My girlfriend went to the hospital today

My girlfriend went to the hospital today. She's been struggling with depression for months but she forgot to take her medicine yesterday and today and it was really bad, she had to go to the hospital. I've never been that scared in my entire life. I know for a fact I will never take anything she does for granted ever again. The way she twitches slightly in her sleep will never bother me. I wish she was twitching next to me right now just because then I'd be holding her close. The way she gets maybe a little too excited about everything, will never make me annoyed again. I'd be lost without her passion for life and for living, and she would be too. The way she talks to me when she's feeling bad will never frustrate me again. If she hadn't told me today what she intended to do when she got home, who knows what would have happened. I love her so much. I love her so much and everything I've been taking for granted for the last month or so, I want to take it all back, every time I've sighed when I had to pause my video game to talk to her, every time I've silently wished she would wake up so she would just stop wiggling, every time I've thought to myself she's just too high energy for me right now and I hoped she could take it down a notch, I want to take all of it back because today I thought I might never get to pause my video game to talk to her again, I might never get to feel her feet wrapping and unwrapping around mine as she slept soundly and I lay awake trying to sleep through her earthquake, I might never get to hear her get excited about anything every again. To Emily, when you read this, as I know you will when you scroll through my Reddit profile to see what types of things I've been posting, as I do the same to you, I know you're going to apologise for putting me through all of this, and for everything I'm complaining about, and I forgive you. I forgive you for every moment you've made me worried, I forgive you for every twitch, every high energy comment, every time you've felt bad and I needed to help you, every time you've told me you loved me just to hear it back because you were feeling insecure about my love for you, every missed text that worried me for hours, and every apology you've ever given me. I forgive you for all of it because I'd rather have you with all of your flaws and imperfections than have anyone else on the entire planet, and I'd rather have you than lose you. I never want to lose you. I love you.



Submitted May 03, 2019 at 04:08AM

My girlfriend went to the hospital today. She's been struggling with depression for months but she forgot to take her medicine yesterday and today and it was really bad, she had to go to the hospital. I've never been that scared in my entire life. I know for a fact I will never take anything she does for granted ever again. The way she twitches slightly in her sleep will never bother me. I wish she was twitching next to me right now just because then I'd be holding her close. The way she gets maybe a little too excited about everything, will never make me annoyed again. I'd be lost without her passion for life and for living, and she would be too. The way she talks to me when she's feeling bad will never frustrate me again. If she hadn't told me today what she intended to do when she got home, who knows what would have happened. I love her so much. I love her so much and everything I've been taking for granted for the last month or so, I want to take it all back, every time I've sighed when I had to pause my video game to talk to her, every time I've silently wished she would wake up so she would just stop wiggling, every time I've thought to myself she's just too high energy for me right now and I hoped she could take it down a notch, I want to take all of it back because today I thought I might never get to pause my video game to talk to her again, I might never get to feel her feet wrapping and unwrapping around mine as she slept soundly and I lay awake trying to sleep through her earthquake, I might never get to hear her get excited about anything every again. To Emily, when you read this, as I know you will when you scroll through my Reddit profile to see what types of things I've been posting, as I do the same to you, I know you're going to apologise for putting me through all of this, and for everything I'm complaining about, and I forgive you. I forgive you for every moment you've made me worried, I forgive you for every twitch, every high energy comment, every time you've felt bad and I needed to help you, every time you've told me you loved me just to hear it back because you were feeling insecure about my love for you, every missed text that worried me for hours, and every apology you've ever given me. I forgive you for all of it because I'd rather have you with all of your flaws and imperfections than have anyone else on the entire planet, and I'd rather have you than lose you. I never want to lose you. I love you.
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