I didn't know I was a romaguy until I re-read my confession to my current GF of 5 months.

After knowing each other for a month (and a trip to a secluded beach) I went from wanting a friend to have a better life because she has been used in relationships, to needing to show her that I can't live without her anymore. After watching Toradora's confession scene I decided that she was the one I wanted to go out with. By the end my now-GF was crying because it (this tore my heart inside) 'was the first time someone has confessed to me.' After my mate asked 'Why aren't you two dating?', I decided it was time to let it all out...

'Ever since I was in high school, I was envious when some of my close friends got girlfriends. I knew I shouldn't have been but all I ever wanted was to experience a normal love, or so I thought. I then saw that they were all superficial after being shown by multiple people that they were just for status. Fuck. That. If you really love someone you would do anything for them. When you found the 'one', I asked someone what it meant. She said that half the time without even thinking you daydream about them, every time you go to an event with them you make an extra half hour worth of effort to impress...

Being considerate for me meant I fell down twice. So I vowed never to let an opportunity slip. I, like Yuuji took down notes to try and remember what you liked and disliked, what I needed to do so I didn't repeat both my own and past people's mistakes. Then Sunday happened. I was honestly unsure before if it was real, but that was the best day of my life. I felt like a kid again and knowing I had a shot at starting something, I was over and under the moon like the Fury Dragons. I forgot about everything that didn't matter and only focused on the one thing that did. You.

So... I want... No, I need to be like Toothless and the Light Fury. Looking out for each other, confiding within. The only step left is to try and work each other out, but in the way I think we've both wanted.

To accept and divulge all of out beings into each other. To bare our all and not be judged for it like everyone else has in our lives. You've seen that we've clicked like no one else has in our lives. I'm crying writing this because I never thought in my wildest dreams that this would ever happen. I went from self harm to loving someone in three years. I never thought this endless black tunnel would turn into a nightshow full of wonderful colour...

I need you. I have never gone out with anyone else before so I'd be naive and dumb. I have my stupidity streaks and my mother (just like yours) is possessive and wants to control my every move. I will always feel inferior unless someone accesses me completely for who I am, and the list goes on. But I NEED to be with you. Even if it's by call, or by some other form I love every second of it. Everything I've wanted in life always falls apart so I didn't want anything. Now that my feelings are slowly being reciprocated, it shows with how happy I am at work. People have started to show confidence in me at work, I'm talked to by my managers like a human being worthy of having conversations with.

For you to give me confidence like you do... Nothing else matters. There weren't any depression clouds in my mind when you told me that you believed in me all along. It always feels like I was walking on air wherever I go with you, but now...

I love you. With everything I have. Please, I want to give the both of us a shot. Can you hold me in your arms not as someone you know well, but as someone you love?

Submitted May 20, 2019 at 05:53AM

After knowing each other for a month (and a trip to a secluded beach) I went from wanting a friend to have a better life because she has been used in relationships, to needing to show her that I can't live without her anymore. After watching Toradora's confession scene I decided that she was the one I wanted to go out with. By the end my now-GF was crying because it (this tore my heart inside) 'was the first time someone has confessed to me.' After my mate asked 'Why aren't you two dating?', I decided it was time to let it all out...'Ever since I was in high school, I was envious when some of my close friends got girlfriends. I knew I shouldn't have been but all I ever wanted was to experience a normal love, or so I thought. I then saw that they were all superficial after being shown by multiple people that they were just for status. Fuck. That. If you really love someone you would do anything for them. When you found the 'one', I asked someone what it meant. She said that half the time without even thinking you daydream about them, every time you go to an event with them you make an extra half hour worth of effort to impress...Being considerate for me meant I fell down twice. So I vowed never to let an opportunity slip. I, like Yuuji took down notes to try and remember what you liked and disliked, what I needed to do so I didn't repeat both my own and past people's mistakes. Then Sunday happened. I was honestly unsure before if it was real, but that was the best day of my life. I felt like a kid again and knowing I had a shot at starting something, I was over and under the moon like the Fury Dragons. I forgot about everything that didn't matter and only focused on the one thing that did. You.So... I want... No, I need to be like Toothless and the Light Fury. Looking out for each other, confiding within. The only step left is to try and work each other out, but in the way I think we've both wanted.To accept and divulge all of out beings into each other. To bare our all and not be judged for it like everyone else has in our lives. You've seen that we've clicked like no one else has in our lives. I'm crying writing this because I never thought in my wildest dreams that this would ever happen. I went from self harm to loving someone in three years. I never thought this endless black tunnel would turn into a nightshow full of wonderful colour...I need you. I have never gone out with anyone else before so I'd be naive and dumb. I have my stupidity streaks and my mother (just like yours) is possessive and wants to control my every move. I will always feel inferior unless someone accesses me completely for who I am, and the list goes on. But I NEED to be with you. Even if it's by call, or by some other form I love every second of it. Everything I've wanted in life always falls apart so I didn't want anything. Now that my feelings are slowly being reciprocated, it shows with how happy I am at work. People have started to show confidence in me at work, I'm talked to by my managers like a human being worthy of having conversations with.For you to give me confidence like you do... Nothing else matters. There weren't any depression clouds in my mind when you told me that you believed in me all along. It always feels like I was walking on air wherever I go with you, but now...I love you. With everything I have. Please, I want to give the both of us a shot. Can you hold me in your arms not as someone you know well, but as someone you love?