I've been[29 M/F] dating an awesome person [23, F] the last few weeks, but two incidents have held me back from things progressing into a relationship

I've been dating someone I met at work, and before everyone says bad idea, I will be transferring to a different workplace not to far away. When I'm not a drunken moron, things have been great. Things feel like they are slowly progressing, however there have been two incidents in which I fucked up.

They've both been when I have browned out/black out and I obviously act like an idiot. Both incidents are kind of identical.

1 We went to a show with some other friends. I guess during the show she asked if she could make out or if it would be cool if she make out with one of her friends(also a girl). I dont really remember what happened, but i think I got kind of butthurt and tried to leave. she caught up with me and we had an awkward uber ride. First thing she said was "I made out with Debs 2". I got butt hurt. She tried to leave when we got back to my place, and then I sent a bunch of really dumb texts. Some involving saying theres plenty of girls that want to make out wiht me.

We moved on from it, but didn't entirely talk about it.

2 I went away to attend a wedding. She sent me texts seeing how I was doing and everything. That continued throughout most of the day of the wedding. It got to the point there where I again, blacked out. Started saying really lame stuff. She had told me to do my thing when people were dancing. I went pyscho and said she didnt have feelings. She mentioned in text that she just wanted to take things slow, which I do too. Anyways I sent a lot of texts, that I have a hard time reading because I was being so stupid. I basically tried getting a reaction from her, and when I didn't I said a ton of stupid stuff. Again trying to get a rise from her.

Well, I took her out for lunch on her lunch break. She didn't really have much to say and I tried my best to apologize but I was super hung over. She was laughing at me, but also kind of frustrated with me maybe. I guess disappointed. She said she wasn't mad but that there were a lot of texts. She said I said a lot. I said I want to do better, and said I need to prove that. She agreed, and said it was a "good idea," when I mentioned that I need to watch my drinking.

She also mentioned we didn't need to have lunch or anything, and answered maybe when she mentioned the show we had talked about going to. However, I told her I liked her and she said she likes me too. I also said, I want thing to go slow too, and she was slightly receptive to that, or kinda looked at me like I stated the obvious.

We kissed goodbye and she joked about needing time away from me, or it might be best to. The joke part was needing more than 24hrs away, but I dont think she was kidding about the 24hrs time away from me. Shes on medication right now and she said shes kind of moody from it.

Things Im taking away from here, is if I don't stop getting black out drunk, and doing these text sprees, I'm going to lose her completely. However, I can't help but think I have already. Anyone have anything they can add for me, or maybe tell me I should be prepared for things to end.

TDLR; Dating this girl and we seem to have awesome chemistry. However, I've fucked up twice within two weeks, and I am giving her a terrible impression of how I can get. Can't help but feel like I've lost her.



Submitted November 03, 2019 at 12:12AM

I've been dating someone I met at work, and before everyone says bad idea, I will be transferring to a different workplace not to far away. When I'm not a drunken moron, things have been great. Things feel like they are slowly progressing, however there have been two incidents in which I fucked up.They've both been when I have browned out/black out and I obviously act like an idiot. Both incidents are kind of identical.1 We went to a show with some other friends. I guess during the show she asked if she could make out or if it would be cool if she make out with one of her friends(also a girl). I dont really remember what happened, but i think I got kind of butthurt and tried to leave. she caught up with me and we had an awkward uber ride. First thing she said was "I made out with Debs 2". I got butt hurt. She tried to leave when we got back to my place, and then I sent a bunch of really dumb texts. Some involving saying theres plenty of girls that want to make out wiht me.We moved on from it, but didn't entirely talk about it.2 I went away to attend a wedding. She sent me texts seeing how I was doing and everything. That continued throughout most of the day of the wedding. It got to the point there where I again, blacked out. Started saying really lame stuff. She had told me to do my thing when people were dancing. I went pyscho and said she didnt have feelings. She mentioned in text that she just wanted to take things slow, which I do too. Anyways I sent a lot of texts, that I have a hard time reading because I was being so stupid. I basically tried getting a reaction from her, and when I didn't I said a ton of stupid stuff. Again trying to get a rise from her.Well, I took her out for lunch on her lunch break. She didn't really have much to say and I tried my best to apologize but I was super hung over. She was laughing at me, but also kind of frustrated with me maybe. I guess disappointed. She said she wasn't mad but that there were a lot of texts. She said I said a lot. I said I want to do better, and said I need to prove that. She agreed, and said it was a "good idea," when I mentioned that I need to watch my drinking.She also mentioned we didn't need to have lunch or anything, and answered maybe when she mentioned the show we had talked about going to. However, I told her I liked her and she said she likes me too. I also said, I want thing to go slow too, and she was slightly receptive to that, or kinda looked at me like I stated the obvious.We kissed goodbye and she joked about needing time away from me, or it might be best to. The joke part was needing more than 24hrs away, but I dont think she was kidding about the 24hrs time away from me. Shes on medication right now and she said shes kind of moody from it.Things Im taking away from here, is if I don't stop getting black out drunk, and doing these text sprees, I'm going to lose her completely. However, I can't help but think I have already. Anyone have anything they can add for me, or maybe tell me I should be prepared for things to end.TDLR; Dating this girl and we seem to have awesome chemistry. However, I've fucked up twice within two weeks, and I am giving her a terrible impression of how I can get. Can't help but feel like I've lost her.
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