today and I’m in bed. Remember when I was sick on the couch and you cooked beef stew? You still kissed me whenever I was sick. You have a good immune system. I miss you. I’m sad because you don’t want me anymore. I’m sorry I didn’t know how unhappy you were with me. I’m sorry I was selfish and I felt entitled that you should spoil me all the time. I should have been more generous to you. Who will clean your ears now? I cry to myself now. You can’t hold me while I cry anymore. I can’t be in your arms while I cry. Are you sad about me at all? Do you think of me? Are you mad at me right now? Are you missing me? Do you think at all that you want to be with me again? Are your messages to me a cold front? I really want you to be with me. I pray God will give you back to me. When does the pain stop? When do I stop crying about you? Why do you make me feel unwanted? What more could I have done for you? Why can’t you love me anymore?

20/5 Hi X I feel a bit better this morning, the sleep really helped. Are you ok at work? Are you stressed at work? Does work make you happier? I still cry when I think of you. When will you want me back? Will you ever want to be with me again? I’m so sad without you.

X I’m drinking a hot chocolate at Bee Coffee and Haeundae. It’s the best hot chocolate I’ve ever had. Remember we used to enjoy hot chocolates at McDonald’s?

Hi X. I’m back in Seoul now. I bought the cream for your eczema. I also bought you socks I think you might like. I still have hope for us. I hope you accept these gifts when I get back. I hope you have enough space. I hope you miss me and want me back soon. I miss you

21/5 Hi X I bought socks for you last night. I hope you like them. I don’t cry so much when I think of you now. Maybe now I’m not so hurt by the things you said when you ended us. I do still think about the things we did together and appreciate those times. I think it will be very hard to forget you. Those happy memories make me sad. A different kind of pain I feel compared to when I think of memories with my family. Are you ok at work today? Are you stressed? I’m sorry I didn’t take more interest in how you’re doing with work.

Hi X I’m at the n soul tower. It’s a really nice view here. I wonder what you thought about when you saw this view. I wrote a note for you at the love locks. I hope you see it one day. I’m heart broken over you but I feel at peace here.

Hi I’m thinking of you. I hate to think of you with someone else. It makes my tummy turn... are you ok? Are you sleeping well? I have hope for us... I’m not sure if that’s a good thing for me or not. I feel sad writing to you like this. It’s like you’re so far away. I feel like you can hear me even though these letters will never reach you. Maybe one day you can find these and feel what I feel. Will we ever see each other again? Can you still love me again? Did you leave me while still loving me?

22/5 HiX I’m in Insadong now. I bought the aloe vera gel you want. There are other things I want to buy you here... I saw a ring I’d want you to wear if we were still together. I wish I could buy it and give it to you. I like seeing things that remind me of you. I miss you. I still hate the idea of you being with someone else, wishing you were doing those things with me instead. My eyes don’t water so much now when I think of you. I guess it gets better day by day. I still miss you though. I still think about how I’m going to give you these gifts from Korea. I hope you accept them. I’m not doing it to get you back, although I really want that. I do it because I want you to have these things because I know you need them and they reminded me of you.

Hi X I’m having korean bbq at hongdae right now. I miss you and wish we were still together. Why can’t you still be with me? I think about the things I went wrong in our relationship. If you could please help me learn from it and we can be together again. I’m sorry I didn’t care/take more interest in you. Will you ever talk to me again? Will you miss me if you saw me somewhere again? I wonder if you miss me at all now. I feel sad again... I write to you and it feels like you know everything I’m typing right now. I wish you could hear these words. I miss you love...

I must sound crazy writing to you like this. But it’s the only way I can talk to you. I wish I could tell you all of these things. I wish I could actually send it to you. I wish I could see you in person and tell you. Are you afraid that if you see me you’ll have to take me back? Or do you really dislike me that much that you don’t want to see me anymore? How did you go from being so sweet to cutting me off so suddenly? Our last time together you were at my house and we cuddled while watching Netflix. How could I have known that would be the last time we’d be together ever? I wish I hadn’t initiated the idea of breaking up. I regret it so much.

I feel so selfish for wanting to keep you X. You deserve more than what I can offer. I guess that was more important to you in the end and is why you left. I know I couldn’t be enough for you. I’m sorry for that... I wish I could make you completely happy. You made me so happy. My eyes get watery now when I think of you because I’ve been drinking. It does get easier as each day goes by though. You were my part of my support system.. I could tell you anything. Why did you leave me?

Submitted May 22, 2019 at 02:31PM

Letters I wrote in my notes a week after my 4 year relationship ended...19/5 Hi X I’m sick today and I’m in bed. Remember when I was sick on the couch and you cooked beef stew? You still kissed me whenever I was sick. You have a good immune system. I miss you. I’m sad because you don’t want me anymore. I’m sorry I didn’t know how unhappy you were with me. I’m sorry I was selfish and I felt entitled that you should spoil me all the time. I should have been more generous to you. Who will clean your ears now? I cry to myself now. You can’t hold me while I cry anymore. I can’t be in your arms while I cry. Are you sad about me at all? Do you think of me? Are you mad at me right now? Are you missing me? Do you think at all that you want to be with me again? Are your messages to me a cold front? I really want you to be with me. I pray God will give you back to me. When does the pain stop? When do I stop crying about you? Why do you make me feel unwanted? What more could I have done for you? Why can’t you love me anymore?20/5 Hi X I feel a bit better this morning, the sleep really helped. Are you ok at work? Are you stressed at work? Does work make you happier? I still cry when I think of you. When will you want me back? Will you ever want to be with me again? I’m so sad without you.X I’m drinking a hot chocolate at Bee Coffee and Haeundae. It’s the best hot chocolate I’ve ever had. Remember we used to enjoy hot chocolates at McDonald’s?Hi X. I’m back in Seoul now. I bought the cream for your eczema. I also bought you socks I think you might like. I still have hope for us. I hope you accept these gifts when I get back. I hope you have enough space. I hope you miss me and want me back soon. I miss you21/5 Hi X I bought socks for you last night. I hope you like them. I don’t cry so much when I think of you now. Maybe now I’m not so hurt by the things you said when you ended us. I do still think about the things we did together and appreciate those times. I think it will be very hard to forget you. Those happy memories make me sad. A different kind of pain I feel compared to when I think of memories with my family. Are you ok at work today? Are you stressed? I’m sorry I didn’t take more interest in how you’re doing with work.Hi X I’m at the n soul tower. It’s a really nice view here. I wonder what you thought about when you saw this view. I wrote a note for you at the love locks. I hope you see it one day. I’m heart broken over you but I feel at peace here.Hi I’m thinking of you. I hate to think of you with someone else. It makes my tummy turn... are you ok? Are you sleeping well? I have hope for us... I’m not sure if that’s a good thing for me or not. I feel sad writing to you like this. It’s like you’re so far away. I feel like you can hear me even though these letters will never reach you. Maybe one day you can find these and feel what I feel. Will we ever see each other again? Can you still love me again? Did you leave me while still loving me?22/5 HiX I’m in Insadong now. I bought the aloe vera gel you want. There are other things I want to buy you here... I saw a ring I’d want you to wear if we were still together. I wish I could buy it and give it to you. I like seeing things that remind me of you. I miss you. I still hate the idea of you being with someone else, wishing you were doing those things with me instead. My eyes don’t water so much now when I think of you. I guess it gets better day by day. I still miss you though. I still think about how I’m going to give you these gifts from Korea. I hope you accept them. I’m not doing it to get you back, although I really want that. I do it because I want you to have these things because I know you need them and they reminded me of you.Hi X I’m having korean bbq at hongdae right now. I miss you and wish we were still together. Why can’t you still be with me? I think about the things I went wrong in our relationship. If you could please help me learn from it and we can be together again. I’m sorry I didn’t care/take more interest in you. Will you ever talk to me again? Will you miss me if you saw me somewhere again? I wonder if you miss me at all now. I feel sad again... I write to you and it feels like you know everything I’m typing right now. I wish you could hear these words. I miss you love...I must sound crazy writing to you like this. But it’s the only way I can talk to you. I wish I could tell you all of these things. I wish I could actually send it to you. I wish I could see you in person and tell you. Are you afraid that if you see me you’ll have to take me back? Or do you really dislike me that much that you don’t want to see me anymore? How did you go from being so sweet to cutting me off so suddenly? Our last time together you were at my house and we cuddled while watching Netflix. How could I have known that would be the last time we’d be together ever? I wish I hadn’t initiated the idea of breaking up. I regret it so much.I feel so selfish for wanting to keep you X. You deserve more than what I can offer. I guess that was more important to you in the end and is why you left. I know I couldn’t be enough for you. I’m sorry for that... I wish I could make you completely happy. You made me so happy. My eyes get watery now when I think of you because I’ve been drinking. It does get easier as each day goes by though. You were my part of my support system.. I could tell you anything. Why did you leave me?