My ex BF (20) is giving me mixed signals that I(25) can't figure out

So 3 weeks ago my boyfriend of almost a year decides he wants to leave me. His reasoning was that he wasn't happy with how our relationship was going. I tried to get him to give me another chance but he was certain he was done. I knew I was hard to get along with for a fair bit of the relationship. I started fights, I was nasty to him and didn't show a lot of affection. I truly understand his reasoning for leaving me. But he did love me and despite my inability to show it, I loved him with all of my heart. After the breakup I tried to accept it and move on, and it was absolute hell for a few days but I was steadily improving. I did not attempt to contact him in any way, and it lasted that way up until Friday night about 10 days later he drunkenly tries to call me. We were both out the following day for a football game and after having drinks he finally approaches me later on. He pours his heart out to me saying he loved me, wanted me in his life and I was the best thing that ever happened to him etc. I then find out he slept with someone else after we broke up. This started a huge fight and destroyed me. The following morning I meet up with him and lay it down. Does he want a future with me, or not. He agreed.

But me going back to my nature, and because he had been with someone else, I set some terms which probably were a bit over the top and eventually over the course of day he has backtracked and said "We aren't good anymore" I poured my heart out to him, saying I see a future with him and I want to put all the bad stuff behind and start again. He didn't say a great deal. He said it was a lot to take in and at the end of the conversation I just I will leave you think about it for a few days and he just replied with "alright".

So I don't know where to go from here. I can't figure out his attitude. He doesn't seem to really know what he wants and I can't handle going through being told a second time he doesn't want to be with me. I just don't know how he could say all of that and then completely backtrack. Do I try and completely forget about him and move on ? I genuinely see a future and I want to change my behaviour. I also live in a tiny town and avoiding him will be extremely difficult. I just want some else's perspective on this.

TLDR: My bf dumped me, agrees to repair things, then has done a 180 and wants to leave again.

Submitted May 27, 2019 at 05:30AM

So 3 weeks ago my boyfriend of almost a year decides he wants to leave me. His reasoning was that he wasn't happy with how our relationship was going. I tried to get him to give me another chance but he was certain he was done. I knew I was hard to get along with for a fair bit of the relationship. I started fights, I was nasty to him and didn't show a lot of affection. I truly understand his reasoning for leaving me. But he did love me and despite my inability to show it, I loved him with all of my heart. After the breakup I tried to accept it and move on, and it was absolute hell for a few days but I was steadily improving. I did not attempt to contact him in any way, and it lasted that way up until Friday night about 10 days later he drunkenly tries to call me. We were both out the following day for a football game and after having drinks he finally approaches me later on. He pours his heart out to me saying he loved me, wanted me in his life and I was the best thing that ever happened to him etc. I then find out he slept with someone else after we broke up. This started a huge fight and destroyed me. The following morning I meet up with him and lay it down. Does he want a future with me, or not. He agreed.But me going back to my nature, and because he had been with someone else, I set some terms which probably were a bit over the top and eventually over the course of day he has backtracked and said "We aren't good anymore" I poured my heart out to him, saying I see a future with him and I want to put all the bad stuff behind and start again. He didn't say a great deal. He said it was a lot to take in and at the end of the conversation I just I will leave you think about it for a few days and he just replied with "alright".So I don't know where to go from here. I can't figure out his attitude. He doesn't seem to really know what he wants and I can't handle going through being told a second time he doesn't want to be with me. I just don't know how he could say all of that and then completely backtrack. Do I try and completely forget about him and move on ? I genuinely see a future and I want to change my behaviour. I also live in a tiny town and avoiding him will be extremely difficult. I just want some else's perspective on this.TLDR: My bf dumped me, agrees to repair things, then has done a 180 and wants to leave again.