I love her so much and am scared.

I love you. And I want nothing more than to bring happiness and to relieve stress from your life. But I’m scared to be overwhelmed or to speak to you about the hard things because I don’t want you to leave. I’m scared because sometimes I feel it would be easier to just turn the wheel a little sharper than should be and accept that, but that’s not what I want. I want your love, I want to give you my love. Your heart is all I want, but I’m scared. I don’t know if it’s stress, or if it’s just me going crazy. A few days ago you woke me up with a kiss that was so sweet and deep and meaningful that I wanted to drop everything and just melt right there into you, your kisses are always heartfelt. But this morning you came in and it wasn’t the same, there wasn’t as much meant into it and I can feel that, I don’t know if it was that you weren’t feeling good, or that you don’t want to commit to loving me fully. I love you no matter what. If I can have one wish it is that you love me the same. And I feel you do you are just stressed and it affects it. Sunday I was in Cleveland supposed to come back Monday afternoon, you work night shift so you get back home by 6. By the way Cleveland is about 3 1/2 hours from where I live. I decided to leave at 1 in the morning despite making my friends upset I was leaving early so I could come home and surprise you with flowers and eggs for breakfast too with you still thinking I’d be in Cleveland. You were so happy and warm and I felt it. Then I bought you cookies to come home to the next day, you were warm. Then last night after working out I bought some snacks and drove out to your work which is 50 minutes away and I’d never been to it before and waited until past midnight for your break so I could see you for a slight second, you warmed me up. What I’m trying to say is anything in the world I would do for you in a heartbeat. If I have one wish if is for things to not get bad this time. Please stay by my side, please allow it to be easy. Please allow it to be happy. I love you. I love you so fucking much. So much it hurts in the best of ways.



Submitted May 22, 2019 at 06:35PM

I love you. And I want nothing more than to bring happiness and to relieve stress from your life. But I’m scared to be overwhelmed or to speak to you about the hard things because I don’t want you to leave. I’m scared because sometimes I feel it would be easier to just turn the wheel a little sharper than should be and accept that, but that’s not what I want. I want your love, I want to give you my love. Your heart is all I want, but I’m scared. I don’t know if it’s stress, or if it’s just me going crazy. A few days ago you woke me up with a kiss that was so sweet and deep and meaningful that I wanted to drop everything and just melt right there into you, your kisses are always heartfelt. But this morning you came in and it wasn’t the same, there wasn’t as much meant into it and I can feel that, I don’t know if it was that you weren’t feeling good, or that you don’t want to commit to loving me fully. I love you no matter what. If I can have one wish it is that you love me the same. And I feel you do you are just stressed and it affects it. Sunday I was in Cleveland supposed to come back Monday afternoon, you work night shift so you get back home by 6. By the way Cleveland is about 3 1/2 hours from where I live. I decided to leave at 1 in the morning despite making my friends upset I was leaving early so I could come home and surprise you with flowers and eggs for breakfast too with you still thinking I’d be in Cleveland. You were so happy and warm and I felt it. Then I bought you cookies to come home to the next day, you were warm. Then last night after working out I bought some snacks and drove out to your work which is 50 minutes away and I’d never been to it before and waited until past midnight for your break so I could see you for a slight second, you warmed me up. What I’m trying to say is anything in the world I would do for you in a heartbeat. If I have one wish if is for things to not get bad this time. Please stay by my side, please allow it to be easy. Please allow it to be happy. I love you. I love you so fucking much. So much it hurts in the best of ways.
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