To James

I haven’t stopped thinking about you since the day you left and moved back home to NY almost 6 months ago, but it’s getting painful to realize that some memories are starting to fade. I’m forgetting the small details of your face, I’m forgetting your voice and the weird habits you had. But I’ll never forget your laugh and your kind eyes. I’m so sorry I drunk messaged you last night telling you I loved and missed you. Maybe it seems like I’m not doing well still since you left but don’t worry, I’ve been doing great and I’ve been happy for once. But it would be a lie to say that I don’t miss you, your company or your jokes. I miss sleeping next to you, having to steal all my pillows back, and hiding all my ice cream from you. I miss spending our weekends where I would sleep in and you would lay in bed awake waiting for me to wake up so we could make breakfast together. No matter how hungry you were, you’d always wait and kiss me once I did. We’d blast music and dance around as we made food together. You always made something sweet, I always made the savory. It’s the little things....

We had a bumpy relationship because of poor timing. You were fresh out of relationship that hurt you, I was still new to the relationship world and wanted something quick and fast. Looking back, I’m so beyond thankful to have met you. You’ve literally changed my life and showed me I’m capable of being loved, that I’m a wonderful woman who deserves everything and more. You’ve made me a much more confident person who’s a lot happier and doesn’t feel so ugly or rejected. You’ve made me even more open and accepting of everything. For that, I’m beyond thankful for you.

I hope one day we reconnect because i truly believe you are the love of my life. I waited so long for you and there you were. I had you and I loved you. I hope we find each other again and we start a life together. I hope you realize sooner rather than later that we were good together. We never had problems. We never fought, we just loved our life together. We enjoyed each other. We loved hard. We could still be a powerful couple. You, the computer scientist, me, the doctor. Our kids would be fucking awesome. Those little shits would have the best personalities and would grow up with a diverse range of music.

Just know I miss you. I love you. I want you. I want you to move back to me (or me to you). I wish we would talk more but I’m sorry if I ruined that. But I still hold onto hope....

Take care my love.

Submitted May 27, 2019 at 12:30AM

I haven’t stopped thinking about you since the day you left and moved back home to NY almost 6 months ago, but it’s getting painful to realize that some memories are starting to fade. I’m forgetting the small details of your face, I’m forgetting your voice and the weird habits you had. But I’ll never forget your laugh and your kind eyes. I’m so sorry I drunk messaged you last night telling you I loved and missed you. Maybe it seems like I’m not doing well still since you left but don’t worry, I’ve been doing great and I’ve been happy for once. But it would be a lie to say that I don’t miss you, your company or your jokes. I miss sleeping next to you, having to steal all my pillows back, and hiding all my ice cream from you. I miss spending our weekends where I would sleep in and you would lay in bed awake waiting for me to wake up so we could make breakfast together. No matter how hungry you were, you’d always wait and kiss me once I did. We’d blast music and dance around as we made food together. You always made something sweet, I always made the savory. It’s the little things....We had a bumpy relationship because of poor timing. You were fresh out of relationship that hurt you, I was still new to the relationship world and wanted something quick and fast. Looking back, I’m so beyond thankful to have met you. You’ve literally changed my life and showed me I’m capable of being loved, that I’m a wonderful woman who deserves everything and more. You’ve made me a much more confident person who’s a lot happier and doesn’t feel so ugly or rejected. You’ve made me even more open and accepting of everything. For that, I’m beyond thankful for you.I hope one day we reconnect because i truly believe you are the love of my life. I waited so long for you and there you were. I had you and I loved you. I hope we find each other again and we start a life together. I hope you realize sooner rather than later that we were good together. We never had problems. We never fought, we just loved our life together. We enjoyed each other. We loved hard. We could still be a powerful couple. You, the computer scientist, me, the doctor. Our kids would be fucking awesome. Those little shits would have the best personalities and would grow up with a diverse range of music.Just know I miss you. I love you. I want you. I want you to move back to me (or me to you). I wish we would talk more but I’m sorry if I ruined that. But I still hold onto hope....Take care my love.