I think my ex assaulted me???

I don't know if this is the right place to post this. I apologize if it isnt, please direct me and I will post it there. So about a year and a half ago, I was spending the night at my then-boyfriends house. We had gotten some alcohol and I definitely drank a little too much. He started pressuring me to have sex without a condom, and I said no because I was not on birth control at the time and I was not in a good place to get pregnant. We ended up having sex with a condom. After that, I passed out from drinking too much. I halfway woke up a little while and he was rubbing his penis on my vagina. I was still half unconscious but I sat up a little when I realized what was going on. He immediately pulled away as if he knew he was doing something wrong. I didnt think much of it and laid back down and started to fall asleep again. After a minute or two, I guess he thought I was passed out again and he tried to insert his penis in me. He could only get the head in due to the angle we were laying at, but he tried to go farther. I guess he gave up after that, he rolled over and went to sleep. The next morning I woke up and could process everything with a clear head and freaked out. I had clearly said no the night before to unprotected sex and I was practically passed out drunk. I left his house and called my best friend in tears and explain the situation. She talked me through it and recommended I confront him so I did. He denied it, saying he was just rubbing it on the outside of me, trying to wake me up and get me in the mood, but that's absolutely NOT what I remember. It's been a while since this incident and I still don't know what to think. I want to believe he was just drunk and didnt really realize what he was doing, but it still feels gross to me. Multiple times in our relationship he would try to initiate sex when I wasn't in the mood and he would get mad or guilt trip me into sleeping with him. I guess I dont really know what the point of this post was, I just needed to get this off my chest. Am I reading too much into it?

tldr; I think my ex assaulted me while I was drunk, but I truly dont know.

Submitted May 17, 2019 at 05:30AM

I don't know if this is the right place to post this. I apologize if it isnt, please direct me and I will post it there. So about a year and a half ago, I was spending the night at my then-boyfriends house. We had gotten some alcohol and I definitely drank a little too much. He started pressuring me to have sex without a condom, and I said no because I was not on birth control at the time and I was not in a good place to get pregnant. We ended up having sex with a condom. After that, I passed out from drinking too much. I halfway woke up a little while and he was rubbing his penis on my vagina. I was still half unconscious but I sat up a little when I realized what was going on. He immediately pulled away as if he knew he was doing something wrong. I didnt think much of it and laid back down and started to fall asleep again. After a minute or two, I guess he thought I was passed out again and he tried to insert his penis in me. He could only get the head in due to the angle we were laying at, but he tried to go farther. I guess he gave up after that, he rolled over and went to sleep. The next morning I woke up and could process everything with a clear head and freaked out. I had clearly said no the night before to unprotected sex and I was practically passed out drunk. I left his house and called my best friend in tears and explain the situation. She talked me through it and recommended I confront him so I did. He denied it, saying he was just rubbing it on the outside of me, trying to wake me up and get me in the mood, but that's absolutely NOT what I remember. It's been a while since this incident and I still don't know what to think. I want to believe he was just drunk and didnt really realize what he was doing, but it still feels gross to me. Multiple times in our relationship he would try to initiate sex when I wasn't in the mood and he would get mad or guilt trip me into sleeping with him. I guess I dont really know what the point of this post was, I just needed to get this off my chest. Am I reading too much into it?tldr; I think my ex assaulted me while I was drunk, but I truly dont know.