Beings Among Us

 The earth. A true catastrophe. Once ruled by gods. How do we know? Can we trust the history books? Who named these gods? If Zeus is their leader and he is the main creator, who created him? So many secrets. Are there more? What makes them a god? Where are they now? There are more. Not many, perhaps only one. I met her. The idea of God, or a God rather, is that they are ordinary beings with extraordinary traits. A human operates like a machine. Food nourishes the body through a digestive breakdown process. Our nerves send signals to our brain, and our brain computes these into feelings, ideas, reactions. If it is cold outside, our skin cells rise from the chill. If it is hot, they release sweat. When a human is nervous, the brain and body can create these feelings regardless of the temperature of it‘s environment. The level of intensity depends on the durability of the host. If a firearm is pointed at you, most people would be stricken frozen and not be able to think straight. A select few would know proper self defense tactics, and escape. My moment, my only moment that I too, was struck frozen as if a canon was aimed at my head. Last weekend I had plans to visit a neighboring state to seek a night of fun and self enjoyment and I had tickets to see a show my good friend was performing in. After the show ended, I camped in the theatre lobby, holding a bouquet of roses for my friend. 

I had been quite fond of this friend for a decent amount of time, more than half a decade. She was always the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Our feelings unfortunately were not equivalent, and we were merely good friends. It had been some time since last I saw her, and I was excited to greet her. She catches me off guard (I was biding time on my phone) and as I turn my head to say hi, my brain. It had unleashed wave after wave after wave of freezing chills, each one bigger and colder than the last. I was numb from head to toe, yet I could still feel my hands sweating gallons of water, and ai never sweat. Ever. My throat created sand and took all of my moisture inside of my mouth away. My legs turned to rubber, and I had to nonchalantly lean on the wall next to me before my face met the ground. She smiled and greeted me with a hug. At the rate my heart was beating, I feared launching her backwards as our chests met. I forgot the english language, and I muttered a weak “hey.”

She was so beautiful. More than ever before. I looked like a manican, frozen in time and appearing lifeless. I worked in the amusement park industry for years and years, so I was no stranger to people. I am not an awkward person, nor am I shy, regardless of whoever it is I am engaging with. But at that moment, her beauty and charm was something my body could not bare. I had come face to face with a Goddess amongst men. That is the only explanation. I had been with women many a times, as dating is not new to me. See, I had been in a rough patch mentally for nearly three tears at this point, and have not had much positivity in my life, and no companion to truly vent to. But at that moment. That smile. The click. George Bailey seeing Mary across the gym. Her eyes, like looking into the Universe and finding all things elegant. All of that negativity, depression, anxiety, turmoil, flushed away in the blink of an eye. I had not felt this happy in the longest time. I finally was able to think clearly enough to hand her the flowers, and then it happened again. Her smile grew wider, hey eyes lit up, and I became lime a child staring at a puppy again. I know that sounds weird, but even a week later and I still can not put into words what my body was feeling. It’s like my soul has found its purpose. I was in the presence of something that would make Pandora turn to dust. A lightning bolt from Zeus could not touch her radiance. She was her own being, she was her own kind. Thousands of years from now the history lessons will bear her name. There will be statues of her, hundreds all around the world, dedicated to showing tourists that she was an invincible Goddess that roamed the earth, blessing humanity with her presence.

I had come back to reality, and we made small talk like always. Hows the cat, hows your mom, great job on stage. When we had first met many years back, I was very heavy, unhealthy, and not caring for my physical presence. When I graduated high school, I had completely flipped my life around. She had seen me many times after the weight loss, but since I saw her last I have been building muscle rapidly. After small talk, she proclaims “so you look really great. I’m impressed” as I was in casual attire. Waves of chills. It was like a high that I was never coming down from. Chemicals in my body creating a weightless feeling where I am soaring in the clouds. We chatted for a bit longer, and it was getting late and she had a flight that night. We said our goodbyes, and right before I turned she smiled even wider and thanked me for the flowers, rubbing her face on them all while smiling. I melted (metaphorically) into the ground.

Now is when my adrenaline is on full blast. I forgot what it felt like to be struck with love, and this was more than love. We hugged again and waved goodbye, and on my way out the door I hear my watch beep. I look down as I walk out and my bpm was at 165. For a man of my age and weight, according to my watch, I should be in full sprint at the Olympics. I had to walk two blocks to get to my car, and it was dark as it was passed 11pm. My body however felt like it was midday in August with the hot sun beating down on my skin. I wanted to scream for joy, and run to everyone I saw, and share the incredible news. I am in love. I have found the one. Every time I see her, I just know. Whether in this realm or another, she is the one for me. I arrived at the parking garage, singing Frank Sinatra and walking like a Champion. I see that I am all alone, and I could not hold it in any longer. I screamed in happiness as it echoed across the lot. I get in my car and the screaming continued, thanking whatever God is listening.

For now, we are still just friends. But I will always be waiting, and if the day comes where true love takes it course, I’ll be ready. I hope anyone reading this finds a partner that makes them feel the way I did.

-J

Submitted April 09, 2019 at 07:47PM

The earth. A true catastrophe. Once ruled by gods. How do we know? Can we trust the history books? Who named these gods? If Zeus is their leader and he is the main creator, who created him? So many secrets. Are there more? What makes them a god? Where are they now? There are more. Not many, perhaps only one. I met her. The idea of God, or a God rather, is that they are ordinary beings with extraordinary traits. A human operates like a machine. Food nourishes the body through a digestive breakdown process. Our nerves send signals to our brain, and our brain computes these into feelings, ideas, reactions. If it is cold outside, our skin cells rise from the chill. If it is hot, they release sweat. When a human is nervous, the brain and body can create these feelings regardless of the temperature of it‘s environment. The level of intensity depends on the durability of the host. If a firearm is pointed at you, most people would be stricken frozen and not be able to think straight. A select few would know proper self defense tactics, and escape. My moment, my only moment that I too, was struck frozen as if a canon was aimed at my head. Last weekend I had plans to visit a neighboring state to seek a night of fun and self enjoyment and I had tickets to see a show my good friend was performing in. After the show ended, I camped in the theatre lobby, holding a bouquet of roses for my friend. I had been quite fond of this friend for a decent amount of time, more than half a decade. She was always the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Our feelings unfortunately were not equivalent, and we were merely good friends. It had been some time since last I saw her, and I was excited to greet her. She catches me off guard (I was biding time on my phone) and as I turn my head to say hi, my brain. It had unleashed wave after wave after wave of freezing chills, each one bigger and colder than the last. I was numb from head to toe, yet I could still feel my hands sweating gallons of water, and ai never sweat. Ever. My throat created sand and took all of my moisture inside of my mouth away. My legs turned to rubber, and I had to nonchalantly lean on the wall next to me before my face met the ground. She smiled and greeted me with a hug. At the rate my heart was beating, I feared launching her backwards as our chests met. I forgot the english language, and I muttered a weak “hey.”She was so beautiful. More than ever before. I looked like a manican, frozen in time and appearing lifeless. I worked in the amusement park industry for years and years, so I was no stranger to people. I am not an awkward person, nor am I shy, regardless of whoever it is I am engaging with. But at that moment, her beauty and charm was something my body could not bare. I had come face to face with a Goddess amongst men. That is the only explanation. I had been with women many a times, as dating is not new to me. See, I had been in a rough patch mentally for nearly three tears at this point, and have not had much positivity in my life, and no companion to truly vent to. But at that moment. That smile. The click. George Bailey seeing Mary across the gym. Her eyes, like looking into the Universe and finding all things elegant. All of that negativity, depression, anxiety, turmoil, flushed away in the blink of an eye. I had not felt this happy in the longest time. I finally was able to think clearly enough to hand her the flowers, and then it happened again. Her smile grew wider, hey eyes lit up, and I became lime a child staring at a puppy again. I know that sounds weird, but even a week later and I still can not put into words what my body was feeling. It’s like my soul has found its purpose. I was in the presence of something that would make Pandora turn to dust. A lightning bolt from Zeus could not touch her radiance. She was her own being, she was her own kind. Thousands of years from now the history lessons will bear her name. There will be statues of her, hundreds all around the world, dedicated to showing tourists that she was an invincible Goddess that roamed the earth, blessing humanity with her presence.I had come back to reality, and we made small talk like always. Hows the cat, hows your mom, great job on stage. When we had first met many years back, I was very heavy, unhealthy, and not caring for my physical presence. When I graduated high school, I had completely flipped my life around. She had seen me many times after the weight loss, but since I saw her last I have been building muscle rapidly. After small talk, she proclaims “so you look really great. I’m impressed” as I was in casual attire. Waves of chills. It was like a high that I was never coming down from. Chemicals in my body creating a weightless feeling where I am soaring in the clouds. We chatted for a bit longer, and it was getting late and she had a flight that night. We said our goodbyes, and right before I turned she smiled even wider and thanked me for the flowers, rubbing her face on them all while smiling. I melted (metaphorically) into the ground.Now is when my adrenaline is on full blast. I forgot what it felt like to be struck with love, and this was more than love. We hugged again and waved goodbye, and on my way out the door I hear my watch beep. I look down as I walk out and my bpm was at 165. For a man of my age and weight, according to my watch, I should be in full sprint at the Olympics. I had to walk two blocks to get to my car, and it was dark as it was passed 11pm. My body however felt like it was midday in August with the hot sun beating down on my skin. I wanted to scream for joy, and run to everyone I saw, and share the incredible news. I am in love. I have found the one. Every time I see her, I just know. Whether in this realm or another, she is the one for me. I arrived at the parking garage, singing Frank Sinatra and walking like a Champion. I see that I am all alone, and I could not hold it in any longer. I screamed in happiness as it echoed across the lot. I get in my car and the screaming continued, thanking whatever God is listening.For now, we are still just friends. But I will always be waiting, and if the day comes where true love takes it course, I’ll be ready. I hope anyone reading this finds a partner that makes them feel the way I did.-J