I (18F) wanna give my LDR gf (17F) a package as a birthday present but I also want to break it off ASAP

Basically im (18F) in a 7 months long LDR with my gf (18F) who had her birthday 2 months ago. i havent been able to send her gift package as i dont have the money to send it until school starts (and i dont get money during the summer). For the package, its basically a reminder that shes loved and has friends even if her irls suck. As a result, she has a low self esteem and hates herself. The gift is basically something personal from me and an envelope filled with messages from her online friends, handwritten by me. I already bought the stuff for the gift but the shipping, i might not be able to afford until a month from now.

Anyway, as i said a while ago, her irl situation sucks. She genuinely believes shes unlovable and that I'm the only one that can love her and that i help "fix her". (Kinda manipulative, i know). By result i slowly found our how much of a mean and Petty person she can be by nature. im tired of her bullshit + shes not my responsibility but also i wanna give her the gift to lift her spirits about herself. Shes leaving her bad environment once she enters Uni in September so i think she'll be a better person by then. (But im slowly going insane Right Now). I've thought long and hard about this but i dont think the relationship is worth salvaging considering how shitty her presence makes me feel at the moment.

Tldr; i love my girlfriend but she says im the only good person to her but thats literally not my responsibility. I wanna break it off but also i really wanna give this gift to her. So should i wait until after giving the gift to break up with her? Or do i just break it off and then give it to her (but As Friends)?



Submitted July 28, 2019 at 11:45PM

Basically im (18F) in a 7 months long LDR with my gf (18F) who had her birthday 2 months ago. i havent been able to send her gift package as i dont have the money to send it until school starts (and i dont get money during the summer). For the package, its basically a reminder that shes loved and has friends even if her irls suck. As a result, she has a low self esteem and hates herself. The gift is basically something personal from me and an envelope filled with messages from her online friends, handwritten by me. I already bought the stuff for the gift but the shipping, i might not be able to afford until a month from now.Anyway, as i said a while ago, her irl situation sucks. She genuinely believes shes unlovable and that I'm the only one that can love her and that i help "fix her". (Kinda manipulative, i know). By result i slowly found our how much of a mean and Petty person she can be by nature. im tired of her bullshit + shes not my responsibility but also i wanna give her the gift to lift her spirits about herself. Shes leaving her bad environment once she enters Uni in September so i think she'll be a better person by then. (But im slowly going insane Right Now). I've thought long and hard about this but i dont think the relationship is worth salvaging considering how shitty her presence makes me feel at the moment.Tldr; i love my girlfriend but she says im the only good person to her but thats literally not my responsibility. I wanna break it off but also i really wanna give this gift to her. So should i wait until after giving the gift to break up with her? Or do i just break it off and then give it to her (but As Friends)?
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