I was born from an affair and I feel as if I am unwanted in this house half the time by my half siblings.

I don't really want to post my age, but I'm in high school, and I have a few years to go before I graduate. I know the odds of anyone I know seeing this. I just want to be careful with what I put out on the internet about my personal life. What I can tell you is that 2 of my siblings are also in school. They're older than me and I have another one who's at college.

I was the product of an affair. My mom had an affair with my dad. I don't know who my dad is. All I know is that somewhere along the line my mom and her husband (not my dad. I call him, Pete for this) got back together. My dad didn't want to raise a kid and I ended up here. Pete has always been good to me, but you can tell there's just. I don't even know. It's a feeling of weirdness between us. He's never been mean, but he's never been as affectionate to me as he has been to the other two. I don't know how to describe it. You'd really need to be me or him to understand what the feeling is like.

I don't think the two siblings that live in the house like me. Whenever they do something they'd never invite me. It would take my mom to ask them to take me, and they'd put up a fight until they saw me enter the room. They stop talking about whatever they're talking about if I come into a room. They don't want to walk home with me. They don't really talk to me at school. They don't really ask me to do anything and it's always been like this.

You know I've never had a normal birthday? Every time it comes around, my Mom needs to take me out of the house to do something. It's just akward in the house every time. My siblings don't really talk to me and tend to avoid me on the day apart from just the happy birthday.

For a while I thought this is just the ways things are. I tried not to pay it any mind, but today something small happens that has made me feel depressed. I don't mean to use that word lightly, but I don't know how else I'm suppose to describe it. My brother came to visit with college. He greated my brother and sister so warmly. He have me a small wave. I haven't been able to shake it all day. I've tried playing Fornite. I've tried watching a movie. I tried doing homework. I tried sleeping.

I just feel like I'm going to be sick. That's how I can only describe it. I just don't know who I can talk to or what I could even do. I just need some advice.

TL;DR: I was born out of an affair. I feel like my siblings don't like me. Don't know what I can do or who I can talk too.

Submitted April 25, 2019 at 07:02AM

I don't really want to post my age, but I'm in high school, and I have a few years to go before I graduate. I know the odds of anyone I know seeing this. I just want to be careful with what I put out on the internet about my personal life. What I can tell you is that 2 of my siblings are also in school. They're older than me and I have another one who's at college.I was the product of an affair. My mom had an affair with my dad. I don't know who my dad is. All I know is that somewhere along the line my mom and her husband (not my dad. I call him, Pete for this) got back together. My dad didn't want to raise a kid and I ended up here. Pete has always been good to me, but you can tell there's just. I don't even know. It's a feeling of weirdness between us. He's never been mean, but he's never been as affectionate to me as he has been to the other two. I don't know how to describe it. You'd really need to be me or him to understand what the feeling is like.I don't think the two siblings that live in the house like me. Whenever they do something they'd never invite me. It would take my mom to ask them to take me, and they'd put up a fight until they saw me enter the room. They stop talking about whatever they're talking about if I come into a room. They don't want to walk home with me. They don't really talk to me at school. They don't really ask me to do anything and it's always been like this.You know I've never had a normal birthday? Every time it comes around, my Mom needs to take me out of the house to do something. It's just akward in the house every time. My siblings don't really talk to me and tend to avoid me on the day apart from just the happy birthday.For a while I thought this is just the ways things are. I tried not to pay it any mind, but today something small happens that has made me feel depressed. I don't mean to use that word lightly, but I don't know how else I'm suppose to describe it. My brother came to visit with college. He greated my brother and sister so warmly. He have me a small wave. I haven't been able to shake it all day. I've tried playing Fornite. I've tried watching a movie. I tried doing homework. I tried sleeping.I just feel like I'm going to be sick. That's how I can only describe it. I just don't know who I can talk to or what I could even do. I just need some advice.TL;DR: I was born out of an affair. I feel like my siblings don't like me. Don't know what I can do or who I can talk too.