I (20f) think I'm falling for my best friend (20m)

Throwaway for obvious reasons. My boyfriend (20m) and I have been together for about a year and a half. My best friend (20m) and I have known each other for almost 3 years. Best friend and I had a brief non-serious relationship but both went our separate ways. I began my relationship with my current boyfriend a while after. Boyfriend and I had been together for about 6 months when he started saying things that in my opinion were off the wall. He made racist and homophobic remarks among other very disturbing things. I was taken aback, but didn't know how to confront those situations. As time has gone on, the remarks have gotten worse and our situation has followed. He doesn't like sex, he doesn't like anything honestly, he doesn't agree with my beliefs (such as treat others how you would want to be treated), and he's generally a brat. I've lost attraction to him and I honestly think I'm falling out of love with him. We're always arguing and he constantly makes me feel stupid or like he's better than me. This is where best friend comes in. When I tell boyfriend something he doesn't agree with he either makes me feel dumb or like the things that matter to me don't matter to him. Best friend is incredibly supportive of all of my decisions. Along with this, boyfriend doesn't ever want to get married, never move to a bigger house, never progress within a career, never go on vacation, nothing! I'm in the process of getting my degree and he asked why I was doing that and spending so much money on it because "what's wrong with where we are now? We make enough." Our household income is $20,000 per year, but because he never wants to progress anywhere, that income is fine with him. The household income is just my income by the way. He helps the neighbor and gets paid a little, but most of the income is mine. All of these things are pushing me farther and farther away and I don't know how much more I can take. Meanwhile, Best friend is still there for everything, still supportive, is absolutely encouraging me to progress in life and become who I want to be, everything. So while my love for boyfriend is diminishing, I'm feeling a strong pull towards best friend. I don't know what to do. On one hand, I care about boyfriend, but his habits are pushing me away and making me feel alone. On the other hand, Best friend has offered me more support than I've ever had. I'm in a hard place and I'm not sure what to do. Should I follow my gut or should I do something else about this?

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TL;DR- My boyfriend has turned into an absolute shit head and I can't continue like this. Best friend is there to lift me up and support me, and I'm falling for him.

Submitted July 28, 2019 at 11:52PM

Throwaway for obvious reasons. My boyfriend (20m) and I have been together for about a year and a half. My best friend (20m) and I have known each other for almost 3 years. Best friend and I had a brief non-serious relationship but both went our separate ways. I began my relationship with my current boyfriend a while after. Boyfriend and I had been together for about 6 months when he started saying things that in my opinion were off the wall. He made racist and homophobic remarks among other very disturbing things. I was taken aback, but didn't know how to confront those situations. As time has gone on, the remarks have gotten worse and our situation has followed. He doesn't like sex, he doesn't like anything honestly, he doesn't agree with my beliefs (such as treat others how you would want to be treated), and he's generally a brat. I've lost attraction to him and I honestly think I'm falling out of love with him. We're always arguing and he constantly makes me feel stupid or like he's better than me. This is where best friend comes in. When I tell boyfriend something he doesn't agree with he either makes me feel dumb or like the things that matter to me don't matter to him. Best friend is incredibly supportive of all of my decisions. Along with this, boyfriend doesn't ever want to get married, never move to a bigger house, never progress within a career, never go on vacation, nothing! I'm in the process of getting my degree and he asked why I was doing that and spending so much money on it because "what's wrong with where we are now? We make enough." Our household income is $20,000 per year, but because he never wants to progress anywhere, that income is fine with him. The household income is just my income by the way. He helps the neighbor and gets paid a little, but most of the income is mine. All of these things are pushing me farther and farther away and I don't know how much more I can take. Meanwhile, Best friend is still there for everything, still supportive, is absolutely encouraging me to progress in life and become who I want to be, everything. So while my love for boyfriend is diminishing, I'm feeling a strong pull towards best friend. I don't know what to do. On one hand, I care about boyfriend, but his habits are pushing me away and making me feel alone. On the other hand, Best friend has offered me more support than I've ever had. I'm in a hard place and I'm not sure what to do. Should I follow my gut or should I do something else about this?​TL;DR- My boyfriend has turned into an absolute shit head and I can't continue like this. Best friend is there to lift me up and support me, and I'm falling for him.