I have Aspergers, and I'm beginning to feel I wont ever become social.

I want to start by saying I haven't lost all hope, but I'm nearly at that point.

My teachers ignore me, my peers often laugh at me, I have no idea how to socialise and when I do try socialising with friends I always still feel left out and ignored.

My friends get approached by strangers and make friends easily, I get ignored and ridiculed. My friends get texted by each other and know how to start a conversation both through text and in real life. I can't even think of something to say at all, even to a friend. I cant initiate a conversation online, through text, or with someone new in real life, and I can't figure out how others do it so effortlessly and why I can't get spoken to or why people don't like me enough to text me.

I even look for clubs since I don't have the confidence to volunteer or do a part time job, and I dont even know where to begin looking for that information. My first and my new therapist don't know and recommend getting information from friends, but my friends don't go to any clubs or groups at all. I hate being stuck in the house all the time and I hate not being able to socialise. And I know meetup exists, but it doesn't have anything in my entire country, bar a few elderly groups, and I'm 16.

I want to know people, I want to be known. I don't expect everyone to like me, but I hate feeling like everyone hates me. It's like, I'm gonna stay trapped like this until all the grey feelings I'm feeling finally fade to black, and I disappear from a world I already feel transparent in. Even then, if there is a chance, just a small chance, that I can find a way to beat this, I'll take it. But I've run out of options thus far, and I feel like it'd be best to see what you guys think as an outside view, since I feel really uncomfortable about all the people in my life right now.

Seriously, any suggestions are appreciated! No matter what it is, it'd be a lifeline to me to hear something outside of my rigid mindset!

TL;DR I'm stuck in a bad mindset and a bad place, I'd like to have friends I could talk to and who could talk to me, but pretty much everyone I know avoids, ignores, or annoyed by me or they find my sheer existence funny. I can't find any way of meeting people outside school, and I don't know what to do. What can I do?



Submitted November 04, 2019 at 11:58PM

I want to start by saying I haven't lost all hope, but I'm nearly at that point.My teachers ignore me, my peers often laugh at me, I have no idea how to socialise and when I do try socialising with friends I always still feel left out and ignored.My friends get approached by strangers and make friends easily, I get ignored and ridiculed. My friends get texted by each other and know how to start a conversation both through text and in real life. I can't even think of something to say at all, even to a friend. I cant initiate a conversation online, through text, or with someone new in real life, and I can't figure out how others do it so effortlessly and why I can't get spoken to or why people don't like me enough to text me.I even look for clubs since I don't have the confidence to volunteer or do a part time job, and I dont even know where to begin looking for that information. My first and my new therapist don't know and recommend getting information from friends, but my friends don't go to any clubs or groups at all. I hate being stuck in the house all the time and I hate not being able to socialise. And I know meetup exists, but it doesn't have anything in my entire country, bar a few elderly groups, and I'm 16.I want to know people, I want to be known. I don't expect everyone to like me, but I hate feeling like everyone hates me. It's like, I'm gonna stay trapped like this until all the grey feelings I'm feeling finally fade to black, and I disappear from a world I already feel transparent in. Even then, if there is a chance, just a small chance, that I can find a way to beat this, I'll take it. But I've run out of options thus far, and I feel like it'd be best to see what you guys think as an outside view, since I feel really uncomfortable about all the people in my life right now.Seriously, any suggestions are appreciated! No matter what it is, it'd be a lifeline to me to hear something outside of my rigid mindset!TL;DR I'm stuck in a bad mindset and a bad place, I'd like to have friends I could talk to and who could talk to me, but pretty much everyone I know avoids, ignores, or annoyed by me or they find my sheer existence funny. I can't find any way of meeting people outside school, and I don't know what to do. What can I do?
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