How to move on after I (17/m) ruined a friendship (17/m)

Basically I’ve been really good friends with A for a few years now and at one point even the best of friends, but I know that it’s my fault we’re no longer close. I was always really clingy and obsessive over him (like, EXTREMELY) to the point where I’ve pushed him away totally. He admitted that conversations between us are an obligation to him and that our friendship has taken a toll.

Obviously I feel terrible. I apologised profusely, but now I feel incredibly awkward about where we stand. Sometimes he’s really nice and sometimes he’s really dry towards me. I think he’s also struggling with drifting away because he feels bad, but I really don’t think he likes me all that much anymore.

I sit next to him in class sometimes and that’s always awkward because if I try initiate conversation (because I feel like I secretly hope it can go back to normal) he gets really dry. It’s also really saddening to me when I see him enjoy time with other people. I think we’re both at different stages of moving on — him, halfway there and me, at the beginning of it.

How do I move on? I do have a lot of close supportive friends that I can go but other than venting about my feelings I’m not sure what else they’d provide. There’s really nothing else going for me other than schoolwork anymore, because I really loved that guy and cherished our friendship so much. I’m at a loss.

TLDR; I ruined my friendship with friend by being super clingy. How do I move on from it, since he’s clearly already moved on?

Submitted May 27, 2019 at 06:17AM

Basically I’ve been really good friends with A for a few years now and at one point even the best of friends, but I know that it’s my fault we’re no longer close. I was always really clingy and obsessive over him (like, EXTREMELY) to the point where I’ve pushed him away totally. He admitted that conversations between us are an obligation to him and that our friendship has taken a toll.Obviously I feel terrible. I apologised profusely, but now I feel incredibly awkward about where we stand. Sometimes he’s really nice and sometimes he’s really dry towards me. I think he’s also struggling with drifting away because he feels bad, but I really don’t think he likes me all that much anymore.I sit next to him in class sometimes and that’s always awkward because if I try initiate conversation (because I feel like I secretly hope it can go back to normal) he gets really dry. It’s also really saddening to me when I see him enjoy time with other people. I think we’re both at different stages of moving on — him, halfway there and me, at the beginning of it.How do I move on? I do have a lot of close supportive friends that I can go but other than venting about my feelings I’m not sure what else they’d provide. There’s really nothing else going for me other than schoolwork anymore, because I really loved that guy and cherished our friendship so much. I’m at a loss.TLDR; I ruined my friendship with friend by being super clingy. How do I move on from it, since he’s clearly already moved on?