How do you apologize

To preface, I’m a 15 year old with depression and anxiety, so please understand that not everything I did might sound logical in your eyes. So I have a tumblr blog where I rant about my feelings. It’s private, and only my close friends know about it. On it, I complain a lot about my parents causing stress, my genuine struggles, but also exaggerations of how much I hate life (angsty teenage dark jokes). My parents found out about this blog because I left my laptop open one day. They got very upset, and my dad (my mom lives in a different country, but they’re not divorced) threatened to move in with my mom and leave me alone to work minimum wage to support myself. My parents are understandably most upset about the posts regarding them and how much I dislike their unrealistic expectations of me. Some posts about them were exaggerated, which also upset them. I tried to apologize and explain that I wrote on the blog when I was feeling my worst, so I kind of just wanted to spill out all my negativity. But they just told me I was an idiot for thinking any of my friends cared about my struggles, and said they never wanted to see my face again. They’re not giving me another chance to explain how I feel, and only get more upset regardless of what I do. I know why they’re upset and I don’t blame them. What I wrote wasn’t outright offensive, but I came off as very entitled and ungrateful in the posts. But I want to be able to talk to them. I do genuinely appreciate all they’ve done for me, but sometimes I just want to rant to a small audience about problems and get support. I don’t know how to word my apology so they understand: 1. I’m sorry for the way I wrote about them and am thankful for everything they’ve done for me 2. my blog is somewhere I go when I’m really upset and shouldn’t be a representation of how I think 24/7 3. I’m actually in emotional pain and their invalidation of my struggles (”you think your life is hard? Try living in a war zone,” “why are you crying? You have no reason to cry,” etc) is part of why they’re written in such a negative light on my blog

The third one isn’t necessary it’s something I wish I could say but am too scared to.

TLDR: parents found private blog where I complain about everything, and are upset about how I wrote about them. I want to apologize and explain my actions but they won’t let me. How do I get my feelings across without further damaging our relationship?

Submitted January 02, 2020 at 11:51PM

To preface, I’m a 15 year old with depression and anxiety, so please understand that not everything I did might sound logical in your eyes. So I have a tumblr blog where I rant about my feelings. It’s private, and only my close friends know about it. On it, I complain a lot about my parents causing stress, my genuine struggles, but also exaggerations of how much I hate life (angsty teenage dark jokes). My parents found out about this blog because I left my laptop open one day. They got very upset, and my dad (my mom lives in a different country, but they’re not divorced) threatened to move in with my mom and leave me alone to work minimum wage to support myself. My parents are understandably most upset about the posts regarding them and how much I dislike their unrealistic expectations of me. Some posts about them were exaggerated, which also upset them. I tried to apologize and explain that I wrote on the blog when I was feeling my worst, so I kind of just wanted to spill out all my negativity. But they just told me I was an idiot for thinking any of my friends cared about my struggles, and said they never wanted to see my face again. They’re not giving me another chance to explain how I feel, and only get more upset regardless of what I do. I know why they’re upset and I don’t blame them. What I wrote wasn’t outright offensive, but I came off as very entitled and ungrateful in the posts. But I want to be able to talk to them. I do genuinely appreciate all they’ve done for me, but sometimes I just want to rant to a small audience about problems and get support. I don’t know how to word my apology so they understand: 1. I’m sorry for the way I wrote about them and am thankful for everything they’ve done for me 2. my blog is somewhere I go when I’m really upset and shouldn’t be a representation of how I think 24/7 3. I’m actually in emotional pain and their invalidation of my struggles (”you think your life is hard? Try living in a war zone,” “why are you crying? You have no reason to cry,” etc) is part of why they’re written in such a negative light on my blogThe third one isn’t necessary it’s something I wish I could say but am too scared to.TLDR: parents found private blog where I complain about everything, and are upset about how I wrote about them. I want to apologize and explain my actions but they won’t let me. How do I get my feelings across without further damaging our relationship?