Hello, My name is LNikon360. I have never been married. I am a cisgendered Male 38. I stopped dating after I left an abusive relationship.

That was 8 years ago.

I still think about her more often than I care to admit. I have not been in a fwb or sexual relationship for the same amount of time. I have paid for sex, I am not proud of it, and made sure that it was their choice to be in sex work, beforehand.

Otherwise I have not had sexual intercourse or contact with a woman who wanted me for me and not in a transaction. For 8 Years.

After the new year I decided I was going to try the apps, T and the Bee. I initially had some quick dates several of which went no where quick, one I fucked up. One who is going through some shit in her life so she says. Another I posted about on Saturday night.

For the one I fucked up, I came on to strong. Then I was upset on a saturday night when she(34F) kept telling me that maybe we could get together then went to her friends birthday... I should have taken the hint and backed off.

The one who is going through some shit.. its been one text per week for the past 4 weeks, after 3 dates... I think things are pretty much done. But I'll keep things going if there is a chance, of a real relationship, and look I really like her, but sex is an important part of a relationship, and if things don't move forward beyond kissing then why bother.

The one I posted about on Saturday, well we had one date, 10 weeks ago. Everything was great... She has a busy work life, so do I. She has more going on during the weekends than I do generally. (32F). I asked for a second date very quickly, but we could never really find a time. Long story short, she canceled last min on our weeks long planned second date. No apology no nothing. I told her in no uncertain terms that I was not happy that she cancelled and did not apologize and attempt to make other plans immediately. Then cut all contact.

And I cannot fucking deal with it. Its 2 days later and I am still really fucking pissed off.

Her and I seemed to have real connection going. Same with the first one I fucked up. ( I literally have 0 read on the one I am still texting )

So I do not think I am ready to date again. Or am I doing something wrong? I walk 20 km perday for work, I am 5'7" 144 pounds. I think I am fairly good looking. I have interests and activities that do not include jerking off at home. I am balding.. but I buzz my head.

I just don't fucking know.



Submitted April 09, 2019 at 05:22AM

That was 8 years ago.I still think about her more often than I care to admit. I have not been in a fwb or sexual relationship for the same amount of time. I have paid for sex, I am not proud of it, and made sure that it was their choice to be in sex work, beforehand.Otherwise I have not had sexual intercourse or contact with a woman who wanted me for me and not in a transaction. For 8 Years.After the new year I decided I was going to try the apps, T and the Bee. I initially had some quick dates several of which went no where quick, one I fucked up. One who is going through some shit in her life so she says. Another I posted about on Saturday night.For the one I fucked up, I came on to strong. Then I was upset on a saturday night when she(34F) kept telling me that maybe we could get together then went to her friends birthday... I should have taken the hint and backed off.The one who is going through some shit.. its been one text per week for the past 4 weeks, after 3 dates... I think things are pretty much done. But I'll keep things going if there is a chance, of a real relationship, and look I really like her, but sex is an important part of a relationship, and if things don't move forward beyond kissing then why bother.The one I posted about on Saturday, well we had one date, 10 weeks ago. Everything was great... She has a busy work life, so do I. She has more going on during the weekends than I do generally. (32F). I asked for a second date very quickly, but we could never really find a time. Long story short, she canceled last min on our weeks long planned second date. No apology no nothing. I told her in no uncertain terms that I was not happy that she cancelled and did not apologize and attempt to make other plans immediately. Then cut all contact.And I cannot fucking deal with it. Its 2 days later and I am still really fucking pissed off.Her and I seemed to have real connection going. Same with the first one I fucked up. ( I literally have 0 read on the one I am still texting )So I do not think I am ready to date again. Or am I doing something wrong? I walk 20 km perday for work, I am 5'7" 144 pounds. I think I am fairly good looking. I have interests and activities that do not include jerking off at home. I am balding.. but I buzz my head.I just don't fucking know.

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