That feeling

Really liked a girl at workplace. Attraction was strong with her but never made a move. I used yo feel bizzare connection with her without even knowing. Sounds dramatic i never felt like this before either. Caught her looking at me so many times and bumping in at coffee place (whenever i went, she would follow). One fine rainy evening, found her waiting for the rain to stop, made a deep eye contact(for the first time) and smiled at her and she smiled back!!. i think i became numb for a moment, i never felt this sensation with such a small action of someone.

Cut to few days later, i try to talk (on chat platform as she was shy), replies couple of times and then ignores. I feel bad-confront her - she makes excuses-i decide to leave her alone. Also came to know, she is committed to someone. I leave her alone more.

Still catch her looking at me from distance so many times. Months passed by, i kept myself busy and not thinking about her or interacting. but here is the part:

There is a strange imprint on back of my mind that brings her to my thoughts even if i am free for a second. I tried to think all the negative stuff about her, dint work. Sometimes, she tries to make an effort to greet, i just greet back and move along. I never look at her if she passes by.

Nothing helped. Now she has gone away for days,it still dint help. I am starting to make peace with this that i just cant get her away from my thoughts ever.

Submitted April 16, 2019 at 10:07PM

Really liked a girl at workplace. Attraction was strong with her but never made a move. I used yo feel bizzare connection with her without even knowing. Sounds dramatic i never felt like this before either. Caught her looking at me so many times and bumping in at coffee place (whenever i went, she would follow). One fine rainy evening, found her waiting for the rain to stop, made a deep eye contact(for the first time) and smiled at her and she smiled back!!. i think i became numb for a moment, i never felt this sensation with such a small action of someone.Cut to few days later, i try to talk (on chat platform as she was shy), replies couple of times and then ignores. I feel bad-confront her - she makes excuses-i decide to leave her alone. Also came to know, she is committed to someone. I leave her alone more.Still catch her looking at me from distance so many times. Months passed by, i kept myself busy and not thinking about her or interacting. but here is the part:There is a strange imprint on back of my mind that brings her to my thoughts even if i am free for a second. I tried to think all the negative stuff about her, dint work. Sometimes, she tries to make an effort to greet, i just greet back and move along. I never look at her if she passes by.Nothing helped. Now she has gone away for days,it still dint help. I am starting to make peace with this that i just cant get her away from my thoughts ever.