I think he is breaking up with me?

I [36F] and my date [37M] have been dating for the past couple of months. He seemed to be super interested and asked me a lot about my life goals and what I envision as a couple living together.

All was going really well until we had conversation on intimacy. He wants full oral and anal, and I was terrified since I never had sex or sexual acts before. I still told him I will do it and I will try anal as he seems to really likes it. This was our plan for long weekend.

Along with this came tons of arguments on why i would not want to fully submit to him when we both like eachother and we are moving towards getting married. I still preferred to not have this until we are at least engaged so I voiced my concern a few times. He got frustrated each time rating I'm over analyzing things.

On top of this, he has been actively on the dating site we met earlier ( I removed my profile once he said he is serious for marriage and found out later that he has his profile on). We also had some issues on how many times we can meet ( living in 2 different cities, working long hours) and how often we can chat.

All of these to me seems workable and I was thinking about how to spend more quality time and discuss face to face rather than text. I also started birth control pills just in case we wanted to fool around, and booked appointment for waxing so that he can check out my private without me looking like a bushy tree down there.

This was all going on when he suddenly mentioned he has a busy day and didn't message me till the next morning, saying that he has a lot on his head and needs sometime to process stuff. He asked to give him sometime with no explanation on the duration.

So I'm now sitting here crying my eyes out. I do love him and I really miss him. I wanted to be a better person for him and started to look into all intimacy stuff and watched good amount of educational porn ( the ones teaches you how to do things) .

I think I am not important enough or valued enough for him. I'm very upset but also don't want to contact him and want to respect his request for privacy.

What do you guys think? What is the right approach for me? Please help.



Submitted May 16, 2019 at 04:51PM

I [36F] and my date [37M] have been dating for the past couple of months. He seemed to be super interested and asked me a lot about my life goals and what I envision as a couple living together.All was going really well until we had conversation on intimacy. He wants full oral and anal, and I was terrified since I never had sex or sexual acts before. I still told him I will do it and I will try anal as he seems to really likes it. This was our plan for long weekend.Along with this came tons of arguments on why i would not want to fully submit to him when we both like eachother and we are moving towards getting married. I still preferred to not have this until we are at least engaged so I voiced my concern a few times. He got frustrated each time rating I'm over analyzing things.On top of this, he has been actively on the dating site we met earlier ( I removed my profile once he said he is serious for marriage and found out later that he has his profile on). We also had some issues on how many times we can meet ( living in 2 different cities, working long hours) and how often we can chat.All of these to me seems workable and I was thinking about how to spend more quality time and discuss face to face rather than text. I also started birth control pills just in case we wanted to fool around, and booked appointment for waxing so that he can check out my private without me looking like a bushy tree down there.This was all going on when he suddenly mentioned he has a busy day and didn't message me till the next morning, saying that he has a lot on his head and needs sometime to process stuff. He asked to give him sometime with no explanation on the duration.So I'm now sitting here crying my eyes out. I do love him and I really miss him. I wanted to be a better person for him and started to look into all intimacy stuff and watched good amount of educational porn ( the ones teaches you how to do things) .I think I am not important enough or valued enough for him. I'm very upset but also don't want to contact him and want to respect his request for privacy.What do you guys think? What is the right approach for me? Please help.
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