Am I just being paranoid or could this be an issue?

So to start off I'm trans f2m, and the idea of pregnancy literally has me so dysmorphic I'd rather stab myself in the stomach than go through with it.

The reason I say it's unlikely for me to get pregnant is I may be intersex (I don't have a diagnosis yet) but I don't get a period at all. When I was about 14 - 17 I did but even then it was irregular and stopped completely at some point. There's more to it than just that such as I grow facial hair and other things but I don't want to get off subject too much.

To add to that I had a doctor want me to take some form of hormone therapy around 17 or 18 to regulate my body more but I declined because I was looking to be less female, not gain more female hormones.

So here's what happened:

Just over a month ago I had a condom break right before the guy finished inside me, and of course right away I went to paranoid thoughts of pregnancy. (Edit: I'm pretty sure it was a spermicide condom used as well, but not 100%)

Whenever I think about it I notice I feel bloaty or nauseous, but its ONLY if I think about it so idk if I'm just making myself imagine it.

I also did have a small amount of spotting appear on toilet paper with one wipe only a few days after the incident which I read can happen when an egg attaches, but this was also right after sex so idk if it could have just been from a tear during sex that time.

I'm going to try getting a pregnancy stick test from somewhere discreet within the next few days most likely, the only reason I hadnt so far was because the idea of having to walk into a store and even speak to a cashier about one makes me feel so shitty due to being trans.

On top of everything I also work in porn and the condom break incident happened with someone I was filming with. Like I don't even know his full name and he's super not my type, even aside from dysmorphia I would never want to accidentally have a child from a stranger I'm not even attracted to or would even be friends with.

When I was younger before I understood sexual health or that my body didnt quite function normally I had lots of unprotected sex with no issues, despite accidental internal finishes more times than I can count. That was from age 16 through 21. If I take my young and dumb track record into consideration I already can see how the chance is pretty low.

But what do you guys think? I will go get a test. I just want some opinions now because I'm stressing and feel totally disgusted.

Submitted May 18, 2019 at 06:48AM

So to start off I'm trans f2m, and the idea of pregnancy literally has me so dysmorphic I'd rather stab myself in the stomach than go through with it.The reason I say it's unlikely for me to get pregnant is I may be intersex (I don't have a diagnosis yet) but I don't get a period at all. When I was about 14 - 17 I did but even then it was irregular and stopped completely at some point. There's more to it than just that such as I grow facial hair and other things but I don't want to get off subject too much.To add to that I had a doctor want me to take some form of hormone therapy around 17 or 18 to regulate my body more but I declined because I was looking to be less female, not gain more female hormones.So here's what happened:Just over a month ago I had a condom break right before the guy finished inside me, and of course right away I went to paranoid thoughts of pregnancy. (Edit: I'm pretty sure it was a spermicide condom used as well, but not 100%)Whenever I think about it I notice I feel bloaty or nauseous, but its ONLY if I think about it so idk if I'm just making myself imagine it.I also did have a small amount of spotting appear on toilet paper with one wipe only a few days after the incident which I read can happen when an egg attaches, but this was also right after sex so idk if it could have just been from a tear during sex that time.I'm going to try getting a pregnancy stick test from somewhere discreet within the next few days most likely, the only reason I hadnt so far was because the idea of having to walk into a store and even speak to a cashier about one makes me feel so shitty due to being trans.On top of everything I also work in porn and the condom break incident happened with someone I was filming with. Like I don't even know his full name and he's super not my type, even aside from dysmorphia I would never want to accidentally have a child from a stranger I'm not even attracted to or would even be friends with.When I was younger before I understood sexual health or that my body didnt quite function normally I had lots of unprotected sex with no issues, despite accidental internal finishes more times than I can count. That was from age 16 through 21. If I take my young and dumb track record into consideration I already can see how the chance is pretty low.But what do you guys think? I will go get a test. I just want some opinions now because I'm stressing and feel totally disgusted.