Relationship with partner (F20) is dead and I don’t know how to move forward or break up

I (M20) previously posted here but have since deleted it as I thought it would be resolved. The problem in short was she admitted to openly flirting with guys at work and I was going to break up with her but gave her another chance after she pleaded and promised she would change. For some more context we’ve been together for over a year and a half.

Now I know that was completely stupid of me to do. I should have broke up with her and be trying to get over her by now. But instead everything is extremely awkward. We are both in different cities now for the summer (we met at uni) so we are long distance at the moment. She recently started a new job (the one she admitted to being flirty at), where she will often work most of the day. This means we hardly see each other and hardly have calls throughout the day. This is why everything is so awkward and off, we had a massive bust up then promised to work through it but we can’t because we can’t see each other in person for a week, and we only have 1 call at night which is always awkward and results in argument.

Our relationship is in shambles at the moment and if I’m being honest, I don’t want to continue. I can’t see myself ever trusting her 100% again and whenever we talk it just seems so off and weird. I know I should end things but I promised to try to make things work (when in retrospect now I realise I should have ended it when I tried to). I just feel so stuck and trapped and I want to be free but I feel so shit for giving her hope and making promises to try to fix things when really they are beyond repair at the moment. What should I do?

TL;DR: I want to end my relationship but I promised her I would try to fix things and feel shit and trapped because of it.



Submitted July 28, 2019 at 11:16PM

I (M20) previously posted here but have since deleted it as I thought it would be resolved. The problem in short was she admitted to openly flirting with guys at work and I was going to break up with her but gave her another chance after she pleaded and promised she would change. For some more context we’ve been together for over a year and a half.Now I know that was completely stupid of me to do. I should have broke up with her and be trying to get over her by now. But instead everything is extremely awkward. We are both in different cities now for the summer (we met at uni) so we are long distance at the moment. She recently started a new job (the one she admitted to being flirty at), where she will often work most of the day. This means we hardly see each other and hardly have calls throughout the day. This is why everything is so awkward and off, we had a massive bust up then promised to work through it but we can’t because we can’t see each other in person for a week, and we only have 1 call at night which is always awkward and results in argument.Our relationship is in shambles at the moment and if I’m being honest, I don’t want to continue. I can’t see myself ever trusting her 100% again and whenever we talk it just seems so off and weird. I know I should end things but I promised to try to make things work (when in retrospect now I realise I should have ended it when I tried to). I just feel so stuck and trapped and I want to be free but I feel so shit for giving her hope and making promises to try to fix things when really they are beyond repair at the moment. What should I do?TL;DR: I want to end my relationship but I promised her I would try to fix things and feel shit and trapped because of it.
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