First time dating in almost a decade & have no idea how this relationship is going.

I don't know how much of backstory is relevant but I'm deep in my own head and could use a fresh POV.

In June I ended an unhealthy 10 year relationship with someone I loved, my only ever relationship. I moved to England and unexpectedly met this girl on a dating app. Wasn't expecting anything, but we clicked immediately. Had hours-long phone calls and texted frequently leading up to our first date, where we made out a bit and made future plans.

2 months and several dates later, that has been our only physical interaction. She stopped texting nearly as much, except to arrange meet-ups. I tried to kiss her again on date 5-ish but was rejected, saying she was in a weird place. Radio silence for 10 days, I was thinking we were done and started to move on. And she hits me up for another meet-up, which goes amazing again, but I was embarrassed after the previous rejection and didn't try anything. After another good date, I left town for a few weeks. We were texting more while I was gone, and when I came back this week she asked if I was free on Sunday. I said "yeah, what do you feel like doing", since I don't know what COVID restrictions are in a town I barely know. 2 days without a response.

She's given me signals that range from "we're done here" to "I really like you and am nervous," and I can't read her at all.

Being fair, I'm definitely still processing stuff from my home life and in a fairly rough state mentally. I've been 100% honest with her about all of it, and she told me she got out of a relationship 6 months ago but is otherwise mostly closed when talking about herself. I know I really like her, but I don't know what I want. I'm open to just being friends or being intimate or everything in between, but really just want an honest relationship with her.

What's happening here? What should I do? Many thanks kind strangers of the internet.

Submitted October 30, 2020 at 11:47PM

I don't know how much of backstory is relevant but I'm deep in my own head and could use a fresh POV.In June I ended an unhealthy 10 year relationship with someone I loved, my only ever relationship. I moved to England and unexpectedly met this girl on a dating app. Wasn't expecting anything, but we clicked immediately. Had hours-long phone calls and texted frequently leading up to our first date, where we made out a bit and made future plans.2 months and several dates later, that has been our only physical interaction. She stopped texting nearly as much, except to arrange meet-ups. I tried to kiss her again on date 5-ish but was rejected, saying she was in a weird place. Radio silence for 10 days, I was thinking we were done and started to move on. And she hits me up for another meet-up, which goes amazing again, but I was embarrassed after the previous rejection and didn't try anything. After another good date, I left town for a few weeks. We were texting more while I was gone, and when I came back this week she asked if I was free on Sunday. I said "yeah, what do you feel like doing", since I don't know what COVID restrictions are in a town I barely know. 2 days without a response.She's given me signals that range from "we're done here" to "I really like you and am nervous," and I can't read her at all.Being fair, I'm definitely still processing stuff from my home life and in a fairly rough state mentally. I've been 100% honest with her about all of it, and she told me she got out of a relationship 6 months ago but is otherwise mostly closed when talking about herself. I know I really like her, but I don't know what I want. I'm open to just being friends or being intimate or everything in between, but really just want an honest relationship with her.What's happening here? What should I do? Many thanks kind strangers of the internet.