Waiting

Its been a month since you left me, and a week since I stopped being crazy and texting you. do you miss me? do you miss me even a fraction of the amount I miss you? I think about you nonstop all day, I cant see myself in the future without you. My whole life I have always looked at things logically, even when we were together I looked at it logically, but I see now that that logical side was making me feel empty, I always told you I was depressed, now I know why, I had always looked at this world in grey shaded glasses. and the day you left me you ripped those glasses off, for once in my life I will go with my heart instead of my head, I may hurt, I may never want to love again but "logic" has done nothing but make me unhappy, so I say this for once in my life I will follow my emotions, you left me because I was distant, cause I didnt show you the love that you deserved. It will be differently this time if you will just give me another chance, I will make you my number one priority I will do anything and evrything in this world for you, I think every day about those night that we talked about travelling the world, those nights we would talk about going to hawaii, I never told you but I chose the shorter harder program at school so that I could support you faster, You hated living at home with such a passion but I told you time and time again you couldnt leave it would hurt you in the long run, so I was going to support you, but again logically, I said that not thinking we would spend our lives together or anything, But now that I look through eyes that are not clouded I see. You are the only woman I want for my whole life, I know this this, love isnt infatuation dont get it twisted love is long burning and slow, infatuation is hot heavy and fleeting, I know I have had both, but now I know I love you I will never give up. I will forever hold onto those late nights, forever hold onto those days of us singing in your car as loud as we could, those days where we would get baked and then make love, there are so many different things that I will never lose, so I will do as all these things online tell me, I will wait go no contact and hope you miss me, because for now there is nothing else I can do, i tried to call, you never answer, I text you tell me its over, I try to see you in person you just look sad to see me. I know we will make each other happy, and deep down I know we will make this work again one day, because I will make sure it works. I WILL spend my life with you if I have anything to say about it, sorry to everyone reading this its just rambles. but I need to get my point across, girl you are my happiness, you are my strength you are my all and I hope you can give this tall awkward skinny guy another chance, if you do I will love you for the rest of your days. I pray every night you come back, And i will pray until I cant anymore.

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I love you so much, :)

Submitted May 21, 2019 at 04:15AM

Its been a month since you left me, and a week since I stopped being crazy and texting you. do you miss me? do you miss me even a fraction of the amount I miss you? I think about you nonstop all day, I cant see myself in the future without you. My whole life I have always looked at things logically, even when we were together I looked at it logically, but I see now that that logical side was making me feel empty, I always told you I was depressed, now I know why, I had always looked at this world in grey shaded glasses. and the day you left me you ripped those glasses off, for once in my life I will go with my heart instead of my head, I may hurt, I may never want to love again but "logic" has done nothing but make me unhappy, so I say this for once in my life I will follow my emotions, you left me because I was distant, cause I didnt show you the love that you deserved. It will be differently this time if you will just give me another chance, I will make you my number one priority I will do anything and evrything in this world for you, I think every day about those night that we talked about travelling the world, those nights we would talk about going to hawaii, I never told you but I chose the shorter harder program at school so that I could support you faster, You hated living at home with such a passion but I told you time and time again you couldnt leave it would hurt you in the long run, so I was going to support you, but again logically, I said that not thinking we would spend our lives together or anything, But now that I look through eyes that are not clouded I see. You are the only woman I want for my whole life, I know this this, love isnt infatuation dont get it twisted love is long burning and slow, infatuation is hot heavy and fleeting, I know I have had both, but now I know I love you I will never give up. I will forever hold onto those late nights, forever hold onto those days of us singing in your car as loud as we could, those days where we would get baked and then make love, there are so many different things that I will never lose, so I will do as all these things online tell me, I will wait go no contact and hope you miss me, because for now there is nothing else I can do, i tried to call, you never answer, I text you tell me its over, I try to see you in person you just look sad to see me. I know we will make each other happy, and deep down I know we will make this work again one day, because I will make sure it works. I WILL spend my life with you if I have anything to say about it, sorry to everyone reading this its just rambles. but I need to get my point across, girl you are my happiness, you are my strength you are my all and I hope you can give this tall awkward skinny guy another chance, if you do I will love you for the rest of your days. I pray every night you come back, And i will pray until I cant anymore.​I love you so much, :)