There’s somebody out there for everybody except me

I think I’m about a point of self reflection and with the battle scars of love that truly make me realize there maybe not be that someone out there for me . For starters at my age of soon to be 38 I’m nowhere near your average person at my age I don’t own anything not a car nor house . I have a job that I love but for me I’m at a good as it gets place in it . My interest are absolutely not appealing to people my age video games ,horror, painting edgy things , comics and stuff of fantasy ,etc I would describe my looks as unimpressive but not terrible but with the fact that I’ve horrible teeth brings me to not horrible but ok . I’m a single father who feels like I’ve failed my son due to heavy spoiling due to guilt of his mother never being involved . I realize all of this will and has made almost all woman run. I do have a good sense of humor about life and all these things and despite all of this my black little heart still yearns for love ,still holds such a deep need for another when reality always reminds me that the woman of my dreams will never run into my arms and though I’m a protective man will never truly feel safe with me in the areas that truly count. No woman wants to sit beside me on a throne of nothing . I will definitely spend the rest of my days dreaming of a woman I’ve never known and maybe picture life in a different universe where perhaps I didn’t make all the wrong choices and like all the wrong things . A place where I’ve found a happily ever after . Though this is dark I do wish all of you that know what I never could nothing but happiness in love with a person that fills your heart everyday . Cherish that because some of us will only feel these things in our dreams . Maybe this would’ve been better in confessions lol idk .

Submitted May 13, 2019 at 03:43PM

I think I’m about a point of self reflection and with the battle scars of love that truly make me realize there maybe not be that someone out there for me . For starters at my age of soon to be 38 I’m nowhere near your average person at my age I don’t own anything not a car nor house . I have a job that I love but for me I’m at a good as it gets place in it . My interest are absolutely not appealing to people my age video games ,horror, painting edgy things , comics and stuff of fantasy ,etc I would describe my looks as unimpressive but not terrible but with the fact that I’ve horrible teeth brings me to not horrible but ok . I’m a single father who feels like I’ve failed my son due to heavy spoiling due to guilt of his mother never being involved . I realize all of this will and has made almost all woman run. I do have a good sense of humor about life and all these things and despite all of this my black little heart still yearns for love ,still holds such a deep need for another when reality always reminds me that the woman of my dreams will never run into my arms and though I’m a protective man will never truly feel safe with me in the areas that truly count. No woman wants to sit beside me on a throne of nothing . I will definitely spend the rest of my days dreaming of a woman I’ve never known and maybe picture life in a different universe where perhaps I didn’t make all the wrong choices and like all the wrong things . A place where I’ve found a happily ever after . Though this is dark I do wish all of you that know what I never could nothing but happiness in love with a person that fills your heart everyday . Cherish that because some of us will only feel these things in our dreams . Maybe this would’ve been better in confessions lol idk .