I 16m don’t know how to deal with my cheating father

The main issue is that my parents won’t tell me and my sister anything about their relationship. From what I heard, my dad cheated on my mom a while ago. He went to strip club (i think) some amount of time after that incident and after, he was forgiven by my mom. He then got caught talking to someone else on instagram. This is reason number one for why I feel extremely angry at my dad. He lied and manipulated my mom for all these years, and it pisses me off that they’re just all fine now. I already feel as though I’ve lost my father. The person I thought I knew is just the complete opposite of a role model. I want him nowhere near me or my mom or sister. Even today, I’m finding it hard to control my anger. While my dad was whining and berating my sister like he always does, I had an overwhelming urge to call him every single name in the book. I’m glad I didn’t, I don’t wanna be like him at all. I will never be him. I can’t even look in his direction. These feelings of anger also come from another place. I’m also mad because while explaining to my mom why he cheated and where he got “sex addiction,” he started saying how his uncle showed him porn from a very young age and how he didn’t know what he was doing was wrong and that he was embarrassed when he realized what the results of beating off were. It hurts me because I also developed a porn addiction very early. I also didn’t know it was wrong. I also am so fucking embarrassed. He’s caught me so many times since I was 10, but did he ever explain that he knew what I was going through? Did he ever share what he himself went through to maybe help me? Did he ever tell me what the results of watching porn and beating off were? Not once did he ever even try to talk to me about it. He just humiliated me, and made me feel like an outcast. I feel so betrayed. My dad is just a selfish bitch, unwilling to lower himself to a human level until he’s caught in his bullshit. This is the second reason why I’m infuriated. Someone please help me deal with this. I’m just so uncomfortable.

TL;DR: My dad is not someone I want in my life, but I want to figure out how to deal with him.

Submitted April 25, 2020 at 11:58PM

The main issue is that my parents won’t tell me and my sister anything about their relationship. From what I heard, my dad cheated on my mom a while ago. He went to strip club (i think) some amount of time after that incident and after, he was forgiven by my mom. He then got caught talking to someone else on instagram. This is reason number one for why I feel extremely angry at my dad. He lied and manipulated my mom for all these years, and it pisses me off that they’re just all fine now. I already feel as though I’ve lost my father. The person I thought I knew is just the complete opposite of a role model. I want him nowhere near me or my mom or sister. Even today, I’m finding it hard to control my anger. While my dad was whining and berating my sister like he always does, I had an overwhelming urge to call him every single name in the book. I’m glad I didn’t, I don’t wanna be like him at all. I will never be him. I can’t even look in his direction. These feelings of anger also come from another place. I’m also mad because while explaining to my mom why he cheated and where he got “sex addiction,” he started saying how his uncle showed him porn from a very young age and how he didn’t know what he was doing was wrong and that he was embarrassed when he realized what the results of beating off were. It hurts me because I also developed a porn addiction very early. I also didn’t know it was wrong. I also am so fucking embarrassed. He’s caught me so many times since I was 10, but did he ever explain that he knew what I was going through? Did he ever share what he himself went through to maybe help me? Did he ever tell me what the results of watching porn and beating off were? Not once did he ever even try to talk to me about it. He just humiliated me, and made me feel like an outcast. I feel so betrayed. My dad is just a selfish bitch, unwilling to lower himself to a human level until he’s caught in his bullshit. This is the second reason why I’m infuriated. Someone please help me deal with this. I’m just so uncomfortable.TL;DR: My dad is not someone I want in my life, but I want to figure out how to deal with him.