A letter to the love of my life who left me.

I have decided. I am going away. I will not call or message you because clearly you are pushing me away from your life. I, for the love of god, cannot understand why. I love you for everything you are including whatever is happening now, you love me but still you are pushing me away. It hurts me so much to write this. Every second alive I want to hear your voice. I just want to talk to you. I am stopping myself from calling you. My mind is full of questions. I know that I will never get the answers from you. This is me creating some closure for myslef or else I wont be able to breathe. I miss talking to you and discussing things with you. I do not think I will ever recover from this. Not that you said no to marriage, but that you are pushing me away. It may heal but the wound will always be deep. Your voice is looping in my mind. The things you said. The things we discussed. The dreams we shared. I always used to think 'love' is some cheesy silly thing that happened in movies. But now that it has happened to me, and it has been taken away, I understand it. I love you. I do not want to be a disturbing presence in your life. I am not saying this out of emotions. I know that you love me. Its strange what is happening to me. On one side I understand your situation. On the other hand, I cannot believe how unfair the world is to me now. Because the world gave me you, made me fall in love with you madly, and just took you away in a day. I may never love anyone the same way again. I truly believe what I am saying. Its you that I love and care about. Yes if you never come back to me, I will go on with my life. Life will go on. I may marry someone have kids and live a happy life. But I will always wonder what if...what if it were you. What if you didnt push me away. It sounds silly, but I feel you are one of the most important people to have ever come into my life. You have had a deep impact on me which is going to last for a long time. My optimistic heart hopes that you will one day come back to me and call me whenever you are ready to talk to me again, whether it be one day, one month, one year, 10 years i dont know. Take care my sunshine. Wherever you go, whatever you do, whoever you will be with, I wish you are happy and smiling always. I will never forget you.



Submitted May 01, 2019 at 05:08AM

I have decided. I am going away. I will not call or message you because clearly you are pushing me away from your life. I, for the love of god, cannot understand why. I love you for everything you are including whatever is happening now, you love me but still you are pushing me away. It hurts me so much to write this. Every second alive I want to hear your voice. I just want to talk to you. I am stopping myself from calling you. My mind is full of questions. I know that I will never get the answers from you. This is me creating some closure for myslef or else I wont be able to breathe. I miss talking to you and discussing things with you. I do not think I will ever recover from this. Not that you said no to marriage, but that you are pushing me away. It may heal but the wound will always be deep. Your voice is looping in my mind. The things you said. The things we discussed. The dreams we shared. I always used to think 'love' is some cheesy silly thing that happened in movies. But now that it has happened to me, and it has been taken away, I understand it. I love you. I do not want to be a disturbing presence in your life. I am not saying this out of emotions. I know that you love me. Its strange what is happening to me. On one side I understand your situation. On the other hand, I cannot believe how unfair the world is to me now. Because the world gave me you, made me fall in love with you madly, and just took you away in a day. I may never love anyone the same way again. I truly believe what I am saying. Its you that I love and care about. Yes if you never come back to me, I will go on with my life. Life will go on. I may marry someone have kids and live a happy life. But I will always wonder what if...what if it were you. What if you didnt push me away. It sounds silly, but I feel you are one of the most important people to have ever come into my life. You have had a deep impact on me which is going to last for a long time. My optimistic heart hopes that you will one day come back to me and call me whenever you are ready to talk to me again, whether it be one day, one month, one year, 10 years i dont know. Take care my sunshine. Wherever you go, whatever you do, whoever you will be with, I wish you are happy and smiling always. I will never forget you.
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