I don't believe in fate but now I want to

Yesterday I was at my parents' place. My mum asked me about my love life, and I told her I was still very single! I said... "wouldn't it be amazing if I bumped into my soulmate on the train tomorrow?" Ive been asked out a good few times, but i never find anybody who interests me. I use tinder, but the fact it's a sleazy dating app gets me less passionate and excited over it. Nobody I've met from there has enticed me yet. Meeting someone on the long train journey home tomorrow though, where we have plenty of time sitting together to talk about our lives like it's a first date? What a story to tell the grandkids. Call me old-fashioned but I really do like lovey-romantic shit like that. I know it was a joke, but it came from a place of truth. I'm feeling kind of hopeless, like I'll never find what I'm looking for on my own, and I just wish life would throw a person at me who I can make it work with. I made a bit of a deal out of it, because my mum doesn't often see me express any interest in love, so when I do it keeps her happy that I'm not totally dead inside (lol). The fantasy is a little hopeless, though. :')

On the train today, I bumped into an old friend of five years who I have a little history with. I asked him out several times during high school, he always said no. I got over him and we talked less and less, but we attend the same university still and meet up occasionally. Hes the only person ive ever been in any love with. We were in the middle of talking when I remembered what I said to mum yesterday.

I just feel weird now.

Submitted April 23, 2019 at 10:00PM

Yesterday I was at my parents' place. My mum asked me about my love life, and I told her I was still very single! I said... "wouldn't it be amazing if I bumped into my soulmate on the train tomorrow?" Ive been asked out a good few times, but i never find anybody who interests me. I use tinder, but the fact it's a sleazy dating app gets me less passionate and excited over it. Nobody I've met from there has enticed me yet. Meeting someone on the long train journey home tomorrow though, where we have plenty of time sitting together to talk about our lives like it's a first date? What a story to tell the grandkids. Call me old-fashioned but I really do like lovey-romantic shit like that. I know it was a joke, but it came from a place of truth. I'm feeling kind of hopeless, like I'll never find what I'm looking for on my own, and I just wish life would throw a person at me who I can make it work with. I made a bit of a deal out of it, because my mum doesn't often see me express any interest in love, so when I do it keeps her happy that I'm not totally dead inside (lol). The fantasy is a little hopeless, though. :')On the train today, I bumped into an old friend of five years who I have a little history with. I asked him out several times during high school, he always said no. I got over him and we talked less and less, but we attend the same university still and meet up occasionally. Hes the only person ive ever been in any love with. We were in the middle of talking when I remembered what I said to mum yesterday.I just feel weird now.