gf (19f) broke up with me (20m) under suspicious circumstances - looking for advice

So I had been dating this girl for a little over a year. We met last summer and I left for school and we survived long distance the whole year and had an incredible summer. I love her so much and my heart aches at the thought of her w another. I trusted her more than I've ever trusted anyone else - thats what makes this so hard

We went back to long distance (2.5 hours apart) as a i returned to school, she goes to our local CC. The first visit she was supposed to come on sunday and we were going to go to a concert on monday night. Due to circumstances that displeased me she didn't end up coming sunday and monday was the first time we had seen each other in 2 weeks. She immediately began crying and telling me how awful her mental health had been, I asked her if she needed time without me and she said probably yeah. At this point, I understood and while I felt extremely sad I was okay w it ending on good terms. However things turned south quickly.

After we engaged in physical activity she went to the bathroom and i saw a text on her phone saying "did you tell him about michael?" from her best friend. Michael is a coworker of hers who she previously told me she found attractive when i asked. I opened her text stream and saw that she said "no, but im planning on telling him that I want to experience new things/new people". After i saw this i was distraught. After some time self imploding with emotion outside she told me that michael had kissed her last night, and she had no part and she didnt cheat on me. I question how physically this was possible since he wasn't touching her. She was also drunk during this but claims to remember it all. She then told me her text about experiencing new people (which she never mentioned to me) wasn’t true and she doesn't even know why she said it. This situation was made much more complicated by the fact she was supposed to sleep over and couldnt leave beacuse she drove someone else down for the previously mentioned concert. Anyway, she wouldnt let me see her other texts with said friend, and she coincidentally deleted her texts w michael.

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Never once in a year did she lie to me but i find all these things impossible to believe. I am having a hard time moving forward stuck on these awful thoughts of what she may or may not have done and what she may or may not have lied about.

I also just feel like her decision was super rushed and not thought out.

I know I will be okay but it just hurts a lot right now. Looking for advice on the situation and what you all think. thanks

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tl;dr: gf broke up with me on first visit of school year after year of succesful LDR. Found text asking ab a man, she says they kissed but its not her fault.

Submitted September 11, 2019 at 11:04PM

So I had been dating this girl for a little over a year. We met last summer and I left for school and we survived long distance the whole year and had an incredible summer. I love her so much and my heart aches at the thought of her w another. I trusted her more than I've ever trusted anyone else - thats what makes this so hardWe went back to long distance (2.5 hours apart) as a i returned to school, she goes to our local CC. The first visit she was supposed to come on sunday and we were going to go to a concert on monday night. Due to circumstances that displeased me she didn't end up coming sunday and monday was the first time we had seen each other in 2 weeks. She immediately began crying and telling me how awful her mental health had been, I asked her if she needed time without me and she said probably yeah. At this point, I understood and while I felt extremely sad I was okay w it ending on good terms. However things turned south quickly.After we engaged in physical activity she went to the bathroom and i saw a text on her phone saying "did you tell him about michael?" from her best friend. Michael is a coworker of hers who she previously told me she found attractive when i asked. I opened her text stream and saw that she said "no, but im planning on telling him that I want to experience new things/new people". After i saw this i was distraught. After some time self imploding with emotion outside she told me that michael had kissed her last night, and she had no part and she didnt cheat on me. I question how physically this was possible since he wasn't touching her. She was also drunk during this but claims to remember it all. She then told me her text about experiencing new people (which she never mentioned to me) wasn’t true and she doesn't even know why she said it. This situation was made much more complicated by the fact she was supposed to sleep over and couldnt leave beacuse she drove someone else down for the previously mentioned concert. Anyway, she wouldnt let me see her other texts with said friend, and she coincidentally deleted her texts w michael.​Never once in a year did she lie to me but i find all these things impossible to believe. I am having a hard time moving forward stuck on these awful thoughts of what she may or may not have done and what she may or may not have lied about.I also just feel like her decision was super rushed and not thought out.I know I will be okay but it just hurts a lot right now. Looking for advice on the situation and what you all think. thanks​tl;dr: gf broke up with me on first visit of school year after year of succesful LDR. Found text asking ab a man, she says they kissed but its not her fault.