Obscurity of falling in love

I'm 22-years old university student and I have had a few girlfriends in the past. One of them I could say that I loved her. After high school me and my 2nd girlfriend broke up. She was the one I had fell in love with and it crushed me. I was miserable for over a year, first year in university. I tried to look for someone to start a new relationship with, but I had no luck. Next year I served my military service (I'm Finnish) and who would've guessed, I didn't find love during that year. It was until 2 and a half years after me broking up with my second gf I started dating my 3rd girlfriend. It was my second year at university and I thought '3rd times the charm'. What I didn't realize was that I had never had a crush on her. We just hooked up couple times and then we thought we should date; a total disaster. Long story short: we broke up before Christmas. Broke up was the easiest of my life and I didn't feel a thing that day.

I thought that it would take a few years should I get a chance start a new romance with someone and I started to focus on studying and spending time with my friends. For my complete surprise one girl from same freshman year that I was, added me as her friend at facebook. I thought first that she just added me for some random reason since we had never actually spoken. We had only met once in annual party. I kept thinking like this until she started following me on instagram and liked my every photo I posted. I was still bit confused: why now? why me suddenly? It was pretty much liking our IG posts back and forth, but then our spring party started in April. It was springs first party at a club at daylight. I had not drank much since I came straight from a gig. Something unexpected happened; the girl came to me and said hi. My confused me started talking something as she dragged me to dance floor with her. That day went almost according to the plan, but then I broke my arm.. I didn't hear from her before we had our choirs (male and female choirs) party where I was the toastmaster AND there she comes in. My heart was beating over 150 bpm whole night. After the party ended I was left alone by friends as they went to sauna but I couldn't since I had my arm casted. My friends come back to sing some songs for our female choir members, serenades, songs about love. And there I kneeled, started to sing. I made eye contact with the first girl I saw and it was her. We looked both in our eyes and she started smiling as we sang. That was the night we actually spoke first time. Since then we have chatted and talked with each others.

Now we arrive at present day. Spring semester is over. I'm not dating anyone at this time, but I finally have felt something I didn't even remember how it felt. I have a crush, a romantic interest, first time after my first love. Even if we don't end up dating, I will still be happy I met her because she helped me remember how it actually feels to have a real crush on someone.

This was a bit of opening up story which kinda helped me out right now. Sorry for my English. I'm not native and I'm really tired so vocabulary won't be perfect. Remember that love finds you when you least expect it.

Submitted May 02, 2019 at 10:19PM

I'm 22-years old university student and I have had a few girlfriends in the past. One of them I could say that I loved her. After high school me and my 2nd girlfriend broke up. She was the one I had fell in love with and it crushed me. I was miserable for over a year, first year in university. I tried to look for someone to start a new relationship with, but I had no luck. Next year I served my military service (I'm Finnish) and who would've guessed, I didn't find love during that year. It was until 2 and a half years after me broking up with my second gf I started dating my 3rd girlfriend. It was my second year at university and I thought '3rd times the charm'. What I didn't realize was that I had never had a crush on her. We just hooked up couple times and then we thought we should date; a total disaster. Long story short: we broke up before Christmas. Broke up was the easiest of my life and I didn't feel a thing that day.I thought that it would take a few years should I get a chance start a new romance with someone and I started to focus on studying and spending time with my friends. For my complete surprise one girl from same freshman year that I was, added me as her friend at facebook. I thought first that she just added me for some random reason since we had never actually spoken. We had only met once in annual party. I kept thinking like this until she started following me on instagram and liked my every photo I posted. I was still bit confused: why now? why me suddenly? It was pretty much liking our IG posts back and forth, but then our spring party started in April. It was springs first party at a club at daylight. I had not drank much since I came straight from a gig. Something unexpected happened; the girl came to me and said hi. My confused me started talking something as she dragged me to dance floor with her. That day went almost according to the plan, but then I broke my arm.. I didn't hear from her before we had our choirs (male and female choirs) party where I was the toastmaster AND there she comes in. My heart was beating over 150 bpm whole night. After the party ended I was left alone by friends as they went to sauna but I couldn't since I had my arm casted. My friends come back to sing some songs for our female choir members, serenades, songs about love. And there I kneeled, started to sing. I made eye contact with the first girl I saw and it was her. We looked both in our eyes and she started smiling as we sang. That was the night we actually spoke first time. Since then we have chatted and talked with each others.Now we arrive at present day. Spring semester is over. I'm not dating anyone at this time, but I finally have felt something I didn't even remember how it felt. I have a crush, a romantic interest, first time after my first love. Even if we don't end up dating, I will still be happy I met her because she helped me remember how it actually feels to have a real crush on someone.This was a bit of opening up story which kinda helped me out right now. Sorry for my English. I'm not native and I'm really tired so vocabulary won't be perfect. Remember that love finds you when you least expect it.