I really want to see her but I know I shouldn’t, what do i do?

Hey guys so I [M 19] have feelings for a friend [F 19] and long story she doesn’t know how she feels about me and just wanted to be friends and see where things go, while I wanted something less platonic. This led us to having a long talk about our feelings and how we care about each other but me saying we can’t be friends so i can get over her. However we have mutual friends so I saw her often and she texted me every other day at least. I also found out through a mutual friend of ours that she talks about me and asks her friend what we did when I hang out with the friend. She also said to her that there’s a chance we could be something in the future. We also watch a show at there house weekly and when we go we sit together on the couch pretty close, and yesterday she was leaning in to me while my arm was around the couch (sorta around her).

As well as little things like her looking at my lips when we talk, body language, flirty talking, her trying to hangout with me / set things up, etc. These are all good signs imo despite me reading into them a bit but there’s also negatives. She’s inconsistent sometimes, later in the night during the arm around her example she went to sit somewhere else then came back 10 min before i left, she’s talking / hooking up with other guys, and she just doesn’t care about me the same way i care about her.

Overall though i’m still dying to see her and want to set something up or start contacting her first but I don’t want to go back on what i said about not being friends. And honestly part of me is worried she just likes the chase when i’m not into her and she’s less interested when i am. Do i double down on not being friends and tell her to stop despite I REALLY don’t want her to, or do I do a 180 and start talking with her more and hanging out with her.

Thanks!

Submitted October 30, 2020 at 11:35PM

Hey guys so I [M 19] have feelings for a friend [F 19] and long story she doesn’t know how she feels about me and just wanted to be friends and see where things go, while I wanted something less platonic. This led us to having a long talk about our feelings and how we care about each other but me saying we can’t be friends so i can get over her. However we have mutual friends so I saw her often and she texted me every other day at least. I also found out through a mutual friend of ours that she talks about me and asks her friend what we did when I hang out with the friend. She also said to her that there’s a chance we could be something in the future. We also watch a show at there house weekly and when we go we sit together on the couch pretty close, and yesterday she was leaning in to me while my arm was around the couch (sorta around her).As well as little things like her looking at my lips when we talk, body language, flirty talking, her trying to hangout with me / set things up, etc. These are all good signs imo despite me reading into them a bit but there’s also negatives. She’s inconsistent sometimes, later in the night during the arm around her example she went to sit somewhere else then came back 10 min before i left, she’s talking / hooking up with other guys, and she just doesn’t care about me the same way i care about her.Overall though i’m still dying to see her and want to set something up or start contacting her first but I don’t want to go back on what i said about not being friends. And honestly part of me is worried she just likes the chase when i’m not into her and she’s less interested when i am. Do i double down on not being friends and tell her to stop despite I REALLY don’t want her to, or do I do a 180 and start talking with her more and hanging out with her.Thanks!