I actually like someone for once

I don’t know if this is the right place for this but I want to get this off my chest. Dating has been a roller coaster for me the last three years after my divorce and honestly I feel jaded from it all. I recently stopped using dating sites and decided to see what the universe puts in my path. (Also 10/10 would delete dating apps again)

So I work in real estate and get to meet a lot of people that way, but most of the clients I deal with aren’t people that I would be interested, not even people I would want to become friends with outside of business. But as luck would have it the universe decided to plop someone right in my work path.

I have been working with my client going on two months now and over that time I have been just like HOT DAMN. I can’t even with this guy. He is 100% my type and we are really hitting it off. Obviously I have to remain professional even though we are starting to become friends.

I always second guess if someone is interested in me because in the past most people I am generally interested in end up just not feeling the same. Also, I have been know to go head over heels for people that just aren’t good for me. And it’s affecting me now. It’s becoming so hard not to automatically amuse the worst about someone when you’re barely starting to get to know them. This guy is different from anyone I have met before and it’s freaking me out. He is much older than me and honestly I don’t even care about that. I actually enjoy it. I am so used to dating around my age where men in their 30s seem to either A) want to settle down and wife me up ASAP or B) commitment to one person is something they aren’t interested in.

So here I am crushing hard. I think about him all the time. I literally get so excited any time I have a reason to talk to him but I can’t help feeling like where is this going to go wrong. He is making it know that he is interested without crossing any lines because of the professional relationship. So why am I so worried? I am waiting for him to drop some bomb on me or suck me in where I am thinking it’s going to go somewhere and it’s not. I have a daughter and he doesn’t have any kids and I am not sure if that should be a red flag or not. But other than there are no other things that concern me. I feel completely comfortable around him despite not knowing him for very long. We always end up talking about everything under the sun instead of my work updates. We are even hanging out next week. I am quite shocked about how well we get along.

I really want to just go with the flow but my experiences make me want to not even deal with it. I am going to try my absolute damnest to not overthink the things that haven’t even happened yet and just go with the flow. And if nothing happens than at least I will have made an awesome friend. When did even liking someone become such a hard thing!

Anyways I think I just needed to put it out into the world that I am both excited and also like noooooo I don’t want to be interested in anyone dammit!!

Submitted April 11, 2019 at 02:46AM

I don’t know if this is the right place for this but I want to get this off my chest. Dating has been a roller coaster for me the last three years after my divorce and honestly I feel jaded from it all. I recently stopped using dating sites and decided to see what the universe puts in my path. (Also 10/10 would delete dating apps again)So I work in real estate and get to meet a lot of people that way, but most of the clients I deal with aren’t people that I would be interested, not even people I would want to become friends with outside of business. But as luck would have it the universe decided to plop someone right in my work path.I have been working with my client going on two months now and over that time I have been just like HOT DAMN. I can’t even with this guy. He is 100% my type and we are really hitting it off. Obviously I have to remain professional even though we are starting to become friends.I always second guess if someone is interested in me because in the past most people I am generally interested in end up just not feeling the same. Also, I have been know to go head over heels for people that just aren’t good for me. And it’s affecting me now. It’s becoming so hard not to automatically amuse the worst about someone when you’re barely starting to get to know them. This guy is different from anyone I have met before and it’s freaking me out. He is much older than me and honestly I don’t even care about that. I actually enjoy it. I am so used to dating around my age where men in their 30s seem to either A) want to settle down and wife me up ASAP or B) commitment to one person is something they aren’t interested in.So here I am crushing hard. I think about him all the time. I literally get so excited any time I have a reason to talk to him but I can’t help feeling like where is this going to go wrong. He is making it know that he is interested without crossing any lines because of the professional relationship. So why am I so worried? I am waiting for him to drop some bomb on me or suck me in where I am thinking it’s going to go somewhere and it’s not. I have a daughter and he doesn’t have any kids and I am not sure if that should be a red flag or not. But other than there are no other things that concern me. I feel completely comfortable around him despite not knowing him for very long. We always end up talking about everything under the sun instead of my work updates. We are even hanging out next week. I am quite shocked about how well we get along.I really want to just go with the flow but my experiences make me want to not even deal with it. I am going to try my absolute damnest to not overthink the things that haven’t even happened yet and just go with the flow. And if nothing happens than at least I will have made an awesome friend. When did even liking someone become such a hard thing!Anyways I think I just needed to put it out into the world that I am both excited and also like noooooo I don’t want to be interested in anyone dammit!!