A question of life.

So heres a story for what I assume a short part of a long one.

2012

When I was in junior high I met this very pretty and gorgeous girl. She was very bright and I would play around with her. Crack jokes and laugh till one point I started to like her. And I liked her a lot. But to cut things short middle school was ending and I had great feelings for her.

2016-17

During Highschool we changed a lot. I became more outgoing than ever before. I was an extrovert before but I was becoming more and more open through out the years. My junior year I met her again and she was so completely different. We met in French and we started to talk once more. In the class I was informed by her that she was now an extrovert just like me. (When I met her she was a little shy)  I was happy about that. Till she mentioned she liked to smoke weed and drink. Of which I did not like at all. I can handle weed and alcohol, but not when it  is in excess. We would talk and talk and I would fall for her again. I felt that I loved her. I felt like it was love. I would flirt with her.  Several months passed and I wanted to ask her out on a date. Of which out of the blue started to ignore me. I ofcourse felt terrible. I stopped talking to her and I started to talk to someone else..... (this would be the other part of the story. I'll tell it another time as it is also a good one.)

2019 So after highschool I attended College (Currently a sophomore) A majority of my friends disappeared.  I became a lot more serious. I started to focus more on my education and on my major of which is in business. One day met her once more. I loved seeing her again. And I got to know her for several minutes once more. We talked and talked and it turned out we became total opposites. I become a lot more serious with my life and she claims that she became a lot more carefree. Partying and drinking and not caring for school or her future. After our interaction I started to grow a feeling once more of me liking her. Yet I'm on the fence about it. I have the ability to ask her out. But I dont wish too. I'm having a hard time to decide (going back to me talking to another girl in highschool) as I have feelings for another girl.

I just want to get it off my chest as I never thought i would see her again but now i feel like the person upstairs (God) is trying to get me to fall for her. And honestly I could, I've known her for years. I'm just not too sure if I want her or the other girl (again another story for another)

Submitted May 20, 2019 at 12:53AM

So heres a story for what I assume a short part of a long one.2012When I was in junior high I met this very pretty and gorgeous girl. She was very bright and I would play around with her. Crack jokes and laugh till one point I started to like her. And I liked her a lot. But to cut things short middle school was ending and I had great feelings for her.2016-17During Highschool we changed a lot. I became more outgoing than ever before. I was an extrovert before but I was becoming more and more open through out the years. My junior year I met her again and she was so completely different. We met in French and we started to talk once more. In the class I was informed by her that she was now an extrovert just like me. (When I met her she was a little shy)  I was happy about that. Till she mentioned she liked to smoke weed and drink. Of which I did not like at all. I can handle weed and alcohol, but not when it  is in excess. We would talk and talk and I would fall for her again. I felt that I loved her. I felt like it was love. I would flirt with her.  Several months passed and I wanted to ask her out on a date. Of which out of the blue started to ignore me. I ofcourse felt terrible. I stopped talking to her and I started to talk to someone else..... (this would be the other part of the story. I'll tell it another time as it is also a good one.)2019 So after highschool I attended College (Currently a sophomore) A majority of my friends disappeared.  I became a lot more serious. I started to focus more on my education and on my major of which is in business. One day met her once more. I loved seeing her again. And I got to know her for several minutes once more. We talked and talked and it turned out we became total opposites. I become a lot more serious with my life and she claims that she became a lot more carefree. Partying and drinking and not caring for school or her future. After our interaction I started to grow a feeling once more of me liking her. Yet I'm on the fence about it. I have the ability to ask her out. But I dont wish too. I'm having a hard time to decide (going back to me talking to another girl in highschool) as I have feelings for another girl.I just want to get it off my chest as I never thought i would see her again but now i feel like the person upstairs (God) is trying to get me to fall for her. And honestly I could, I've known her for years. I'm just not too sure if I want her or the other girl (again another story for another)