Short vent

She had been right in front of me for over a year, the only problem being she belonged to someone else. That someone being my roommate at the time. From the first time I saw her I knew this one was special, there was just something about her. A kind of glow if you will, that i had never seen in anyone before. And so incredibly beautiful, breathtakingly so.

We quickly became good friends and often spent hours just talkning in the livingroom, shareing experiences, talking about everything between heaven and earth and joking around . Gave each other advice and attention during mentaly though times for both of us. She was my rock already then although our relation was strickly platonic and I was satified like that. Until I no longer were. A couple of months passed I noticed myself becoming progressively more jealous about all the little things and intreactions between her and her boyfriend. Which had never even faced me before, especially since I have always enjoyed being alone, but something apparently had changed.

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Everything went on just as usual despite the fact i had started to develop feelings for her, and boy did I do everything to supress them. I tried seeing other people, using substaces, traveling, but nothing seemed to work. All I could think about was her. I felt stuck without any idea of how to deal with it. They eventually moved to a place of their own but that didn't make anything easier. We stayed in touch but it was not the same and barely saw eachother anymore.

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They broke up after about a year and a half, shortly after moving in together but at this point we had lost all contact somehow. More than 6 moths passed and i still could not get her out of my mind, no amount of sex, interaction or substance could change this fact. Until one day we matched on tinder and i lost my shit, I did't know what to do with this. However she wrote to me first and we spent the whole day talking, like nothing ever changed. Up until the point where she tells me that for about as long as I had, she has had feelings for me too. And had been under the same constant internal struggle. I couldn't believe it was happening, what I had been wanting all this time was coming true with each message back and forth. One thing led to another and we decided to try, and if it isn't the best decision of my life. It sounds cliché but she has showed me the meaning of true love and how it feels to be happy, she is the one. The most amazing human on this planet, the one I want to be with for the rest of my life.

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This is super rough and shorted down but i wanted to get it of my chest. Thanks for reading and spread love!

Submitted April 15, 2019 at 01:45PM

She had been right in front of me for over a year, the only problem being she belonged to someone else. That someone being my roommate at the time. From the first time I saw her I knew this one was special, there was just something about her. A kind of glow if you will, that i had never seen in anyone before. And so incredibly beautiful, breathtakingly so.We quickly became good friends and often spent hours just talkning in the livingroom, shareing experiences, talking about everything between heaven and earth and joking around . Gave each other advice and attention during mentaly though times for both of us. She was my rock already then although our relation was strickly platonic and I was satified like that. Until I no longer were. A couple of months passed I noticed myself becoming progressively more jealous about all the little things and intreactions between her and her boyfriend. Which had never even faced me before, especially since I have always enjoyed being alone, but something apparently had changed.​Everything went on just as usual despite the fact i had started to develop feelings for her, and boy did I do everything to supress them. I tried seeing other people, using substaces, traveling, but nothing seemed to work. All I could think about was her. I felt stuck without any idea of how to deal with it. They eventually moved to a place of their own but that didn't make anything easier. We stayed in touch but it was not the same and barely saw eachother anymore.​They broke up after about a year and a half, shortly after moving in together but at this point we had lost all contact somehow. More than 6 moths passed and i still could not get her out of my mind, no amount of sex, interaction or substance could change this fact. Until one day we matched on tinder and i lost my shit, I did't know what to do with this. However she wrote to me first and we spent the whole day talking, like nothing ever changed. Up until the point where she tells me that for about as long as I had, she has had feelings for me too. And had been under the same constant internal struggle. I couldn't believe it was happening, what I had been wanting all this time was coming true with each message back and forth. One thing led to another and we decided to try, and if it isn't the best decision of my life. It sounds cliché but she has showed me the meaning of true love and how it feels to be happy, she is the one. The most amazing human on this planet, the one I want to be with for the rest of my life.​This is super rough and shorted down but i wanted to get it of my chest. Thanks for reading and spread love!