I will make you fall for me again. And I am determined, because you’re seriously my soulmate.

I think I knew from when I first saw you. I felt something so different for you it made me feel scared. It wasn’t just a crush, it was so much more, all the excess of the feelings I had made me shy and scared of you. You were so special, I could just feel it from your presence and your vibes. At first I couldn’t really point out that I had feelings for you, because the intense feelings I felt for you made me scared of the unknown, but I admitted it to myself eventually.

Eventually, we started to talk and get to know each other. We had so much in common and we connected immediately. It was weird talking to someone who was the male equivalent of me, but it felt like home as well. After all the last crushes I’ve had as a girl, I started to realise what it means to love as a woman. When it turned out you felt the same for me, we got into this on and off thing. However, despite being on and off, we were always down to chat with each other and having deep meaningful conversations.

After three years of being on and off, we finally exclusively got together in the beginning of 2017. It was heaven, and it felt so right. No awkward phase at all, just loving. It felt like as if I’ve gotten home.

Things got complicated when you moved to another town for studies. We got a bit on and off again from that sadly, but we still loved each other. We have always been complicated in our own ways, making our love story less flattering, but our love was really despite all that.

Last year, your love for me faded. It was one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve ever heard. We still loved each other as friends however, so we stayed as bestfriends. Friends with benefits. There’s always been an intense amount of sexual tension between us, and it was hard for us to put it aside when being together as friends, so we let it be like that. It felt so good to still have that part from you, but I knew it was so wrong because I let you take advantage of it until you were fully over me.

We have tried multiple times to stop being sexual, but we would always fail. It’s always hard to fight your natural urges, especially when the chemistry is just screaming at you to make love. Yesterday, you decided that we would try to transition as just friends but to take our time with it and not rush it. It broke my heart when you said that you wanted to try to meet other people and find a new relationship. You should know that I want you to be happy more than anything, but I don’t– I just can’t let you be happy with someone else. I can’t let that happen.

During these times, I’ve tried to find love elsewhere. Tried to let myself be open to other men. There’s been men I’ve been attracted to, men I’ve even had a crush on, but it felt like nothing compared to you. I would think of them, feeling all excited, and then you would pop back up in my mind and the person I thought of before you would become COMPLETELY irrelevant. At this point, I’m scared that I will never find anyone that makes me feel the same way as you do. Or make me feel anything similar at all. I’ve tried, believe me how hard I’ve tried to get over you. I’ve been doing no contact multiple times to try getting over you, telling you I’m just gonna be busy with other stuff for some months. However, It’s impossible getting my mind off of you no matter what I do.

The love I feel for you is indescribable. It’s more than infatuation, I feel like taking care of you and loving you. I feel with you, I get nervous for you, happy for you, sad for you, angry for you. I feel comfortable being with you in your most vulnerable moments, and you in mine. I have this natural instinct of caring for you in a very loving way. I find it hard for me to properly put on words on how I feel for you, but I love you. You’re my motivation in life, and with you I feel comforted and calm. I wake up, I go to sleep, I do and I don’t, no matter what I do, and when I do it, I am devoured by thoughts of you my immortal beloved.

There’s no one else that is you in this world. No one. There’s only one you, and I was one of the few lucky humans on earth that got to meet you. You’re perfect, and I’m not letting you go. You’re going to fall in love with me again. I am determined. I am going to prove you there is a reason why we haven’t been able to let go of each other. I don’t know how yet, but I will find a way. I promise.

Submitted May 18, 2019 at 04:31PM

I think I knew from when I first saw you. I felt something so different for you it made me feel scared. It wasn’t just a crush, it was so much more, all the excess of the feelings I had made me shy and scared of you. You were so special, I could just feel it from your presence and your vibes. At first I couldn’t really point out that I had feelings for you, because the intense feelings I felt for you made me scared of the unknown, but I admitted it to myself eventually.Eventually, we started to talk and get to know each other. We had so much in common and we connected immediately. It was weird talking to someone who was the male equivalent of me, but it felt like home as well. After all the last crushes I’ve had as a girl, I started to realise what it means to love as a woman. When it turned out you felt the same for me, we got into this on and off thing. However, despite being on and off, we were always down to chat with each other and having deep meaningful conversations.After three years of being on and off, we finally exclusively got together in the beginning of 2017. It was heaven, and it felt so right. No awkward phase at all, just loving. It felt like as if I’ve gotten home.Things got complicated when you moved to another town for studies. We got a bit on and off again from that sadly, but we still loved each other. We have always been complicated in our own ways, making our love story less flattering, but our love was really despite all that.Last year, your love for me faded. It was one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve ever heard. We still loved each other as friends however, so we stayed as bestfriends. Friends with benefits. There’s always been an intense amount of sexual tension between us, and it was hard for us to put it aside when being together as friends, so we let it be like that. It felt so good to still have that part from you, but I knew it was so wrong because I let you take advantage of it until you were fully over me.We have tried multiple times to stop being sexual, but we would always fail. It’s always hard to fight your natural urges, especially when the chemistry is just screaming at you to make love. Yesterday, you decided that we would try to transition as just friends but to take our time with it and not rush it. It broke my heart when you said that you wanted to try to meet other people and find a new relationship. You should know that I want you to be happy more than anything, but I don’t– I just can’t let you be happy with someone else. I can’t let that happen.During these times, I’ve tried to find love elsewhere. Tried to let myself be open to other men. There’s been men I’ve been attracted to, men I’ve even had a crush on, but it felt like nothing compared to you. I would think of them, feeling all excited, and then you would pop back up in my mind and the person I thought of before you would become COMPLETELY irrelevant. At this point, I’m scared that I will never find anyone that makes me feel the same way as you do. Or make me feel anything similar at all. I’ve tried, believe me how hard I’ve tried to get over you. I’ve been doing no contact multiple times to try getting over you, telling you I’m just gonna be busy with other stuff for some months. However, It’s impossible getting my mind off of you no matter what I do.The love I feel for you is indescribable. It’s more than infatuation, I feel like taking care of you and loving you. I feel with you, I get nervous for you, happy for you, sad for you, angry for you. I feel comfortable being with you in your most vulnerable moments, and you in mine. I have this natural instinct of caring for you in a very loving way. I find it hard for me to properly put on words on how I feel for you, but I love you. You’re my motivation in life, and with you I feel comforted and calm. I wake up, I go to sleep, I do and I don’t, no matter what I do, and when I do it, I am devoured by thoughts of you my immortal beloved.There’s no one else that is you in this world. No one. There’s only one you, and I was one of the few lucky humans on earth that got to meet you. You’re perfect, and I’m not letting you go. You’re going to fall in love with me again. I am determined. I am going to prove you there is a reason why we haven’t been able to let go of each other. I don’t know how yet, but I will find a way. I promise.