I [M] am constantly jealous towards my Best Friend [F]

I'm going to start this off saying I hate the way I am, I find it insufferable. I get it, jealousy can make me an asshole, but I want to change that, which is why I'm here.

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B will be Best Friend and M will just be me, just to keep it simple.

We're both the same age (late teens), and we're both at the same stage in our lives. We've known eachother for about a year and a half, I'm Male, B is Female.

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Now that the formalities(?) are out of the way, I'll get to it. I've known B for about a year and a half. We've been really close friends for about 70% of that time, no issues whatsoever between the two of us since we've met, and I hope to keep it that way.

The only issue I have, is how jealous I get. Partway through our friendship I started to get really attached, and whenever she spoke to a friend other than me, I'd get jealous by it. Of course, I would never mention this, even in my head I would never take this out on her. That's because I knew it's my fault, I can talk to my friends, why can't she talk to hers? What is wrong with me?? It has nothing to do with her, it's all in my head and I'm the one that needs to make the change. Who knows, maybe in the future if I get over it, I can mention it to her and we'll be able to laugh about it.

That's why I'm here, I realised that if I don't change this jealousy, our friendship will suffer, and I'll eventually tear my hair out. And I don't want to lose our friendship, I've been so much happier since I met her and I love that. Yeah I still have issues like anyone else, but it's an improvement on what life was like before I met B.

So, does anyone have any advice? I genuinely don't know if it's possible, or how easy it is to change this.

I want to be a better person, I hate being jealous of stupid things, I just want to be her Best Friend.

Thank you to anyone, if you need more details please let me know. And apologies in advance if I don't reply quickly, this isn't my main account.

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TL;DR - I get jealous easily, I hate that, and I want to change that for the sake of a friendship that has improved my life in so many ways.

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**EDIT*\*

I forgot to include further explanation about our relationship in the post, so I'll put it down below.

Around 6 months into our friendship I noticed that I started talking to her in a different way compared to anyone else in my life, I realised I was attracted to her and kept it at that for a while, to see how things progressed.

Around 6 months ago, I spoke to her about how I felt, it took a few days to get a concrete reply out of her because she was surprised, and understandably so. I was 100% patient with her, I didn't push for an answer or anything. I let her think about what happened and asked her some time after. She said she hadn't thought about anyone in that way for quite some time, so the feeling wasn't mutual. It hurt to hear that but I was fine with it, Best Friends or partners, we're close to eachother and that's all that really matters to me.

Things haven't been awkward at all since then, we've been as normal as ever, and I'm occasionally flirting with her because I know it makes her smile. Nothing too creepy or suggestive, stuff that you can get away with as a friend.

This is actually a large reason behind the change that I desire. If my feelings ever change, or if she ever finds someone she likes that isn't me (I'm not getting my hopes up, don't worry, as I said, I'm fine with being friends), what am I going to do? If I don't change now, it could change our friendship for the worst, and I'd like to be there for her as much as I can.

Submitted June 23, 2019 at 11:39PM

I'm going to start this off saying I hate the way I am, I find it insufferable. I get it, jealousy can make me an asshole, but I want to change that, which is why I'm here.​B will be Best Friend and M will just be me, just to keep it simple.We're both the same age (late teens), and we're both at the same stage in our lives. We've known eachother for about a year and a half, I'm Male, B is Female.​Now that the formalities(?) are out of the way, I'll get to it. I've known B for about a year and a half. We've been really close friends for about 70% of that time, no issues whatsoever between the two of us since we've met, and I hope to keep it that way.The only issue I have, is how jealous I get. Partway through our friendship I started to get really attached, and whenever she spoke to a friend other than me, I'd get jealous by it. Of course, I would never mention this, even in my head I would never take this out on her. That's because I knew it's my fault, I can talk to my friends, why can't she talk to hers? What is wrong with me?? It has nothing to do with her, it's all in my head and I'm the one that needs to make the change. Who knows, maybe in the future if I get over it, I can mention it to her and we'll be able to laugh about it.That's why I'm here, I realised that if I don't change this jealousy, our friendship will suffer, and I'll eventually tear my hair out. And I don't want to lose our friendship, I've been so much happier since I met her and I love that. Yeah I still have issues like anyone else, but it's an improvement on what life was like before I met B.So, does anyone have any advice? I genuinely don't know if it's possible, or how easy it is to change this.I want to be a better person, I hate being jealous of stupid things, I just want to be her Best Friend.Thank you to anyone, if you need more details please let me know. And apologies in advance if I don't reply quickly, this isn't my main account.​TL;DR - I get jealous easily, I hate that, and I want to change that for the sake of a friendship that has improved my life in so many ways.​**EDIT*\*I forgot to include further explanation about our relationship in the post, so I'll put it down below.Around 6 months into our friendship I noticed that I started talking to her in a different way compared to anyone else in my life, I realised I was attracted to her and kept it at that for a while, to see how things progressed.Around 6 months ago, I spoke to her about how I felt, it took a few days to get a concrete reply out of her because she was surprised, and understandably so. I was 100% patient with her, I didn't push for an answer or anything. I let her think about what happened and asked her some time after. She said she hadn't thought about anyone in that way for quite some time, so the feeling wasn't mutual. It hurt to hear that but I was fine with it, Best Friends or partners, we're close to eachother and that's all that really matters to me.Things haven't been awkward at all since then, we've been as normal as ever, and I'm occasionally flirting with her because I know it makes her smile. Nothing too creepy or suggestive, stuff that you can get away with as a friend.This is actually a large reason behind the change that I desire. If my feelings ever change, or if she ever finds someone she likes that isn't me (I'm not getting my hopes up, don't worry, as I said, I'm fine with being friends), what am I going to do? If I don't change now, it could change our friendship for the worst, and I'd like to be there for her as much as I can.