I regret my senior year of high school watching a girl I like date someone else

Hi everyone so I am having trouble forgiving myself for a decision I made in the summer before my senior year. I had a girl that liked me and I honestly kind of wanted to date her but I decided not to because she was dating a new guy every month and I didn't want to get my heart broken. Instead that month she decided to date my best friend and break his heart a month later. She then dated another guy in August and broke his heart but in September she found the person she was going to date the whole school year. Honestly I have been extremely down on myself for not making a move at some point. After realizing 2 months ago high school is ending huge regret has set in for not dating her. Every time I see them in the halls or at any school event I just think that could have been us. I just think I ruined my senior year which I had high expectation for. There were some good moments but I run a business and started working out and that ate up almost all of my time. I never sat down and thought about what I did. I will now always remember Prom as a bad night watching her dance with the guy she is dating instead of me. I just feel like a complete failure. I have never had a girlfriend before and I am just afraid I will never find another girl like her or even worse never get the chance to ever date her. I just feel like that social atmosphere that I get from high school will be gone forever and no matter what I do I can never make up for what I lost. I started building my passive income business in sophomore year that makes me about 50k a year without doing any work. Which is great and all however the reason I built my business was not to buy necessarily anything because I am not materialistic at all. I built it for two reasons. First I want to have the freedom to do whatever I want for the rest of my life. I am thankful that that is coming true but what sucks is that most of my friends are moving away and I will have to enjoy this freedom alone. The second reason I built this business is that one day when I meet the girl of my dreams I could make her life great. Sadly I feel like I missed my shot and I just dream of the day I can date her and tell her how much I care about her. We are really good friends today and every time we hang out she always talks to me about becoming a pilot and traveling the world. This may sound crazy but one day I wish I could buy her this small plane she wants and travel around the world with her. I don't have a question really but I am just wondering if someone could give me some advice and tell me if there is a way I can make my social life just as good as it was in high school or is that not possible. Thanks for actually taking the time to read about my life. I sincerely appreciate it.

Submitted May 21, 2019 at 03:32AM

Hi everyone so I am having trouble forgiving myself for a decision I made in the summer before my senior year. I had a girl that liked me and I honestly kind of wanted to date her but I decided not to because she was dating a new guy every month and I didn't want to get my heart broken. Instead that month she decided to date my best friend and break his heart a month later. She then dated another guy in August and broke his heart but in September she found the person she was going to date the whole school year. Honestly I have been extremely down on myself for not making a move at some point. After realizing 2 months ago high school is ending huge regret has set in for not dating her. Every time I see them in the halls or at any school event I just think that could have been us. I just think I ruined my senior year which I had high expectation for. There were some good moments but I run a business and started working out and that ate up almost all of my time. I never sat down and thought about what I did. I will now always remember Prom as a bad night watching her dance with the guy she is dating instead of me. I just feel like a complete failure. I have never had a girlfriend before and I am just afraid I will never find another girl like her or even worse never get the chance to ever date her. I just feel like that social atmosphere that I get from high school will be gone forever and no matter what I do I can never make up for what I lost. I started building my passive income business in sophomore year that makes me about 50k a year without doing any work. Which is great and all however the reason I built my business was not to buy necessarily anything because I am not materialistic at all. I built it for two reasons. First I want to have the freedom to do whatever I want for the rest of my life. I am thankful that that is coming true but what sucks is that most of my friends are moving away and I will have to enjoy this freedom alone. The second reason I built this business is that one day when I meet the girl of my dreams I could make her life great. Sadly I feel like I missed my shot and I just dream of the day I can date her and tell her how much I care about her. We are really good friends today and every time we hang out she always talks to me about becoming a pilot and traveling the world. This may sound crazy but one day I wish I could buy her this small plane she wants and travel around the world with her. I don't have a question really but I am just wondering if someone could give me some advice and tell me if there is a way I can make my social life just as good as it was in high school or is that not possible. Thanks for actually taking the time to read about my life. I sincerely appreciate it.