Im really having a hard time with this dating thing.

This is the first time I post so please be gentle lol

Im a widow so for me dating is hard and strange. Maybe thats why my dates dont go anywhere, I kinda dont know how to do this. Ive been a widow for 5 yrs and I decided to begin giving dating a try after 2yrs. All Ive had was the worst sexual experience of my life, 4 dates where 3 of those went nowhere and the other two became my friends and those 2 dates that went nowhere ghosted me so I gave dating a rest after the second ghosting last year. I have an extra hard time connecting, trusting and engaging as I am socially anxious, to make it more interesting, so getting queues and knowing how to flirt are ridiculous feats as I am mainly trying to concentrate on the other aspects of socializing which can feel like torture or keeping one's balance on a tightrope. Suffice to say I cant engage with a person irl unless they begin because of this.

I decided to give this a chance again because I am not getting any younger. I dont want to reproduce so Im looking for someone who doesnt have kids and doesnt want them. Thats hard in this age range. Im also not straight, I identify as pansexual. I use the OLDs because its easier to "approach" ppl. I have OKC, POF and Zoosk but as ya'll know Zoosk makes it impossible to communicate and OKC now also makes it a hassle to see who messages you unless you do the swipe thing. I have soany questions because Idl what Im doing wrong at this point.....So I was pondering if paying is even worth it? Are there other OLD that have more success and better quality of ppl? What advice you guys and gals have in making a profile? Ive tried long profiles full of info and short with a bit of info and the invitation to ask for more.

Im tired of being alone. Life is too short to not have a partner to enjoy it. Ive been giving myself time, I have a job and I go to college and now I need to expand my horizons further. Any advice is welcome! Thanks!



Submitted May 07, 2019 at 03:48AM

This is the first time I post so please be gentle lolIm a widow so for me dating is hard and strange. Maybe thats why my dates dont go anywhere, I kinda dont know how to do this. Ive been a widow for 5 yrs and I decided to begin giving dating a try after 2yrs. All Ive had was the worst sexual experience of my life, 4 dates where 3 of those went nowhere and the other two became my friends and those 2 dates that went nowhere ghosted me so I gave dating a rest after the second ghosting last year. I have an extra hard time connecting, trusting and engaging as I am socially anxious, to make it more interesting, so getting queues and knowing how to flirt are ridiculous feats as I am mainly trying to concentrate on the other aspects of socializing which can feel like torture or keeping one's balance on a tightrope. Suffice to say I cant engage with a person irl unless they begin because of this.I decided to give this a chance again because I am not getting any younger. I dont want to reproduce so Im looking for someone who doesnt have kids and doesnt want them. Thats hard in this age range. Im also not straight, I identify as pansexual. I use the OLDs because its easier to "approach" ppl. I have OKC, POF and Zoosk but as ya'll know Zoosk makes it impossible to communicate and OKC now also makes it a hassle to see who messages you unless you do the swipe thing. I have soany questions because Idl what Im doing wrong at this point.....So I was pondering if paying is even worth it? Are there other OLD that have more success and better quality of ppl? What advice you guys and gals have in making a profile? Ive tried long profiles full of info and short with a bit of info and the invitation to ask for more.Im tired of being alone. Life is too short to not have a partner to enjoy it. Ive been giving myself time, I have a job and I go to college and now I need to expand my horizons further. Any advice is welcome! Thanks!
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