How in just one day I fucked up after regaining her trust a day before.

We have been texting back and forth for 3 months now. I asked her out after a month and a half of texting but she didn't replied me back. But we kept on the texting as if nothing happened. We didn't revisited the topic. After several days, she shared with me about her previous love life, a guy cheated on her and it was devastating and still recovering from that memory.

I realized why she was emotionally unavailable so decided to support her by sharing my experience with the heart breaks. I helped her with no strings attached because I liked her. She liked it, too and she also confessed that she doesn't think about the past more often because of me. And we also started flirting back and forth but in actual she was testing me to see if I had any ulterior motives behind me but I ignored it.

I was literally putting on so much effort and my time on her even though my intentions were pure, I understand why she wouldn't trust me and would trust me and I respect that.

Until a day before yesterday, we were chatting about workplace harrassments and all of a sudden, she starts to test me. She confesses her love for me to which I played along and after a while she replies that I'm just like other guys and never talk to her again. My serious mode was on after that and I explained her that everything I did for her I did it without any expectations from her. To which she took well and even said that she was joking. We slept on it but that things was eating me up whole night.

Then came yesterday, the day I fucked up. It began as a normal day. She was texting me as usual but there was something different, she was more happy, more enthusiast than before. Since something was eating me up, she sensed that on me and right away started questioning me. To which I replied that it was nothing just feeling low. The day passed by and then came the night. After chatting for a half an hour, she again asked me if I was okay?

I denied it first and then build up the courage to say that we should stop talking from today with long ass reasonings; expecting her to give her opinion on it to which she didn't replied at all. In my defence, I felt the need to do so because our relationship wasn't heading anywhere and it was just limited to texting and nothing more. And I was getting hurt now and then just thinking about it. I know that was a selfish and a dick move from my end but I needed my closure. I instantly regretted my approach and apologized for being selfish and everything. Not to my surprise, she didn't acknowledge my apologies.

I wish to get back together, what we used to have. But I think I fucked up everything for good.

Therefore, I am writing this as a ask for help. Someone to knock the sense out of me. Thanks in advance if you have reached the bottom of my story. Any type of comments will be appreciated.



Submitted April 11, 2019 at 04:31AM

We have been texting back and forth for 3 months now. I asked her out after a month and a half of texting but she didn't replied me back. But we kept on the texting as if nothing happened. We didn't revisited the topic. After several days, she shared with me about her previous love life, a guy cheated on her and it was devastating and still recovering from that memory.I realized why she was emotionally unavailable so decided to support her by sharing my experience with the heart breaks. I helped her with no strings attached because I liked her. She liked it, too and she also confessed that she doesn't think about the past more often because of me. And we also started flirting back and forth but in actual she was testing me to see if I had any ulterior motives behind me but I ignored it.I was literally putting on so much effort and my time on her even though my intentions were pure, I understand why she wouldn't trust me and would trust me and I respect that.Until a day before yesterday, we were chatting about workplace harrassments and all of a sudden, she starts to test me. She confesses her love for me to which I played along and after a while she replies that I'm just like other guys and never talk to her again. My serious mode was on after that and I explained her that everything I did for her I did it without any expectations from her. To which she took well and even said that she was joking. We slept on it but that things was eating me up whole night.Then came yesterday, the day I fucked up. It began as a normal day. She was texting me as usual but there was something different, she was more happy, more enthusiast than before. Since something was eating me up, she sensed that on me and right away started questioning me. To which I replied that it was nothing just feeling low. The day passed by and then came the night. After chatting for a half an hour, she again asked me if I was okay?I denied it first and then build up the courage to say that we should stop talking from today with long ass reasonings; expecting her to give her opinion on it to which she didn't replied at all. In my defence, I felt the need to do so because our relationship wasn't heading anywhere and it was just limited to texting and nothing more. And I was getting hurt now and then just thinking about it. I know that was a selfish and a dick move from my end but I needed my closure. I instantly regretted my approach and apologized for being selfish and everything. Not to my surprise, she didn't acknowledge my apologies.I wish to get back together, what we used to have. But I think I fucked up everything for good.Therefore, I am writing this as a ask for help. Someone to knock the sense out of me. Thanks in advance if you have reached the bottom of my story. Any type of comments will be appreciated.
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