I'm so sorry.

You told me you loved me on at 1:00 am. I told you I loved you too. I was so happy, but my hands were shaking and my stomach was twisting inside. I immediately regretted telling you I loved you because something wasn't right. Ignoring my gut, I went to sleep. The next day, I didn't talk to you. You texted me the next day asking if I was ok. I said I was. Then you asked me whether we were a "thing". I said no. Fast forward, I ignored you to eliminate my feelings and in the end, the one who ended up hurting was me. I confronted you and apologized and you said you could care less.No lie, but that hurt so much. I'm trying to recuperate our friendship, but I can't with these feelings in the way. I can't stop loving you and it is so wrong, because I know you don't love me and I know I'm the last problem you want. I wish I could just go back and not tell you how I was feeling about you because I destroyed a friendship and it'll never be the same. I love you so much and if you ever see this, just know whenever I texted you, I loved you. Giving you that gift and seeing your smile, was honestly the best. I just want you, but it is too late for that.

Submitted April 17, 2019 at 02:34AM

You told me you loved me on at 1:00 am. I told you I loved you too. I was so happy, but my hands were shaking and my stomach was twisting inside. I immediately regretted telling you I loved you because something wasn't right. Ignoring my gut, I went to sleep. The next day, I didn't talk to you. You texted me the next day asking if I was ok. I said I was. Then you asked me whether we were a "thing". I said no. Fast forward, I ignored you to eliminate my feelings and in the end, the one who ended up hurting was me. I confronted you and apologized and you said you could care less.No lie, but that hurt so much. I'm trying to recuperate our friendship, but I can't with these feelings in the way. I can't stop loving you and it is so wrong, because I know you don't love me and I know I'm the last problem you want. I wish I could just go back and not tell you how I was feeling about you because I destroyed a friendship and it'll never be the same. I love you so much and if you ever see this, just know whenever I texted you, I loved you. Giving you that gift and seeing your smile, was honestly the best. I just want you, but it is too late for that.