Turn of events in spring break

Really crazy good spring break

Hi so this is my first post on here and it might be a long one

I (20F) have never been sexually promiscuous as I was raised in the church where sex is “supposed to be with a man and a wife”. I’ve always been the good girl who does well in school and I’ve never been to a party. I’ve been with my current boyfriend (23M) for 2 and a half years even though we’ve known each other for about 10+ years. He was raised in church too and I love him but sex was always something he didn’t wanna push me to do, but still wanted. We decided to have sex about a year or so ago (took my virginity) and it was great.

Well... A few months ago, he confessed to me that he’s had a sex addiction for a long time and that he cheated on me numerous times since we started dating. Because I love this man and he’s super close with my family (like I’ve wanted to marry this guy for over a year), I decided I would give him a chance to fix himself and his addiction but if it happens again I would not put myself through this kind of emotional trauma again. To my knowledge he’s been doing a lot better about not letting his sex addiction take over but he never got “professional” help.

I go to school about 6 hours away from home and he also lives near where I am going to University. So, a couple weeks ago I came back home for spring break. no biggie, it’ll only be a week... right? Wrong. All this stuff going on pretty much made it to where I can’t go back to the state I’m going to school in and if I did, I wouldn’t have a job.

Now here’s where events start to get a bit crazy.

There’s this guy I used to work with at my high school job (he doesn’t work there anymore) who’s always been a flirt and a horn-dog. I’ve known him for about 5 years. I could name probably 5 girls who I used to work with that I know he’s slept with. We’ve had each other on Snapchat for a while and we have a streak of almost 300 days. He hasn’t tried to be a perv or anything it’s mostly just simple selfies here and there but he usually makes a comment about me “being attractive” (even though I don’t think I am).

He decided to come hang out with me, my sister and a couple of friends to smoke (which I rarely ever do) and I was feeling really flirty and horny (as I hadn’t seen my boyfriend in almost a month and he can’t text me very often because of work). So the next day, we’re snapping and talking and I told him we should hang out. It was raining out too so I mentioned we could cuddle or whatever and he said he’d pay for me to get an Uber to his place and then he would drive me home.

Well, my friends, we definitely cuddled and after we got really comfortable he started feeling me up and he kissed me. I haven’t kissed like that since fucking high school he’s such an amazing kisser and I was horny as frick. We didn’t get past grinding and making out because he didn’t wanna push his luck but shit it was enough to have my head spinning. I mean it was 3 hours of us kissing and then taking a break to cuddle and then kissing again.

The few days after that I pretty much told him next time I saw him I wanted to fuck because he was reeeeeally good. So about a week goes by and he gets off work at a decent time and has the house to himself so I drive my happy ass over there to his place. This man really knows his shit. He was dying to eat me out (and I haven’t been eaten out, again, since like early high school when I was dating a female) and I really wanted to give him head too. That shit was fantastic and I haven’t cum like that ever.

Last night, my sister and her boyfriend went and grabbed some food so I invited him over and we fucked on her couch... hard. It just sucks that every time we wanna fuck it’s on a time crunch but he says he wants to have a day where we can just hang out and have sex as many times as we want.

I didn’t understand how my boyfriend could cheat on me and have sex with someone he didn’t also have an emotional or romantic connection with before, but I get it now. With this other guy, the sex is fantastic but it’s not like I wanna leave my boyfriend and pursue him especially because he still lives back home and I’m not gonna be here for much longer.

I feel like such a slut for cheating on my boyfriend like this... I’ve never been a super sexual person but this other guy just makes me feel so animalistic and like I wanna fuck him all the time. I’m at a crossroads because part of me feels bad that I’m doing this but the other part of me feels justified because of the many MANY times my boyfriend cheated on me. What do I do?

(If you read all the way to the bottom you deserve a literal award because I’m super scatterbrained and wordy and it’s so stupid why am I even posting this okay goodbye)

TLDR; I cheated on my boyfriend because the many times he’s cheated on me and the sex is even better with the other guy.

Submitted March 30, 2020 at 11:47PM

Really crazy good spring breakHi so this is my first post on here and it might be a long oneI (20F) have never been sexually promiscuous as I was raised in the church where sex is “supposed to be with a man and a wife”. I’ve always been the good girl who does well in school and I’ve never been to a party. I’ve been with my current boyfriend (23M) for 2 and a half years even though we’ve known each other for about 10+ years. He was raised in church too and I love him but sex was always something he didn’t wanna push me to do, but still wanted. We decided to have sex about a year or so ago (took my virginity) and it was great.Well... A few months ago, he confessed to me that he’s had a sex addiction for a long time and that he cheated on me numerous times since we started dating. Because I love this man and he’s super close with my family (like I’ve wanted to marry this guy for over a year), I decided I would give him a chance to fix himself and his addiction but if it happens again I would not put myself through this kind of emotional trauma again. To my knowledge he’s been doing a lot better about not letting his sex addiction take over but he never got “professional” help.I go to school about 6 hours away from home and he also lives near where I am going to University. So, a couple weeks ago I came back home for spring break. no biggie, it’ll only be a week... right? Wrong. All this stuff going on pretty much made it to where I can’t go back to the state I’m going to school in and if I did, I wouldn’t have a job.Now here’s where events start to get a bit crazy.There’s this guy I used to work with at my high school job (he doesn’t work there anymore) who’s always been a flirt and a horn-dog. I’ve known him for about 5 years. I could name probably 5 girls who I used to work with that I know he’s slept with. We’ve had each other on Snapchat for a while and we have a streak of almost 300 days. He hasn’t tried to be a perv or anything it’s mostly just simple selfies here and there but he usually makes a comment about me “being attractive” (even though I don’t think I am).He decided to come hang out with me, my sister and a couple of friends to smoke (which I rarely ever do) and I was feeling really flirty and horny (as I hadn’t seen my boyfriend in almost a month and he can’t text me very often because of work). So the next day, we’re snapping and talking and I told him we should hang out. It was raining out too so I mentioned we could cuddle or whatever and he said he’d pay for me to get an Uber to his place and then he would drive me home.Well, my friends, we definitely cuddled and after we got really comfortable he started feeling me up and he kissed me. I haven’t kissed like that since fucking high school he’s such an amazing kisser and I was horny as frick. We didn’t get past grinding and making out because he didn’t wanna push his luck but shit it was enough to have my head spinning. I mean it was 3 hours of us kissing and then taking a break to cuddle and then kissing again.The few days after that I pretty much told him next time I saw him I wanted to fuck because he was reeeeeally good. So about a week goes by and he gets off work at a decent time and has the house to himself so I drive my happy ass over there to his place. This man really knows his shit. He was dying to eat me out (and I haven’t been eaten out, again, since like early high school when I was dating a female) and I really wanted to give him head too. That shit was fantastic and I haven’t cum like that ever.Last night, my sister and her boyfriend went and grabbed some food so I invited him over and we fucked on her couch... hard. It just sucks that every time we wanna fuck it’s on a time crunch but he says he wants to have a day where we can just hang out and have sex as many times as we want.I didn’t understand how my boyfriend could cheat on me and have sex with someone he didn’t also have an emotional or romantic connection with before, but I get it now. With this other guy, the sex is fantastic but it’s not like I wanna leave my boyfriend and pursue him especially because he still lives back home and I’m not gonna be here for much longer.I feel like such a slut for cheating on my boyfriend like this... I’ve never been a super sexual person but this other guy just makes me feel so animalistic and like I wanna fuck him all the time. I’m at a crossroads because part of me feels bad that I’m doing this but the other part of me feels justified because of the many MANY times my boyfriend cheated on me. What do I do?(If you read all the way to the bottom you deserve a literal award because I’m super scatterbrained and wordy and it’s so stupid why am I even posting this okay goodbye)TLDR; I cheated on my boyfriend because the many times he’s cheated on me and the sex is even better with the other guy.