I feel like a failed human being. Every guy I meet leaves after they find out I want something serious.

Im a 25f whose only had one short term relationship eight years ago. Wow. That sounds like so long in my head, but to be honest a good few years of that was recovering from a sexual trauma.. but ever since the past four years, any guy that has expressed interest in me initially run away once I start to show interest back or use me for sex. It's like I have a sign over my head that says "USE ME BUT NEVER GET Too CLOSE." It's horrible. How does everyone else in the world get to have a normal healthy sense of love and I don't? I give love whenever I can. Ask any of my friends or family and they always say Im a loyal, sweet person. I think my personality is interesting and I'm vulnerable. So I really don't think it's that but I'm willing to change that if it means becoming more compatible.

And when it comes to appearance, OOF. I get called sexy/ hot all the time and I loathe it. THAT IS THE WORST COMPLIMENT EVER. Who wants to be seen as a piece of meat? No one. I hate hate hate being called that. Why can't I be called beautiful or cute for once? Some guys will obsess about how to get me in bed but once I start to open up my heart or want to get know them better they run off. I honestly don't know how attractive I am face wise but there's plenty of plain janes out there that can get guys to commit them. So I don't know what my problem is. Every time I try to get close to someone in the dating stage they immediately stop talking to me. I have friends look over my texts and they say I'm not too clingy/needy and I talk in a way that's normal. Maybe it's the energy I give off?

I gave my number to a guy the other day that we always had great convos with each other, but when he decided to text me for a day, the next day he never bothered texting again. I hit him up but was met with one word responses. And the guys that in the blue moon that do show genuinely show interest in ME, I don't find attractive. Yes, I know attraction can grow and stuff and it doesn't take much to attract me to them but I can't force myself to find someone attractive that I don't. What the fuck am I doing wrong? Why do some guys love to commit to some girls and don't with others? Is it appearance, your energy, what? I don't want to die alone.

Submitted February 11, 2020 at 12:21AM

Im a 25f whose only had one short term relationship eight years ago. Wow. That sounds like so long in my head, but to be honest a good few years of that was recovering from a sexual trauma.. but ever since the past four years, any guy that has expressed interest in me initially run away once I start to show interest back or use me for sex. It's like I have a sign over my head that says "USE ME BUT NEVER GET Too CLOSE." It's horrible. How does everyone else in the world get to have a normal healthy sense of love and I don't? I give love whenever I can. Ask any of my friends or family and they always say Im a loyal, sweet person. I think my personality is interesting and I'm vulnerable. So I really don't think it's that but I'm willing to change that if it means becoming more compatible.And when it comes to appearance, OOF. I get called sexy/ hot all the time and I loathe it. THAT IS THE WORST COMPLIMENT EVER. Who wants to be seen as a piece of meat? No one. I hate hate hate being called that. Why can't I be called beautiful or cute for once? Some guys will obsess about how to get me in bed but once I start to open up my heart or want to get know them better they run off. I honestly don't know how attractive I am face wise but there's plenty of plain janes out there that can get guys to commit them. So I don't know what my problem is. Every time I try to get close to someone in the dating stage they immediately stop talking to me. I have friends look over my texts and they say I'm not too clingy/needy and I talk in a way that's normal. Maybe it's the energy I give off?I gave my number to a guy the other day that we always had great convos with each other, but when he decided to text me for a day, the next day he never bothered texting again. I hit him up but was met with one word responses. And the guys that in the blue moon that do show genuinely show interest in ME, I don't find attractive. Yes, I know attraction can grow and stuff and it doesn't take much to attract me to them but I can't force myself to find someone attractive that I don't. What the fuck am I doing wrong? Why do some guys love to commit to some girls and don't with others? Is it appearance, your energy, what? I don't want to die alone.